Weekly Reflection 2019 – 46

Magic I Saw this Week: This week I ended up working from home two days. On Wednesday, I stayed home because Nathaniel came home sick from school on Tuesday and we had made a doctor’s appointment for him Wednesday morning. I wanted to be the one to take him, so I worked from home all day. It turned out he had pneumonia so I am glad we went to the doctor. On Friday, I picked up my friend from the dentist after she had an operation and was not safe to drive home by herself. So that meant that I got to exercise the magic of being able to adjust my schedule as needed this week. That was wonderful. We also got a couch, a rug and lamp in our office this week which was super magical.

Magic I Made this Week: The stuff I list up top was magic I made. I also took several walking meetings. I cleaned up my calendar a bit. I learned a bit of metrics. I took David to work on Saturday so he could work. All of which was magical for me.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: I went to PT this week, though I’ve been bad about doing my exercises :/

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: stayed on top of email mostly. cleaned up calendar a bit. did not make 6-mo plan yet but working on it. also working on team plan. had the conversations. started to move cities forward.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, very little exercise, a little journaling, sort of made time to sleep. did not yet come up with a whitney plan or restart meal plan. started 2020 plan.
  • Family:  didn’t manage family photos, did hug kids. not a real date night with jake. did not hike. did not prep for my trip.

I celebrate: taking a bunch of hours to think this week

I am grateful for: seeing a shift in my thinking at least so far

This week, I exercised: i took the week off except for a climb at the rock climbing gym and did PT for my knee again.

Self-care this week: not a ton this week.

I showed up for: Nathaniel and his FLL competition.

I said yes to: working and reading a bunch.

I said no to: exercise this week, though not on purpose.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  this potentially new path
  • Alive: feeling sparks of happiness and calm.
  • Lighter: i am seeing some sparks of light.
  • Kinder: here’s to being super kind in the next 6 weeks left of the year
  • Surrender: i am getting closer to surrendering.

What I tolerated this week: unexpected plans

My mood this week was: open.

I am proud of: supporting my family and friends

I forgive myself for: not always being productive, especially in the mornings.

Here’s what I learned this week: i never regret being there for my kids.

What I love right now: i love that i have my tree up and see the twinkling lights.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 45

Magic I Saw this Week: this week was a tough week because of the concussion I got on Sunday. I went to work on Monday/Tuesday but felt a bit loopy the whole time and then I worked from home on Wednesday/Thursday and I was still loopy and irritable. On Friday I went to work briefly and then tried to take time off but I was so agitated at some point that I felt I might jump out of my own skin. So this week wasn’t fully on the magical side. having said all that, the freak accident that caused the concussion could have been much worse so I am deeply grateful for that.

Magic I Made this Week: I took time off. We’re going to call that magic.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Sorry not much this week 🙁

Top Goals Review:  not the most successful week this week.

  • Work: stayed on top of email. started to clean up calendar aggressively. finished perf. did not make 6-mo plan. did not come up with team plan.
  • Personal: did not do daily drawing, did not exercise, did not journal, did make time to sleep. did not really come up with a whitney plan. did not restart meal plan. started 2020 plan.
    Family:  did family photos, did hug kids. had date night with jake. did not hike.

I celebrate: surviving this tough week

I am grateful for: things not being worse

This week, I exercised: i took the week off except for 2 climbs at the rockclimbing gym and started PT for my knee finally.

Self-care this week: most of this week was self-care.

I showed up for: myself.

I said yes to: resting as much as possible.

I said no to: working when i was really hurting.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  where i am and how i feel
  • Alive: not feeling the most alive at the moment.
  • Lighter: nor am i feeling all that light.
  • Kinder: i really need to be kind to myself through this.
  • Surrender: i am trying really hard to surrender.

What I tolerated this week: a lot of pain and irritability.

My mood this week was: down.

I am proud of: not much this week.

I forgive myself for: having to take a break.

Here’s what I learned this week: it’s important to give myself grace.

What I love right now: i love that the holidays are coming.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 44

Magic I Saw this Week: this week was magical with my whole team being here, some good meetings at work, some awesome climbing time and a date night.

Magic I Made this Week: I went to the climbing gym twice this week and it was awesome.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: i did a bunch of 2020 planning i have some more work but i feel better.

Top Goals Review:  not the most successful week this week.

  • Work: did nbu email. did stay on top of email. cleaned up calendar a bit. finished perf. started 6-mo plan. did team summit.
  • Personal: did sort of daily drawing, exercised, journaled, sort of made time to sleep. sort of came up with a whitney plan. did not restart meal plan. started 2020 plan.
  • Family:  did family photos, hugged kids. had date night with jake. did not hike. went to conferences.

I celebrate: my kids doing well at school

I am grateful for: the school my kids go to and the way the teachers approach teaching there.

This week, I exercised: i went rock climbing with jake twice and went to body pump once.

Self-care this week: not super much this week, got my hair done!

I showed up for: my team.

I said yes to: going out to dinner on Monday night with my team.

I said no to: working the weekend.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  life’s stages right now.
  • Alive: i need to come up with a more regular plan for going out.
  • Lighter: i am feeling a bit lighter.
  • Kinder: i am working on thinking about this.
  • Surrender: i am loving the idea of surrender.

What I tolerated this week: long days

My mood this week was: excited.

I am proud of: my team.

I forgive myself for: being behind

Here’s what I learned this week: when you hit your head on the door, it might swell a lot!

What I love right now: i love my family so much.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 43

Magic I Saw this Week: I’ve been in a funk for the last few weeks and trying to find ways to slowly get out of it. I haven’t been super successful yet so the Looking for Magic has suffered accordingly.

Magic I Made this Week: I spent a bunch of time working with Nathaniel and I took Friday off which was the best kind of magic especially since it meant I got to see my friend Evelyn and my friend Kelly all in one day.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: not too much this week.

Top Goals Review:  not the most successful week this week.

  • Work: did not send nbu email. sort of stayed on top of email. did not yet clean up calendar aggressively. did final perf. did setup perf meetings. did not make 6-mo plan.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercise, did not journal, sort of made time to sleep. did not come up with a whitney plan. not sure if i did restart the meal plan. did not make 2020 plan.
  • Family:  did family photos, hugged kids. did not date night with jake. did not hike, but walked.

I celebrate: having Friday off

I am grateful for: books which have been my haven

This week, I exercised: i went rock climbing with jake and went to body pump and took a 3mile walk.

Self-care this week: took Friday off, met with friends

I showed up for: i honestly can’t think of anything.

I said yes to: coming home and not doing work.

I said no to: staying up late.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  still working on embracing the ups and downs of my emotions lately.
  • Alive: remembering to go out as often as i can.
  • Lighter: i am not feeling particularly light.
  • Kinder: i think i need to take a serious step back and revisit this area of my life.
  • Surrender: there’s so much surrendering every day

What I tolerated this week: just this mood

My mood this week was: off.

I am proud of: doing all the perf conversations.

I forgive myself for: everything

Here’s what I learned this week: being a woman is challenging

What I love right now: i love my life and keep trying to find a way to appreciate it more.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 42

Magic I Saw this Week: Hmm there was a lot of lovely magic at work this week with our annual leadership conference. It was lovely and also tiring. The kids had no school on Friday and I worked from home so that was magical too.

Magic I Made this Week: I got to finally meet my friend Leslie for a little bit which was magical. I also helped make the summit happen, does that count?

Magic of Me that I explored Week: not too much this week.

Top Goals Review:  not the most successful week this week.

  • Work: did nbu preso+email. did stay on top of email. did not yet clean up calendar aggressively but started. got offsite ready. didn’t finish final perf. did not yet setup perf meetings.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised a tiny amount, did not journal, partially made time to sleep. did not come up with a whitney plan. completely obliterated meal plan.
  • Family:  did family photos, hugged kids. sort of had date night with jake. did not hike.

I celebrate: i am done with my presentation.

I am grateful for: a new manager who will take over one of my teams.

This week, I exercised: i went rock climbing with jake twice this week, that was all.

Self-care this week: took Friday from home just to rest and recover.

I showed up for: work

I said yes to: so much socializing time this week

I said no to: doing more than i could.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  embracing the ups and downs of my emotions lately.
  • Alive: being outside always makes me feel more alive.
  • Lighter: my calendar is already getting lighter.
  • Kinder: this is an area i continue to struggle in.
  • Surrender: surrendering to what is.

What I tolerated this week: long days of socializing completely depleted this social introvert.

My mood this week was: tired, anxious.

I am proud of: presenting even when i really didn’t want to.

I forgive myself for: how much i am learning at once and thus failing often.

Here’s what I learned this week: one step at a time

What I love right now: i really really really love my kids and husband.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 41

Magic I Saw this Week: I feel like I am being repetitive at this point. Work’s been a lot lately and I am just doing it all the time. The magic of this week has been the sunshine, the early morning drawing at work, trying to balance all the things and gratitude for California and its weather, so grateful not to have gloomy weather on top of all this.

Magic I Made this Week: I made one of Jake’s dreams come true. At least I enabled it 🙂

Magic of Me that I explored Week: hmm a bit more OLW and some scrapping.

Top Goals Review:  not the most successful week this week.

  • Work: nbu preso mostly done. didn’t stay on top of email but cleaned it out. started cleaning up calendar aggressively. got offsite ready. more perf done. committee done. setup perf meetings not done.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, did not exercise, did journal, sort of made time to sleep. did not come up with a whitney plan. barely continued meal plan.
  • Family:  did family photos, hugged kids. no date night with jake. did hair.

I celebrate: that i am still drawing and still reading and still showing up.

I am grateful for: Jake’s journey and happiness.

This week, I exercised: i did not exercise atall this week. took the week off. Except for a 5.5 mile walk.

Self-care this week: got my hair done, and just took all the mornings off this week.

I showed up for: my husband on Thursday.

I said yes to: working late on Friday so i could get my list done.

I said no to: my knee has been very injured so i’ve been saying no to putting more pressure on it.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  embracing the sunny days while they are still here.
  • Alive: trying to adjust my sleep so i can feel more rested.
  • Lighter: one more week and i will feel a step change.
  • Kinder: asking for help when i can.
  • Surrender: surrendering to how i feel

What I tolerated this week: i’ve been feeling really tired and depleted.

My mood this week was: rushed.

I am proud of: serving on committee.

I forgive myself for: how i am unable to handle change.

Here’s what I learned this week: i can let things go

What I love right now: still getting to enjoy the sunshine.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 40

Magic I Saw this Week: This was another work-heavy week. I have one more and then it should get quieter or so I hope. Most of the magic I saw this week has been my wonderful family taking every day as it comes.

Magic I Made this Week: I worked hard this past friday so I didn’t have to work over the weekend. We’re going to say that counts!

Magic of Me that I explored Week: hmm some fun scrapbooking.

Top Goals Review:  not the most successful week this week.

  • Work: did a bit on org health. did stay on top of email. did clean up calendar but not aggressively yet. still getting offsite ready. and getting my preso ready. did some more perf. did committee packets.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised, journaled, made time to sleep. did not come up with a whitney plan. and did sort of do a meal plan.
  • Family:  did family photos, hugged kids. did date night with jake. will get hair done soon.

I celebrate: working late Friday and reading all the packets

I am grateful for: a quiet weekend

This week, I exercised: i went to body pump, walked on a 15% incline on my treadmill and went rockclimbing this week and also finally got my belay card.

Self-care this week: still reading a lot that’s about it.

I showed up for: only work this week i’m afraid.

I said yes to: taking the belay test.

I said no to: working the weekend.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  embracing what is for now.
  • Alive: the cold is a bit tough to take, adjusting.
  • Lighter: feeling a bit lighter as we get closer to deadlines
  • Kinder: trying to pay attention to the voices in my head.
  • Surrender: surrendering to the craziness of work

What I tolerated this week: a lot of work.

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: getting my belay card.

I forgive myself for: having to make exceptions.

Here’s what I learned this week: it’s all going to be okay

What I love right now: not having outside of work obligations.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 39

Magic I Saw this Week: This was one of the quieter weeks. I worked pretty long days, spent the nights helping the kids or working, drew and read. But didn’t do too much else.

Magic I Made this Week: I spent all of my Saturday scrapbooking, printing our photos, telling our stories, reading. It was magical.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: hmm some journaling but that’s mostly it.

Top Goals Review:  not the most successful week this week.

  • Work: did more perf and did calibrations. did not do org health but will do soon. stayed on top of email. organized birthday some more. did not clean up calendar aggressively.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised very little, journaled very little, did make time to sleep. did not come up with a whitney plan. nor a meal plan.
  • Family:  no family photos, hugged kids. did not do date night with jake.

I celebrate: going to book club!

I am grateful for: printing all those pictures.

This week, I exercised: i only went rockclimbing this week and that was it.

Self-care this week: none really this week i’m afraid. except maybe for all the reading and going to book club.

I showed up for: book club.

I said yes to: taking more time to sleep this week.

I said no to: working too many late nights.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am trying to embrace what matters most and remind myself that many many things don’t actually matter.
  • Alive: i feel good. but also tired.
  • Lighter: i feel a bit lighter each day.
  • Kinder: paying attention to this one a lot.
  • Surrender: surrendering to learning and growing a bit more each day

What I tolerated this week: it was super hot all week.

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: getting my blood tests done, scheduling my PT.

I forgive myself for: still not being where i wish i were.

Here’s what I learned this week: i can choose to tell myself the stories that help me.

What I love right now: getting a few quiet weekends.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 38

Magic I Saw this Week: This was a bit of a crazy week, I flew to Zurich on Sunday, arriving midday Monday worked till Tuesday night, then I flew to London late Tuesday night, spent Wednesday working, then left Thursday morning to fly back home. Arrived late in the day, worked and then drove to Tahoe on Friday, worked a bunch more and then had a weekend trip with my family and drove back home Sunday. A lot of time spent traveling for my taste. I was (and still am) wiped pretty much all week. I am tired and all I want to do is curl up and read but of course I am behind on 50 million things. But despite all that, my life was 100% full of magic. I loved all the reading I got done, meeting all the folks in London and Zurich, buying my favorite chocolates, getting to see london again after 20 years, having dinner with one of my closest high school friends, and getting to spend the weekend with my boys at a little piece of heaven on earth. I am wiped but also deliriously grateful.

Magic I Made this Week: hmm… I went to dinner at my friend’s house despite being really tired and having so much work. I rock climbed with my family, went on a small hike and took a vacation.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: not enough this week. I am really tired.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did most of perf but still have some. did not even start org health. did zurich/london meetings. stayed somewhat on top of email but not enough.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised very little this week, did not journal, did not make time to sleep.
  • Family:  did family photos, did talk to kids as much as possible, prepped Jake, prepped lunches.

I celebrate: finishing this whirlwind of a trip

I am grateful for: our vacation in Tahoe, it’s always so relaxing despite the long drive.

This week, I exercised: i only did a tiny bit of rockclimbing this week and that was it.

Self-care this week: none really this week i’m afraid. except maybe for all the reading.

I showed up for: work, kids, jake. my friend.

I said yes to: working so so much. grueling travel, no real sleep.

I said no to: working the evening i went to see my friend instead.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am trying to embrace all the things but some weeks it all just hits me at once.
  • Alive: i am a bit wiped right now :).
  • Lighter: i feel lighter with most of perf being done but i think it will not fully feel better by end of October, sadly.
  • Kinder: still trying to be kinder to myself.
  • Surrender: surrendering to all the ways in which I am doing doing and being enough right now.

What I tolerated this week: lack of sleep, jet lag.

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: not sure at this very moment tbh.

I forgive myself for: not being sure of my path at this moment.

Here’s what I learned this week: i think i need to step back and see what I still want and don’t want.

What I love right now: how many vacations we were lucky enough to have this year.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 37

Magic I Saw this Week: This was one of those wonderful combination weeks. I did a lot of work over the weekend, got my hair done and rested on Sunday and then worked hard until Wednesday. Thursday was my birthday so Jake and I went on adventures and then to back to school night. Friday I climbed, worked hard, and then met my friend Kelly which was a huge treat, then worked again, and then went out on date night to the movies. It was a full and magical week.

Magic I Made this Week: Date night, meeting my friend, celebrating my birthday! lots of magic this week.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: hmm i did some journaling and it was great.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did not do enough perf or org health. did plan the zurich/london meetings. somewhat stayed on top of email.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised, journal a bit, hiked, did not do any 5ams, was really bad with sleep.
  • Family:  took family photos, went to back to school and morning coffee, did celebrate me!, went on date night, hugged kids, prepped lunches, got ready for trip.

I celebrate: my birthday!

I am grateful for: another wonderful trip around the sun. may there be many mor.

This week, I exercised: went to body pump twice, went on a hike on my birthday and went climbing.

Self-care this week: it’s been a full week which sometimes makes things tougher. getting my hair done was lovely and so was taking the day off for my birthday.

I showed up for: The kids by going to school twice for coffee and back to school night.

I said yes to: i continue to keep saying yes as often as i can.

I said no to: working on my birthday!

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing the fullness of my life.
  • Alive: i feel so alive when i am out in the wild.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter… hmm i will feel lighter when perf is done.
  • Kinder: trying to be kinder to myself, it’s hard.
  • Surrender: surrendering so much each day

What I tolerated this week: just a lot going on still.

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: working really hard to support people the best i can

I forgive myself for: not being perfect.

Here’s what I learned this week: i want to keep showing up and keep trying

What I love right now: how much my kids are growing up and learning to navigate new stages of their lives.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 36

Magic I Saw this Week: So much magic this week. We went to Yosemite National Park and Mammoth Falls for Labor Day weekend and we saw a wide variety of incredible nature. It was truly magical. So many lakes, so many trees and so much beauty.

Magic I Made this Week: Well I climbed big mountains and took trips to my kids’ school and showed up again and again.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: nothing new here still…I know I need to work on this one.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: I did a bunch of perf but definitely not enough. I did stay afloat but I also got a ton done on Saturday because I went into work for 9 hours and just finished a bunch of things that were on my list.
  • Personal: did my daily drawing, exercised, journaled a tiny amount, hiked, did not wake up at 5am this week because I made time to sleep.
  • Family:  we did not take family photos or clean out kids’ closets, but we did do both the back to school and morning coffee, and celebrated Jake, did not go on date night, did hug kids.

I celebrate: hiking to the top of Mt. Dana. 13,000feet and a steep steep insane hike!

I am grateful for: all the different layers of my life. I am really tipping over at this point but I love all the different aspects of my life. I love all the work I have, Love my kids and where they are in their lives, Love my husband and all the things he is exploring and bringing into my life, love getting to draw and exercise and I wish I had twice as many (or maybe three times as many!) hours in the day/week so I could do them each more.

This week, I exercised: i did several hikes in Yosemite, especially Mt. Dana, then I went to yoga, and went outdoor rock climbing with jake which included a 1hour hike. It was plenty of exercise for a week.

Self-care this week: doing a great job on hiking and being outdoors, not as good on the diet though.

I showed up for: Jake this week. We celebrated his 45th birthday by going climbing at Castle Rock where I climbed and I learned how to belay.

I said yes to: as many things as i could this week.

I said no to: working at night when I was exhausted.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing all the hiking and working hard to be in good shape enough.
  • Alive: i feel so alive when i have some of my todo list tackled.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter in this moment when i have 2 emails in my work inbox. it won’t last though.
  • Kinder: paying attention to this a lot.
  • Surrender: surrendering to the fullness of my life

What I tolerated this week: an extra work day, it helps so much.

My mood this week was: full.

I am proud of: hiking Mt. Dana and going outdoor rock climbing this week

I forgive myself for: never ever fully catching up.

Here’s what I learned this week: i can do anything I put my mind to

What I love right now: how hard i am working at so many aspects of my life


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 35

Magic I Saw this Week: The kids went back to school this week. The biggest magic was seeing how seamless it was for them and how they just adjusted to their new lives. D still is trying to settle some things but they’ve been magical.

Magic I Made this Week: Not a lot this week, just barely managed lunches and work and school and life.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: nothing new here.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: started the markets preso, but not tokyo preso, also started on proposal for ux team, emailed on 15 plan v1, did review packets, sat through strat 2020, and did not do perf1.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised, journaled, hiked, i couldn’t do 5am but i have been waking up at 5:30 and i did make time to sleep.
  • Family:  took family photos, did not clean out kids’ closets, started first week of school, went on vacation, did date night, hugged kids.

I celebrate: school starting relatively smoothly

I am grateful for: a more seamless transition than we usually get.

This week, I exercised: i did body pump monday, yoga tuesday, climbing thursday and we’re hiking this weekend.

Self-care this week: still not super great on self care at the moment.

I showed up for: work this week.

I said yes to: so so much driving Friday.

I said no to: doing email over work.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing all this email. no i am not.
  • Alive: i feel so alive when i am outside.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter now that school is on.
  • Kinder: trying to be kinder.
  • Surrender: surrendering to all that’s going on

What I tolerated this week: long days, really behind in email.

My mood this week was: overwhelmed.

I am proud of: catching up to my email

I forgive myself for: being behind, dropping things.

Here’s what I learned this week: i need to prioritize sleep.

What I love right now: being able to go outdoors so much


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.