I excepted today to be stressful since the beta push was planned to happen today. The good news is that it all went through and appears to be ok so far. Jake came home really early today to help me and I really needed it. The little boy was a gem, too. He went exploring in the house.
And grabbed things out of drawers.
And looked at me when I said “No” so he could decide if I was serious. When he sees that I am, he puts it back.
David’s been a gem too.
I must say everyone in my family is so supportive and kind to me. I get very stressed often and need to really focus for moments and they are always understanding and kind and give me the space I need. They accept my apologies. They forgive me. They make me feel accepted and loved. And honestly, that’s what I’ve always sought in my life. I am also in a wonderful place with my parents and appreciate their kindness, generosity and wisdom, too. Just feeling a bit fragile today because I was so stressed that it spilled over and that always leaves me a bit spent. And then I step back and appreciate my life and loved ones in a different light.
I have a lot on my mind lately but haven’t been able to sit and think through it. Now that the beta is out I plan to make room for journaling and hope that it will help me. Guide me. All my classes are over now, too and maybe I need a little break but I do love the classes. So are you taking anything? Anything you love?
Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful the Beta push is out. My first. And so far, so good.
2. I am grateful for Jake coming home early again and for the kindness of all of my family today.
3. I am grateful for a few quieter days. I plan to rest and refresh so I can have a resurge of excitement and productivity in the next few weeks.
Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that i got some candy {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that mommy read to me
3. I am grateful that I got a game for the phone
I’ve always been amazed at the willingness of my family to accept me, both in good times and in bad. Sometimes I can’t believe how wonderful it is to hear my kids say, “It’s ok, mommy,we know you were just tired/stressed/busy. And we know you love us.” I come from a single-parent home where my mother always held a grudge, for weeks, if I made a mistake or forgot to do a chore. So I’m very grateful for having this forgiveness from my family. I learn so many things from them (even though they are 6 and 3) every single day.
I’m taking a wonderful class over at BPC 🙂 Yours!
I truly hope you get some clarity and guidance from your journaling and thinking. Finding some quality quiet time to devote to your self is so important.
Take some advise from my years of life dear one. When we are young and raising children, managing a household, working and wanting our own expression life gets stressful. Don’t try to squeeze so much into each day. Leave blank space on your to do list everyday to do nothing. We woman tend to over extend ourselves. We are so busy thinking what we are going to do next we forget to live in the moment. When was the last time you totally lived in the moment and did not think of the next thing on the list? What will you remember about today one year from now, what will your children remember about today one year from now? Relax you are perfect just as you are.
My favourite class right now is your one over at BPC. I have learnt so much from you but also the amazing ladies on the boards. Glad the Beta push went ok for you. Hope you get to relax a little more no, take care. Deb (dalex @BPC)