Weekly Reflection 2019 – 03

Magic I Saw this Week: This was a reasonably ordinary week and between the short, dark days and a lot of rain, I wasn’t super magical. But I paid attention to Nathaniel’s magic on Friday when we were together. Part of me wishes he would grow up a bit more and be willing to go deeper on things and then there a huge part of me which is so happy to have him still be such a joy filled kid. He’s magic in its purest form. David has also been in a good mood this year so far. He’s almost fourteen and while he has some teenager in him, he’s so kind, so loving and has so much character. I love that he hugs me so tight and is so kind to me always. And Jake’s had a magical week. He went climbing 6-7 times this week and passed a third lead climbing test. He’s a rockstar. I am surrounded by magic.

Magic I Made this Week: Jake and I are still doing the yoga. I went to the gym three times for body pump and once for yoga this week and still did my pushups. I journaled daily. I made time to draw at work twice this week and left work early three times to try to be home for the kids. I’ve been taking time to take care of myself and the ways in which I want to grow but I’ve also been taking slow steps and being graceful with myself. Also listening to what I want/what I need/what will fill me up. It’s a journey for sure.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Hmm I still haven’t done much here. The journaling has definitely been helping and I am planning to do some extra thinking here this week. I’ve been neglecting it.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: reviewed 2019 plans but didn’t get meetings on calendar yet, actively working on it.
    Personal: kept up with journaling + art + yoga, pushups, gym. feeling good about this.
    Family: started physics with david, though we only did twice. found new math to do with nathaniel, feeling good there. cooked for Jake only once. took family photos and did celebrations.

I celebrate: speaking my mind on friday. i have a lot of thoughts and have been trying to be articulate and yet honest.

I am grateful for: a long weekend. they make me disproportionally happy.

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day. I also went to body pump three times, and another yoga class at work.

Self-care this week: Still journaling, sleeping reasonably well, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible. Also got my hair done!

I showed up for:  work this week and for myself especially with taking the time to do art.

I said yes to: Jake this week when he wanted extra climbing time. it’s so wonderful to see him so happy.

I said no to:  to working late at work during these rainy days.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing my feelings as much and often as possible, still. paying attention to undercurrents especially. trying to tend to and communicate my needs.
  • Alive: i spent all of Friday reading this book I love love loved and while it might be weird since it was such a passive thing, i really felt alive reading it.
  • Lighter: letting myself slow down and not feel pressured by my todo list has been making me feel lighter.
  • Kinder: i was kinder to my friend this week, she really needed it.
  • Surrender: thinking about surrender a lot. trying to connect with my most innerself and understand what my needs/cravings are.

What I tolerated this week: a lot of rain. rain makes me sad so i put extre twinkly lights on. our tree is also still up.

My mood this week was: sad but also centered.

I am proud of:  getting some lovely art done.

I forgive myself for: not being as productive and super happy this week.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that communication is tough. we each have so much of our own issues that it’s super hard not to imbue other people’s words with meaning that might never ever be intended and then the reaction to that creates its own dynamic and it’s so so important to try to be able to step back and see where I added meaning when there wasn’t one (or where there was a different intended meaning.)

What I love right now:  the fire on my tv is still making me most happy.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 02

Magic I Saw this Week: Hmm this week’s magic was going bouldering together, getting back into the groove of work, but most wonderfully spending a lot of time with Jake. I saw how wonderful it is that I am able to come home early most evenings, spend most weekends calmly and really enjoy my family.

Magic I Made this Week: Jake and I are still doing the yoga and it still feels magical but another piece of magic i created for us was driving up to dogpatch on Friday morning just the two of us so I could watch my amazing husband boulder and celebrate and videotape his progress. It was wonderful.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Hmm I am not doing as much work here as I would like but I did journal all week and there have been a few insights. I’ve also been practicing really feeling the kind words my husband says to me and owning them and thanking him. 

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: aligned with my manager on our goals for 2019, also wrote up a long document for us to review this week.
  • Personal: kept up with journaling on all but one day, didn’t do new art during the week art, but did yoga and went to the gym twice for body pump and yoga and also did my daily pushups. 
  • Family: didn’t restart physics with david. did math with nathaniel. cooked for Jake. did both family photos and celebrations.

I celebrate: transitioning to work reasonably seamlessly and slowly.

I am grateful for: an unexpected bonus at work for some work i did last year.

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day. I also went to body pump once, another yoga class at work, and bouldering.

Self-care this week: Still journaling, sleeping reasonably well, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible.

I showed up for:  Jake this week. we got to put him on the spotlight.

I said yes to:  going bouldering even though i was scared and sore.

I said no to:  to bookclub even though i had intended on going but decided i really needed that night at home.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing my feelings as much and often as possible, trying to live them as i experience them.
  • Alive: the bouldering, while super scary, made me feel alive.
  • Lighter: i am really enjoying reading a lot and sitting by the fake fire we have going on our tv. it makes me feel lighter, grounded and grateful.
  • Kinder: i am trying to be kinder to myself and jake and my kids. trying to pay attention to everyone’s needs. not fully there yet.
  • Surrender: i need to surrender to where i am and how i feel. working on it.

What I tolerated this week: i was very sore early in the week, though I am better now.

My mood this week was: tired and in pain.

I am proud of:  how much work i got done, my discipline with coming home early.

I forgive myself for: losing my patience more than i’d like.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that most people don’t ask for what they want. most people don’t even know what they want. when a situation is not great, i need to take the time to understand what i want, and then ask for it.

What I love right now:  that i am still feeling relatively grounded.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 01

Magic I Saw this Week:  This week started with the magic of spending New Year’s eve with my whole family. The first time in 26 years. It was quite magical. Later in the week, everyone flew to their homes and we settled in to a magical quiet. On Thursday, both my boys were happy to go back to school this week even though they weren’t looking forward to it. They came back smiling and happy. 

Magic I Made this Week: Jake and I started doing Yoga together. We start our mornings with Adriene doing her Dedicate series. It’s been really magical getting to do it with my wonderful husband. I’ve also done some art and a lot of journaling this week which was magical.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: As part of my homework for create.2019 I’ve listed all the wonderful moments in 2018 and in my life. It was quite the joyful and eye opening experience. 

Top Goals Review:  none for this week!

I celebrate: doing some art finally after a long, long break.

I am grateful for: this long and wonderful time off i’ve had from work, getting to connect with my family and grounding myself

This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day.

Self-care this week: I’ve done a lot of journaling this week and I’ve been resting a lot. I feel pretty grounded. 

I showed up for:  my son in helping him prepare for his high school application.

I said yes to:  spending time with my friend even though it was raining and I didn’t want to leave the house. I rarely want to leave the house 🙂

I said no to:  going to a high school event for David next week. I don’t need to be there and there’s really no reason to add stress this week.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing the fact that all my art muscles have atrophied and i have to start over.
  • Alive: the pushups are actually helping me feel alive.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter after I journal each day, i wish i could remember this more often.
  • Kinder: i am trying to be kinder to my kids, remembering to hug more and hold them tighter.
  • Surrender: i need to surrender to the feelings of anxiety around this quiet time ending. it’s going to be okay.

What I tolerated this week: my knee’s been hurting more than I’d like and I am hoping it will get better with regular exercise.

My mood this week was: Lethargic but peaceful.

I am proud of: How I started the year. Optimistic.

I forgive myself for: Not being as generous with my time as others might want me to be. I am honoring my boundaries.

Here’s what I learned this week: i said yes to keeping track of my books on good reads when gypsy asked me to even though i’d been asked before and didn’t feel like it. it turned out to be a blessing. i love tracking them there and taking the time to document my thoughts more deeply. we’ll see if i can keep it up but for now, i am really grateful. thank you gypsy.

What I love right now:  we’ve been putting on youtube videos of crackling fire on our tv and having that on in the background. I love love love it.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.