Random Thoughts

First of all, I want to say that I don’t think I intended to subtly ask for support yesterday or be mysterious in any way. However, your support really touched me and empowered me even further. So maybe I was doing it sub-consciously!   And I took my first step, so thank you, thank you. There’s no big mystery, I didn’t quit my job or change my life in a drastic way. I wanted to write it that way cause I wanted it to be generic. To express how each of us might choose to lean at times when a small (or big) choice is activating our personal insecurities. I apologize if the vagueness annoyed anyone. It was not intended.

Ok, that’s that.

Since it’s already 9pm here and I am close to bedtime, I thought I’d give you a bit of an update on where my mind is lately. Quick dump of thoughts in no order:

1. I’ve been thinking a lot about the arrival of Fall. I am not really ready for it and definitely not excited about setting alarms, making lunches, driving back and forth to school several times a day. Mostly the adjustment period to a new schedule. Never an easy time for me. But I know it will work out, because it always does. One way or another. It will also be a good excuse to put some of the neglected areas back on track.
2. I’m trying not to rush into the Fall and enjoy these last few weeks of August left. It’s been a very busy few weeks for me and I want to take a little time off and enjoy my family more and spend some time hugging. Maybe take a short trip since both Jake and I have upcoming birthdays.
3. I am so grateful for the support of my parents. I am so grateful I get to talk to my mom so often on Skype and how unequivocally she supports me. I feel confident that she has my back. I hope that when my kids are older, they can feel that way about me, too. Thank you, Mom.
4. I signed up for a few classes for September. One art, one soul-searching, and I plan to sign up for a local one on The Science of Mindfulness.    And then one more but just a weekend-long one.  I know that’s a lot. But I am planning to be kind to myself and I know they will all fulfill me in different ways.
5. I am a part of Big Picture’s Big Idea Festival and it’s free so you should sign up. And, btw, even though I haven’t been posting them, I’m pretty caught up both OLW and MMEW.
6. My MBSR class ends tomorrow. I am sad. This class really shifted me out of the sadness I’d sunk into since March. I am hoping the newfound joy and gift of meditation will stick with me long after the class is over.
7. I’ve already begun thinking of 2013. Especially about my goals and projects for the year. A little bit about my word, too. But mostly about what to focus on. I want to combine what I love doing with new things to learn. I need to dump it all on paper so I can see it better. I am also still pondering the class but for now I am focusing on being a student and not a teacher. If there’s something you really really want to see here, let me know. (No promises though so please don’t get mad at me!)
8. I had been thinking about what a difficult year 2012 was for me but now I feel so much better and I am so grateful for that.
9. I’ve been really lacking in the photo-taking lately. Partly cause I am so overwhelmingly busy but partly cause it seems to be less of a priority lately. I need to and plan to work on that.
10. I love taking little walks with my family. The one wonderful side benefit to the exercise has been that I can now take longer walks and I am in better overall shape. Since I love nature so much, this is a great plus for me.
11. I need to eat better. Not even less. Just differently and more healthy. I tend to just have coffee and peanuts on days when I am busy. Not such a good choice. I feel like this item always falls to the bottom of the to-do bucket.

That’s it for tonight. Tomorrow I am at work all day and have class late into the night. If I don’t update at night, now you know why.