Magic I Saw this Week: This was a reasonably ordinary week and between the short, dark days and a lot of rain, I wasn’t super magical. But I paid attention to Nathaniel’s magic on Friday when we were together. Part of me wishes he would grow up a bit more and be willing to go deeper on things and then there a huge part of me which is so happy to have him still be such a joy filled kid. He’s magic in its purest form. David has also been in a good mood this year so far. He’s almost fourteen and while he has some teenager in him, he’s so kind, so loving and has so much character. I love that he hugs me so tight and is so kind to me always. And Jake’s had a magical week. He went climbing 6-7 times this week and passed a third lead climbing test. He’s a rockstar. I am surrounded by magic.
Magic I Made this Week: Jake and I are still doing the yoga. I went to the gym three times for body pump and once for yoga this week and still did my pushups. I journaled daily. I made time to draw at work twice this week and left work early three times to try to be home for the kids. I’ve been taking time to take care of myself and the ways in which I want to grow but I’ve also been taking slow steps and being graceful with myself. Also listening to what I want/what I need/what will fill me up. It’s a journey for sure.
Magic of Me that I explored Week: Hmm I still haven’t done much here. The journaling has definitely been helping and I am planning to do some extra thinking here this week. I’ve been neglecting it.
Top Goals Review:
- Work: reviewed 2019 plans but didn’t get meetings on calendar yet, actively working on it.
Personal: kept up with journaling + art + yoga, pushups, gym. feeling good about this.
Family: started physics with david, though we only did twice. found new math to do with nathaniel, feeling good there. cooked for Jake only once. took family photos and did celebrations.
I celebrate: speaking my mind on friday. i have a lot of thoughts and have been trying to be articulate and yet honest.
I am grateful for: a long weekend. they make me disproportionally happy.
This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day. I also went to body pump three times, and another yoga class at work.
Self-care this week: Still journaling, sleeping reasonably well, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible. Also got my hair done!
I showed up for: work this week and for myself especially with taking the time to do art.
I said yes to: Jake this week when he wanted extra climbing time. it’s so wonderful to see him so happy.
I said no to: to working late at work during these rainy days.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Embrace: i am embracing my feelings as much and often as possible, still. paying attention to undercurrents especially. trying to tend to and communicate my needs.
- Alive: i spent all of Friday reading this book I love love loved and while it might be weird since it was such a passive thing, i really felt alive reading it.
- Lighter: letting myself slow down and not feel pressured by my todo list has been making me feel lighter.
- Kinder: i was kinder to my friend this week, she really needed it.
- Surrender: thinking about surrender a lot. trying to connect with my most innerself and understand what my needs/cravings are.
What I tolerated this week: a lot of rain. rain makes me sad so i put extre twinkly lights on. our tree is also still up.
My mood this week was: sad but also centered.
I am proud of: getting some lovely art done.
I forgive myself for: not being as productive and super happy this week.
Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that communication is tough. we each have so much of our own issues that it’s super hard not to imbue other people’s words with meaning that might never ever be intended and then the reaction to that creates its own dynamic and it’s so so important to try to be able to step back and see where I added meaning when there wasn’t one (or where there was a different intended meaning.)
What I love right now: the fire on my tv is still making me most happy.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.
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