Weekly Reflection 2019 – 11

Magic I Saw this Week: I consciously tried to make this week quieter than last week. Much of the magic i saw this week was just ordinary life. Sunshine daily was magical. Even though the time change was hard, leaving work and having it be super bright and sunny was magical. Seeing just our daily ordinary life was also pretty magical for me. We are so lucky even though we spend a lot of our time working hard and not paying attention to it, there’s a lot of magic in our lives.

Magic I Made this Week: This week’s magic started with getting Nathaniel to the Tech museum and seeing his whole team test their hovercraft. There was a lot of yoga this week. A lot of leaving work early to be home before the kids. A lot of art. And i went to book club, too. For an uneventful week, it was pretty great.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Still spending a bit of time on self awareness here. Not enough this week but it’s still closer to top of mind for me.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: totally did not do perf + it took 3 hours but I did empty out most of my email
    Personal: i did daily drawing, i didn’t journal at all, i did daily yoga, and we did not do a hike.
    Family:  did not do math with N, cook dinner once, did not work with D. I spent a little bit of time with love of my life.

I celebrate: going to book club after such a long hiatus.

I am grateful for: taxes being almost done even though it’s another check i have to write.

This week, I exercised: i did yoga every day, twice on Tuesday and Thursday and then I did body pump on Monday and Wednesday.

Self-care this week: leaving early and doing art daily and all the yoga are a win for me right now, and going to book club was awesome.

I showed up for: myself this week.

I said yes to: leaving work early. book club.

I said no to:  doing perf. working late nights.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing the yoga and i am proud of myself.
  • Alive: it felt really alive to go to book club.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter with my perspective at the moment.
  • Kinder: i am finding myself softening a bit, i really am grateful.
  • Surrender: yoga is helping with surrender.

What I tolerated this week: just feeling all my feelings still.

My mood this week was: ok. this was a quiet week.

I am proud of: my life.

I forgive myself for: how i’m still feeling.

Here’s what I learned this week: i am learning to be patient and to see things from so many perspectives. I am learning so much about myself.

What I love right now: our life is more hectic than i’d like but it also feels full in all the great ways.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 10

Magic I Saw this Week: This was a crazy long week filled with a lot of highs and a lot of lows. I saw rainbows, I saw people working together, I saw my kids working hard, I saw people excited about our college and its future, I saw excited kids who accomplish so many amazing things. I saw that there’s so many small touches in my day to day life that are magical.

Magic I Made this Week: I did yoga every day except Friday. We hosted a friend of Jake’s monday night and it was lovely. We built a prosthetic arm at work and that was magical. Going to science fair was magical and david winning first place was also magical. going back to a school even with jake where we talked a bit about our college years was magical.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: i did a bit of work on this, this week. I got my hair done on Monday. I had a really really bad experience at work on Thursday so I took Friday off and had a mental health day and spent the day with my friend Kelly which was truly magical. I spent a bunch of time thinking about my life and who I am and what I am willing to do (and not willing to do.) and read a lot. Good day for me.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: done with offsite + did some of perf + emptied out email but it’s full again 🙂
  • Personal: did daily drawing, did not journal, did yoga, and did not do a hike, was totally sane till Thursday when i just had the last drop
  • Family:  did science fair, did not do math with N, did not cook dinner once , worked with D. Some time with love of my life.

I celebrate: David. He won first place in science fair.

I am grateful for: my friend kelly this week.

This week, I exercised: i did yoga every day except Friday, twice on Thursday and then I did body pump on Monday.

Self-care this week: mental health day for the win.

I showed up for: my manager and my son.

I said yes to: having something to do every single night.

I said no to:  working at the state i was in on Friday.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing that i have a lot of feelings and need more time to figure them out.
  • Alive: it felt really alive to be with a friend on Friday.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter with the offsite done.
  • Kinder: i let several people be kind to me this week. feels very vulnerable but i tried.
  • Surrender: still reminding myself to surrender daily. it’s helping.

What I tolerated this week: a lot of long long days and very low lows.

My mood this week was: ok until Thursday which completely destroyed me for a while.

I am proud of: my children.

I forgive myself for: how i flew off the handle and how much all this is getting to me.

Here’s what I learned this week: i need to figure out what’s going on with me.

What I love right now: being able to sit on the couch and read.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 09

Magic I Saw this Week: I’ll be honest, I can’t remember much of this week. I feel like it passed in a blur. We had a lot of work moments this week so it was prepping for one thing then the next thing then the next thing etc. So next thing I knew it was Friday. I did see a lot of magic between my boys when David helped Nathaniel with a project. I also saw a rainbow which was magical.

Magic I Made this Week: I did yoga every morning. Even despite being super tired. I Showed up for my friend who wanted a hug so she came down to see me so we could spend time together. I started a new instagram account that joins my love of reading with my love of art. I spent a bunch of time watching movies with Jake. I worked from home on Friday. I took refuge in an office at work so I could get some work done. I decided not to deal with email (I did it over the weekend instead alas…)

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Mostly did a bit of art. I do plan to do some journaling too and I picked a project for OLW March. I really didn’t want to pick something around diet as per my goal this year of not dieting in any form any day of this year. I also didn’t want rigorous new exercise. So the instagram account ended up starting my goal of creating one new piece of art related to a book i am reading and then posting them together. I love it so far.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: finished february monthly, sent the email, wrote the three docs i want to work on, did my perf.
    Personal: did not do journaling + did art + did yoga, did not restart pushups, and did not do a hike.
    Family:  did math with N but only once. Did not do ML or physics with D. Spent time with J. did not Hike together. did Cook dinner.

I celebrate: finishing phase one of perf.

I am grateful for: possibly a good conversation with my manager, some good talks with my friend M at work.

This week, I exercised: i did yoga every day, twice on Tuesday, body pump on Monday and Wednesday.

Self-care this week: not a huge amount outside of the yoga.

I showed up for: my manager this week, he had a lot going on.

I said yes to: time with Jake.

I said no to:  catching up on my email. i am just so behind.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing how i feel.
  • Alive: there was this amazing moment on sunday night when i kept waking up, instead of being super sad, i kept getting excited that it wasn’t time to wake up yet. it was a giddy feeling, i loved it.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter with several tasks done, will feel even better next week hopefully.
  • Kinder: i let my friend M be kind to me and i’ve been kinder at home.
  • Surrender: i have been reminding myself to surrender. it’s been helpful several times this week. This word is my biggest companion this year so far.

What I tolerated this week: a bunch of work.

My mood this week was: busy, low energy.

I am proud of: all i did get done this week.

I forgive myself for: feeling what i feel.

Here’s what I learned this week: i need to and would like to push a bit more. let’s see if i can.

What I love right now: watching my kids.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 08

Magic I Saw this Week: This week was full of magic. We drove from the Bay Area to Manhattan Beach and we left in pouring rain and arrived in full sunshine. The views were all magic. Our lovely hotel room with space for everyone was magic. All the walking we did was magic. The google offices were magical. The sea was amazing and the views were magical. And of course San Diego was a special magic of its own. 

Magic I Made this Week:  I took my family on vacation. We went to Venice Beach, to Google Venice Beach, to San Diego Zoo, on a wonderful hike to the top of Los Angeles and to Hollywood Boulevard. We took time together. It really was magical.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Hmm not much this week except for OLW journaling in my new journal. Reconnecting with my word. Actually I also read a book on money which really helped me think a lot and shift my perspective.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: didn’t do any work this week.
  • Personal: did not keep up with journaling + did some art + did some yoga, did not do pushups, and we hiked.
    Family: we had fun. we worked with the kids but i didn’t work on taxes.

I celebrate: our lovely vacation.

I am grateful for: some time off work. it felt short but it was great. 

This week, I exercised: i did yoga most days and that was it. some hiking, too, of course.

Self-care this week: hmm let’s go ahead and say vacation was self-care :). 

I showed up for:  hmmm not sure this week. 

I said yes to: as many things as i could this week.

I said no to:  doing work, i just didn’t want to. i will work harder this coming week.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing some of my thoughts and also shifting i think.
  • Alive: vacation really helps me feel alive.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter after vacation.
  • Kinder:  kinder. i am always always thinking i want to be kinder.
  • Surrender: i need to surrender more. especially with everything i can’t control.

What I tolerated this week: a lot of time in the car.

My mood this week was: quiet but grateful.

I am proud of:  all of us for having a lovely vacation with no fighting.

I forgive myself for: not being chirpy.

Here’s what I learned this week: i can grow and i can change my perspective.

What I love right now:  a few more days off before work takes over.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 07

Magic I Saw this Week: This wee was magic of seeing David and his friends celebrate his birthday. The magic of his STEM fair poster coming together and working side by side with him on his code. Magic of Nathaniel and doing math together. Magic of cuddling on the couch with Jake and watching Marvelous Ms. Meisel together. Magic of working from home especially when it rains. Magic of reading and flowers and yoga, always. 

Magic I Made this Week:  I worked from home on Wednesday this week when it was pouring rain and it was so much more calming. I also tried to come home early every day and was able to pull it off all days except one. I spent a lot of time helping David with his STEM project. A lot of time prepping for his birthday party. I booked our vacation. I did some art and some journaling and some yoga and a lot of reading.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: I talked to my manager a bit this week so that was good. I also tried to come up with a plan to shift my perspective.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: started plans for march, also did initial prep for monthly, i did my part for email 2.
  • Personal: i so so kept up with journaling + did some art + did daily yoga, only a few pushups, went to gym twice.
  • Family:  did a bunch of ML with david  and math with nathaniel. did not cook for Jake. did family photos and celebrations. david’s birthday was our adventure.

I celebrate: being done with david’s stem fair prep work.

I am grateful for: speaking up and for working from home on Wednesday. 

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I also went to body pump once, and a full yoga class at work. Did not keep proper track of push ups this week :/

Self-care this week: Still journaling a bit, sleeping so-so, didn’t hike this week, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible. Still need to work on nutrition. 

I showed up for:  David. 

I said yes to: buying the OLW journal which i wanted to do for weeks now.

I said no to:  going to work in pouring rain when i didn’t have to.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing how I feel. I still plan to go all out and really journal my heart out. :/
  • Alive: helping david while a lot of work is how i come alive.
  • Lighter: it feels so much lighter knowing i have vacation coming up.
  • Kinder:  i am trying hard to be kind. to myself, too.
  • Surrender: i have been reminding myself to surrender especially as i do yoga in the mornings.

What I tolerated this week: a lot of last minute work for David, a lot of rain. 

My mood this week was: a little numb i think.

I am proud of:  my husband. he injured his hand and can’t climb and he’s taking it all like a champ

I forgive myself for: still getting more excitable than i’d like at times.

Here’s what I learned this week: i am resilient. i am also appreciated.

What I love right now:  i love watching Ms. Meisel with Jake.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 06

Magic I Saw this Week: I will say that I’ve been feeling off and frustrated and disgruntled. It’s hard for me to put my finger on why but I can tell the sentiment is there the whole time. So I am hoping to work on it soon by taking some time to fully journal and see if I can get some of the thoughts out of my head on to paper. Maybe that will help. In this state, I am not as open to seeing magic. But I was still able to see how I am helping some of my workmates tangibly. I saw the magic of David when he worked so hard on his ML and when we celebrated his 14th birthday. Magic of Nathaniel with his friends. Magic of Jake and his ability to forgive. Magic of spending time on my couch reading which is my favorite magic.

Magic I Made this Week:  I took Friday off to celebrate David’s 14th birthday. I emailed my mom, journaled, did my pushups, and yoga. I kept going even when it was really hard. I used my twinkly lights and my fire on youtube to help ground myself. I read a lot. I rested. I spent time with Nathaniel helping him with his homework and with David on his ML. We celebrated david and I made room for Jake to socialize and climb. I also did some lovely art.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: I spent time ruminating and wallowing which wasn’t great. But I also got my hair done and tried to be kind to myself.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: figured out a plan for release and reviews, prepped for monthly, and didn’t do japan yet.
  • Personal: kept up with journaling + did some art + daily yoga, daily pushups, went to gym twice.
  • Family:  celebrated david’s birthday,  did math with nathaniel. cooked for Jake. took family photos and did celebrations. went on a tiny adventure.

I celebrate: David turning 14! I can’t believe he’s 14!

I am grateful for: taking Friday off. and forgiveness.

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day. I also went to body pump once, and a full yoga class at work. 

Self-care this week: Still journaling, sleeping so-so, hiking, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible. Got my hair done. Still need to work on nutrition. 

I showed up for:  David and his birthday. We all took the day off. 

I said yes to: iterating on a graph a lot of times.

I said no to:  working on Friday.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing how I feel. I plan to go all out and really journal my heart out.
  • Alive: playing this awesome video game as a whole family was super awesome and made me come alive.
  • Lighter: it feels so much lighter when i work 4 days a week.
  • Kinder:  i really tried to be extra kind last monday. i’m a work in progress.
  • Surrender: i need to surrender to what is and i am really fighting it a lot.

What I tolerated this week: sadness, quiet, frustration, pain. 

My mood this week was: tired and sad and then happy.

I am proud of:  david. i am so so so proud of him and so thankful for our relationship.

I forgive myself for: everything this week. i will let it all go.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that i have to take time to slow down and that everything works out even if i have to do it last minute. i don’t have to stress.

What I love right now:  i love that i am making so much time to read.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 05

Magic I Saw this Week:  I had a few different colleagues that were very kind to me this week. I work on some of the diversity and inclusion efforts in my organization and I am always so grateful and excited to work with some of the best people. We went to parent conferences this week and I saw both my kids taking time to reflect on the first semester and how they made progress and what areas they’d like to work on and it’s really magical to experience self-reflection like that. I saw some magical sunrises this week. I mean all-sky completely-orange ones. Stunning. I saw my husband being kind and loving and patient and generous.  

Magic I Made this Week:  I took meetings from home two days this week. I saved commuting and got more done in the process.  I took time to draw and time to journal. We hiked together as a family and went climbing together as a family. I went to the gym at work, too, and did yoga and pushups daily. I wrote to my mom, I used my twinkly lights and my fire on youtube to help ground myself. I read a lot. I rested. I spent time with Nathaniel helping him with his homework and with David brainstorming ideas. We went to the kids school for conferences. We took time for each other this week.  

Magic of Me that I explored Week: I read a great book this week called Your Body is not an Apology. I think I need to make a list of books like this that I have to keep reading to educate myself.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: I tried to communicate release and reviews but alas we’re doing one more round, did not get to prep for monthly, but did get alignment a bit better. didn’t do japan. must do better here.
    Personal: keep up with journaling all but friday + did art + yoga, pushups, and went to gym.
    Family: didn’t do physics with david, we’re taking a break, did a bit of math with nathaniel, but not much. cooked for Jake a few times. did family photos and celebrations. went on an adventure at the school.

I celebrate: wonderful parent-teacher conferences

I am grateful for: getting to work from home Thursday and Friday, especially since it was raining on Friday.

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day. I also went to body pump two times, and another yoga class at work. 

Self-care this week: Still journaling, sleeping reasonably well, hiking, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible. Still need to work on nutrition. 

I showed up for:  Nathaniel for his writing homework this week.

I said yes to: not drinking tea after 3pm so . i can sleep better.

I said no to:  nothing specific comes to mind for this week.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing the reality of life. i feel like the more i push against things, the more i get frustrated so I am trying to learn to move with and not against.
  • Alive: climbing, hiking and being outdoors in general makes me feel really alive.
  • Lighter: not much here this week except the drawing, that helps the most at the moment and jake’s hugs.
  • Kinder: trying really hard here and sometimes failing more than i’d like.
  • Surrender: i need to surrender to what is a bit more. surrender to the fact that people are who they are and i am who i am. 

What I tolerated this week: indecision. other people’s. drives me a bit mad.

My mood this week was: tired and frustrated a bit.

I am proud of:  going climbing.

I forgive myself for: getting impatient and tired. and triggering with certain people, at least i am noticing it.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that i am feeling resentful and angry and i need to make peace with this before i can move on and really thrive. i would like to figure out how to reflect on what’s going on and work on how to make it better.

What I love right now:  i am loving the relatively quiet fridays, the balance of work, personal and family time.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 04

Magic I Saw this Week: Hmm. this week was weird as it felt like it was taking forever even though it was only a 4-day week. But still here’s what I saw: my husband is super kind to me and I am grateful that we are at a point in our relationship where we both want to do the work to move through tough spots instead of giving up on each other. We are both getting better at communicating and being self-aware. It’s hard work and I think it’s important to acknowledge it. I saw both of my kids working hard and pushing their own boundaries but i also saw both of them being good at taking care of their own needs. Self-care is super important and I am grateful that they prioritize it. I am grateful for my manager who is thoughtful, personable and kind. In fact, so many of my colleagues are and I really am so grateful for many moments of open, honest conversations, kindness, help, grace I receive throughout the week. I am very lucky. I also am grateful for the room/space I have in my life to do what I care about and what I need. California was kind to me this week, too, with no rain. And I’ve noticed the days are getting longer, magic of light is coming back.

Magic I Made this Week: We went to the water twice this weekend. We . went on a walk together as a family and then we went rowing. Both of those were absolutely magical for me. Especially sitting on the canoe, sipping coffee and being surrounded water, birds and my family.  Jake and I are still doing the yoga every single morning. I went to the gym twice this week since there was no work on Monday and I worked from home Friday. I journaled daily. I made time to draw at work twice this week and left work early and worked at home on Friday.  I lit all the twinkly lights in my room, i also bought ranunculus for myself and Youtube’s been giving me awesome fire crackles and sea sounds. I took lots of time to read on the couch quietly. 

Magic of Me that I explored Week: I finally did something here. I’ve spent some time writing down what I think are positive characteristics about me. What are less positive ones. What are some unique things about me. I think part of owning the magic of me is being clear about what makes me, me. So i am making some progress here. 

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: got some meetings on calendar, revised plans, started communicating them. scheduled very few agenda items, did not start the email (or only did a tiny bit.)
  • Personal: kept up with journaling + art + yoga, pushups, gym.
  • Family: did not do any physics with david this week. he had too much other work,  did very little math with nathaniel. cooked for Jake only once. we did family photos and celebrations. we went on two adventures!

I celebrate: my kids doing exceptional on their ERBs.

I am grateful for: getting to work from home on Friday, I was very triggered and needed the time and am grateful for ir.

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day. I also went to body pump once times, and another yoga class at work. 

Self-care this week: Still journaling, sleeping reasonably well, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible. Need to do better with nutrition, thinking about some plans.

I showed up for:  nothing particular this week :/

I said yes to: quiet reading time this week. i needed it.

I said no to: working when i really needed the time off.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing who i am and watching my feelings still. i am still reacting more than responding but i am catching it sooner now.
  • Alive: going rowing was huge for my feeling alive.
  • Lighter: journaling is really helping here. having a regular outlet. also kindness from my colleague in NYC helped a lot here.
  • Kinder: i was kinder to my friend this week, too, she really needed it. also to myself on Friday when i needed it.
  • Surrender: i surrendered a lot this week. i let the moment be. 

What I tolerated this week: i felt discombobulated and overwhelmed much of the week but I just tried to take it one day at a time.

My mood this week was: overwhelmed.

I am proud of:  moving through my shame thoughtfully and consciously.

I forgive myself for: reacting in a meeting on Thursday. I acknowledged it and then went about both apologizing and fixing while also giving myself grace.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that i am a work in progress and so is everyone else. that things are not black or white. that living is tricky. living with others trickier. that it’s best not to make decisions from one moment. that i need to just talk less. especially when i am nervous and tend to talk even more. and that i want to own who i am instead of being triggered by what others say. 

What I love right now:  i am really enjoying that joining netgalley has meant I read on my kindle more which means i make more quiet time in my life to read (and that i play a lot less candycrush.)


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 03

Magic I Saw this Week: This was a reasonably ordinary week and between the short, dark days and a lot of rain, I wasn’t super magical. But I paid attention to Nathaniel’s magic on Friday when we were together. Part of me wishes he would grow up a bit more and be willing to go deeper on things and then there a huge part of me which is so happy to have him still be such a joy filled kid. He’s magic in its purest form. David has also been in a good mood this year so far. He’s almost fourteen and while he has some teenager in him, he’s so kind, so loving and has so much character. I love that he hugs me so tight and is so kind to me always. And Jake’s had a magical week. He went climbing 6-7 times this week and passed a third lead climbing test. He’s a rockstar. I am surrounded by magic.

Magic I Made this Week: Jake and I are still doing the yoga. I went to the gym three times for body pump and once for yoga this week and still did my pushups. I journaled daily. I made time to draw at work twice this week and left work early three times to try to be home for the kids. I’ve been taking time to take care of myself and the ways in which I want to grow but I’ve also been taking slow steps and being graceful with myself. Also listening to what I want/what I need/what will fill me up. It’s a journey for sure.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Hmm I still haven’t done much here. The journaling has definitely been helping and I am planning to do some extra thinking here this week. I’ve been neglecting it.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: reviewed 2019 plans but didn’t get meetings on calendar yet, actively working on it.
    Personal: kept up with journaling + art + yoga, pushups, gym. feeling good about this.
    Family: started physics with david, though we only did twice. found new math to do with nathaniel, feeling good there. cooked for Jake only once. took family photos and did celebrations.

I celebrate: speaking my mind on friday. i have a lot of thoughts and have been trying to be articulate and yet honest.

I am grateful for: a long weekend. they make me disproportionally happy.

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day. I also went to body pump three times, and another yoga class at work.

Self-care this week: Still journaling, sleeping reasonably well, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible. Also got my hair done!

I showed up for:  work this week and for myself especially with taking the time to do art.

I said yes to: Jake this week when he wanted extra climbing time. it’s so wonderful to see him so happy.

I said no to:  to working late at work during these rainy days.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing my feelings as much and often as possible, still. paying attention to undercurrents especially. trying to tend to and communicate my needs.
  • Alive: i spent all of Friday reading this book I love love loved and while it might be weird since it was such a passive thing, i really felt alive reading it.
  • Lighter: letting myself slow down and not feel pressured by my todo list has been making me feel lighter.
  • Kinder: i was kinder to my friend this week, she really needed it.
  • Surrender: thinking about surrender a lot. trying to connect with my most innerself and understand what my needs/cravings are.

What I tolerated this week: a lot of rain. rain makes me sad so i put extre twinkly lights on. our tree is also still up.

My mood this week was: sad but also centered.

I am proud of:  getting some lovely art done.

I forgive myself for: not being as productive and super happy this week.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that communication is tough. we each have so much of our own issues that it’s super hard not to imbue other people’s words with meaning that might never ever be intended and then the reaction to that creates its own dynamic and it’s so so important to try to be able to step back and see where I added meaning when there wasn’t one (or where there was a different intended meaning.)

What I love right now:  the fire on my tv is still making me most happy.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 02

Magic I Saw this Week: Hmm this week’s magic was going bouldering together, getting back into the groove of work, but most wonderfully spending a lot of time with Jake. I saw how wonderful it is that I am able to come home early most evenings, spend most weekends calmly and really enjoy my family.

Magic I Made this Week: Jake and I are still doing the yoga and it still feels magical but another piece of magic i created for us was driving up to dogpatch on Friday morning just the two of us so I could watch my amazing husband boulder and celebrate and videotape his progress. It was wonderful.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Hmm I am not doing as much work here as I would like but I did journal all week and there have been a few insights. I’ve also been practicing really feeling the kind words my husband says to me and owning them and thanking him. 

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: aligned with my manager on our goals for 2019, also wrote up a long document for us to review this week.
  • Personal: kept up with journaling on all but one day, didn’t do new art during the week art, but did yoga and went to the gym twice for body pump and yoga and also did my daily pushups. 
  • Family: didn’t restart physics with david. did math with nathaniel. cooked for Jake. did both family photos and celebrations.

I celebrate: transitioning to work reasonably seamlessly and slowly.

I am grateful for: an unexpected bonus at work for some work i did last year.

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day. I also went to body pump once, another yoga class at work, and bouldering.

Self-care this week: Still journaling, sleeping reasonably well, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible.

I showed up for:  Jake this week. we got to put him on the spotlight.

I said yes to:  going bouldering even though i was scared and sore.

I said no to:  to bookclub even though i had intended on going but decided i really needed that night at home.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing my feelings as much and often as possible, trying to live them as i experience them.
  • Alive: the bouldering, while super scary, made me feel alive.
  • Lighter: i am really enjoying reading a lot and sitting by the fake fire we have going on our tv. it makes me feel lighter, grounded and grateful.
  • Kinder: i am trying to be kinder to myself and jake and my kids. trying to pay attention to everyone’s needs. not fully there yet.
  • Surrender: i need to surrender to where i am and how i feel. working on it.

What I tolerated this week: i was very sore early in the week, though I am better now.

My mood this week was: tired and in pain.

I am proud of:  how much work i got done, my discipline with coming home early.

I forgive myself for: losing my patience more than i’d like.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that most people don’t ask for what they want. most people don’t even know what they want. when a situation is not great, i need to take the time to understand what i want, and then ask for it.

What I love right now:  that i am still feeling relatively grounded.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 01

Magic I Saw this Week:  This week started with the magic of spending New Year’s eve with my whole family. The first time in 26 years. It was quite magical. Later in the week, everyone flew to their homes and we settled in to a magical quiet. On Thursday, both my boys were happy to go back to school this week even though they weren’t looking forward to it. They came back smiling and happy. 

Magic I Made this Week: Jake and I started doing Yoga together. We start our mornings with Adriene doing her Dedicate series. It’s been really magical getting to do it with my wonderful husband. I’ve also done some art and a lot of journaling this week which was magical.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: As part of my homework for create.2019 I’ve listed all the wonderful moments in 2018 and in my life. It was quite the joyful and eye opening experience. 

Top Goals Review:  none for this week!

I celebrate: doing some art finally after a long, long break.

I am grateful for: this long and wonderful time off i’ve had from work, getting to connect with my family and grounding myself

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day.

Self-care this week: I’ve done a lot of journaling this week and I’ve been resting a lot. I feel pretty grounded. 

I showed up for:  my son in helping him prepare for his high school application.

I said yes to:  spending time with my friend even though it was raining and I didn’t want to leave the house. I rarely want to leave the house 🙂

I said no to:  going to a high school event for David next week. I don’t need to be there and there’s really no reason to add stress this week.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing the fact that all my art muscles have atrophied and i have to start over.
  • Alive: the pushups are actually helping me feel alive.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter after I journal each day, i wish i could remember this more often.
  • Kinder: i am trying to be kinder to my kids, remembering to hug more and hold them tighter.
  • Surrender: i need to surrender to the feelings of anxiety around this quiet time ending. it’s going to be okay.

What I tolerated this week: my knee’s been hurting more than I’d like and I am hoping it will get better with regular exercise.

My mood this week was: Lethargic but peaceful.

I am proud of: How I started the year. Optimistic.

I forgive myself for: Not being as generous with my time as others might want me to be. I am honoring my boundaries.

Here’s what I learned this week: i said yes to keeping track of my books on good reads when gypsy asked me to even though i’d been asked before and didn’t feel like it. it turned out to be a blessing. i love tracking them there and taking the time to document my thoughts more deeply. we’ll see if i can keep it up but for now, i am really grateful. thank you gypsy.

What I love right now:  we’ve been putting on youtube videos of crackling fire on our tv and having that on in the background. I love love love it.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.