Living Wild – 10

Weekly Intention: This week my intention is to try to go back to a bit of a routine for myself and find ways to ground myself. The coronavirus news is definitely creating a low but persistent level of anxiety in me. Coupled with the inability to go climbing and working late nights due to perf, I am more discombobulated than I’d like to be. My intention this week is to go back to exercising in the mornings on the treadmill and to see if I can make it to two classes at work this week. Coupled with some drawing and some journaling I am hoping that will ground me. I also plan to leave work at a reasonable time every day, even if it delays perf even further.

This month’s intention is: Wild Air:  Go outside. Smell the spring air. The seasons are shifting again and it’s time to try new things, new  places, take new chances. Pick one thing and go big. Drink the wild air.  I did finally make the exercise list from February but I still didn’t make a list of people to reach out to and date nights to do. I did start a hike list but we only managed to do half of one this week. Let’s see how we manage next week. We also have to apply for our Whitney and Half Dome as this is the last week for Whitney.

One way I will show up this week:  calm.

I will go into the wild:  I am hoping that Jake and I can take another hike this weekend and I also want to get out for 20 minutes every day, even if it’s just to sit in the sun.

This week, I will pay attention to: continuing the food plan, getting more exercise, and finishing perf. setting a routine for some of my other work that’s still not settled.

One new thing I will begin this week: back to daily walking.

One magic I will create: I want to have a bit of a time with my kids if I can pull it off this week. Some small magic together as a family.

One thing I hope to release: the guilt i feel over how off this year feels so far. how little i feel like i am honoring my word. also how hard i am being on myself.

One thing I will join in on: work exercise classes!

One area I will practice being open: that everything will be okay.

I am looking forward to: perf being done.

This week’s challenges: just going back into routine, exercising again.

  • Top Goals:
    • Work: finish perf. stay on top of email. spend some time with nbu and tokyo. write down plans.
    • Personal: i still really crave the way figure out a routine that works for me. i still crave journaling. go back to exercising more. continue eating the wild.
    • Family: support nathaniel and david and jake. taxes. whitney and half dome. science fairs. school breakfast.

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): i am trying to remember these, keep it all in perspective, and lean into who i am and what I value.

This week, I want to remember: i am so lucky and blessed.


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Living Wild – 09

Weekly Intention: I get to travel for work at the early part of this week. I will be in Houston for three days with 60+ colleagues in a leadership training. Then I get to be home while Jake travels to be with his siblings. My intention this week is to be kind to myself. I’ve been struggling and I really need this reminder.

This month’s intention is: Wild Air:  Go outside. Smell the spring air. The seasons are shifting again and it’s time to try new things, new  places, take new chances. Pick one thing and go big. Drink the wild air.  One more week left in February. I still didn’t make a list of people to reach out to and date nights to do nor did I make the exercise list from February. For March, I think my plan is to make a hike list and see how many we can complete. We also have to apply for our Whitney and Half Dome.

One way I will show up this week:  focused.

I will go into the wild:  I am hoping that Jake and I can take a hike this weekend and I also want to get out for 30 minutes every day.

This week, I will pay attention to: getting ahead at work, and starting the food plan.

One new thing I will begin this week: I am planning to start eating the wild again this week. Let’s see what I can do.

One magic I will create: Maybe I will give myself a celebration party for being done with the packet.

One thing I hope to release: I am actively working on acknowledging the anxiety and listening to the voices inside that don’t seem to be rational. Paying attention to what I say and what I hear and how I feel. First step to releasing is noticing, I hope.

One thing I will join in on: I have a trip to the kids’ school on Tuesday night which involves a community dinner.

One area I will practice being open: that it might work. just maybe.

I am looking forward to: having jake back.

This week’s challenges: just so so so much work this week.

  • Top Goals:
    • Work: finish perf. stay on top of email. spend some time with nbu and tokyo.
    • Personal: figure out a routine that works for me. journal. get into a groove. eat the wild.
    • Family: support nathaniel and david and jake. taxes.

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): i am hoping the journaling will help me here.

This week, I want to remember: all the kind words i heard this week.


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Living Wild – 08

Weekly Intention: I get to travel for work at the early part of this week. I will be in Houston for three days with 60+ colleagues in a leadership training. Then I get to be home while Jake travels to be with his siblings. My intention this week is to be kind to myself. I’ve been struggling and I really need this reminder.

This month’s intention is: Wild at Heart:  Take new chances with your heart this month. Try new date nights. Reach out to new people. Create new connections. Strengthen your heart with exercise. One more week left in February. Maybe I make a list of people to reach out to and date nights to do and maybe I finally make an exercise list.

One way I will show up this week:  intentional.

I will go into the wild:  not sure if I will have a lot of opportunity to go into the wild this week between my trip and jake being gone, so we’ll see.

This week, I will pay attention to: see if i can finish the handful of docs I have to write to be done.

One new thing I will begin this week: I am hoping to being both journaling and scrapping more regularly starting this week. Let’s see if I can pull of either.

One magic I will create: Hmm maybe some alone time in Houston…

One thing I hope to release: maybe this feeling that’s come over me that seems to be crushing my soul.

One thing I will join in on: houston will be all about joining.

One area I will practice being open: to the possibility that everything might turn out ok.

I am looking forward to: houston.

This week’s challenges: travel is always a bit challenging for me

  • Top Goals:
    • Work: docs for draft 2. clean email. travel.
    • Personal: figure out a routine that works for me. journal. get into a groove.
    • Family: support nathaniel and david and jake.

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): let’s see if i can find my way back to peace again.

This week, I want to remember: i can do hard things and i am so incredibly lucky.


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Living Wild – 07

Weekly Intention: I am on vacation this week so my only intention this week is to live my word. Be out in the wild. Enjoy my time with my family.

This month’s intention is: Wild at Heart:  Take new chances with your heart this month. Try new date nights. Reach out to new people. Create new connections. Strengthen your heart with exercise. I’ve done some of this already, I feel grateful. I still have to try new date nights and reach out to new people.

One way I will show up this week:  calm.

I will go into the wild:  we will get to do hikes at Joshua Tree and we will get to climb. I will be in the wild this week.

This week, I will pay attention to: my feelings

One new thing I will begin this week: outdoor climbing

One magic I will create: just being on vacation will be magic

One thing I hope to release: i really would like to not work this week if i can avoid it.

One thing I will join in on: rock climbing. pool. being present.

One area I will practice being open: to the possibility that i can be brave.

I am looking forward to: getting to be with my family.

This week’s challenges: just downtime is challenging some times.

  • Top Goals: none this week, just being present.

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): this week i am for just being as kind as i can be.

This week, I want to remember: life is all about the small moments.


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Living Wild – 06

Weekly Intention: This is my last full week of work before I get a week off for vacation. I really could use some time off and some time in the wild so I am looking forward to both. My intention this week is to try to clean out some of my to dos both personally and at work so I can have a break without carrying all that noise.

This month’s intention is: Wild at Heart:  Take new chances with your heart this month. Try new date nights. Reach out to new people. Create new connections. Strengthen your heart with exercise. Haven’t done my work on these yet.

One way I will show up this week:  efficient.

I will go into the wild:  this weekend i will get to go into the wild hopefully.

This week, I will pay attention to: my todo list and let’s see what i can check off.

One new thing I will begin this week: journaling still 🙁

One magic I will create: still need to: Book a vacation for winter break and figure out some sort of hiking plan.

One thing I hope to release: just the thought of all the things I am not getting done.

One thing I will join in on: going to the kids’ school on Tuesday this week. not sure if it fully counts. but it will have to.

One area I will practice being open: to the possibility that all will not be finished this week.

I am looking forward to: vacation.

This week’s challenges: getting to draft 2 is still likely my biggest one still.

  • Top Goals:
    • Work: clean email. draft 2. cheese. docs for draft 2.
    • Personal: figure out a routine that works for me. journal. get into a groove. book vacation.
    • Family: support nathaniel and david and jake.

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): this week i am for just taking it slow everywhere. slow slow slow. and efficient.

This week, I want to remember: it’s all going to be ok. Everything will get done.


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Living Wild – 05

Weekly Intention: This week has the potential to be a crazy week. I have several big things going on as well as a bunch of work I have to get done and then I am possibly going to the kids’ school Monday night, climbing Tuesday night and taking Friday off to be with David for his birthday. My intention this week is to stay as calm and grounded as I can. Let’s lean into the silence of the wilderness.

This month’s intention is: Wild at Heart:  Take new chances with your heart this month. Try new date nights. Reach out to new people. Create new connections. Strengthen your heart with exercise. Interesting one. I think a great reminder and something that was top of mind. I am going to think about this.

One way I will show up this week:  attentive. calming maybe?

I will go into the wild:  not sure about this one. maybe over the weekend? I have a hike slotted for Jake and me.

This week, I will pay attention to: things that are happening and mostly how i show up

One new thing I will begin this week: journaling still 🙁

One magic I will create: still need to: Book a vacation for winter break, wrap david’s presents.

One thing I hope to release: the thin layer of anxiety i add to everything.

One thing I will join in on: maybe go to school monday?

One area I will practice being open: maybe here i can be open to feedback this week?

I am looking forward to: some big projects culminating

This week’s challenges: getting to draft 2 is still likely my biggest one.

  • Top Goals:
    • Work: clean email. draft 2. thursday. nbu doc.
    • Personal: figure out a routine that works for me. journal. get into a groove.
    • Family: support nathaniel and david and jake. celebrate david.

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): i aim for peace and learning at work. gratitude for me. service and love for my family.

This week, I want to remember: which of these will matter in 5 years?


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Living Wild – 04

Weekly Intention: OK this week’s intention is to journal daily, do some more art, spend time with Nathaniel. Lean into my work. Just live life to the fullest.

This month’s intention is:  Into the Wild: Start small. Make a plan for the steps you want to take and give yourself a lot of grace. Take a handful of steps. You got this. Journaling this week.

One way I will show up this week:  one more round?

I will go into the wild:  finally do some walking 1-1s.

This week, I will pay attention to: longer term plans.

One new thing I will begin this week: journaling darn it.

One magic I will create: Haven’t done these yet: Book a vacation for winter break, start an evening routine. One of these.

One thing I hope to release: random worry.

One thing I will join in on: Still need time.

One area I will practice being open: still haven’t done this either: I would love to look over the exercise schedule at work again and see what I can try on.

I am looking forward to: journaling this week

This week’s challenges: getting to draft 2.

  • Top Goals:
    • Work: walking 1-1s. clean email. continue. nbu doc.
    • Personal: figure out a routine that works for me.
    • Family: support nathaniel and david and jake.

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): journaling will help ground me here, I need it.

This week, I want to remember: that all i have to do is try.


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Living Wild – 03

Weekly Intention: This is a short week since Monday is a holiday. I’d still like to journal more and see what’s going on with me. Why I feel how I feel. I’d like to slow down and be aware of how i feel in the moments I feel it.

This month’s intention is:  Into the Wild: Start small. Make a plan for the steps you want to take and give yourself a lot of grace. Take a handful of steps. You got this. Exactly the same as last week: Doing ok so far with walking and climbing, would like to get back on the yoga and pt wagon. And breathing more. Oh and I’d love to start a hike a week.

One way I will show up this week:  Maybe do my perf for a change.

I will go into the wild:  Maybe do one long hike.

This week, I will pay attention to: the energy i give off.

One new thing I will begin this week: Let’s go with regular journaling still.

One magic I will create: Hmmm. Book a vacation for winter break, start an evening routine. One of these.

One thing I hope to release: anxiety.

One thing I will join in on: Still need time.

One area I will practice being open: I would love to look over the exercise schedule at work again and see what I can try on.

I am looking forward to: finishing a draft maybe?

This week’s challenges: just a lot to get done in one week and I have an MRI on Friday morning.

  • Top Goals:
    • Work: walking 1-1s. clean email. get some answers. start.
    • Personal: figure out a routine that works for me.
    • Family: support nathaniel and david and jake.

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): I would really like to get back to my center and be clear on what i want, where i am, and what i choose from here.

This week, I want to remember: to focus on what will matter most in 5 years and not just this week.


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Living Wild – 02

Weekly Intention: Ok here we go, week 2. My intention this week is to do better than last week Ha! I’d like to journal more and see what’s going on with me. Why I feel how I feel. I’d like to extend extra grace to myself and I’d like to act before I feel and see what happens.

This month’s intention is:  Into the Wild: Start small. Make a plan for the steps you want to take and give yourself a lot of grace. Take a handful of steps. You got this. Doing ok so far with walking and climbing, would like to get back on the yoga and pt wagon. And breathing more.

One way I will show up this week:  Curious about myself and others.

I will go into the wild:  Maybe we can do the hike we didn’t get to do last week? I can take more outdoor meetings and walk with Nathaniel twice.

This week, I will pay attention to: my words.

One new thing I will begin this week: I skipped the cardio and gave myself a bit more time on that. I think i’d like to begin more regular journaling actually.

One magic I will create: Maybe some snuggles with my kids and husband? Maybe a vacation for next weekend.

One thing I hope to release: thoughts around work still.

One thing I will join in on: I need some more time for this one. Maybe I can join something at work.

One area I will practice being open: I have this one meeting on Monday. I will practice being open there.

I am looking forward to: Figuring out how to move through all this.

This week’s challenges: I think early part of the week looks more challenging than the latter part.

  • Top Goals:
    • Work: walking 1-1s. clean email. get some answers.
    • Personal: figure out a routine that works for me.
    • Family: make long weekend plans?

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): I am going to try really hard to choose to be in the moment and remember what matters most this week which hopefully will mean my values emerge front and center.

This week, I want to remember: that most things are more transient than they seem.


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Living Wild – 01

Weekly Intention: This is my first week back at work in a long, long time. I’d love to say I am ready and excited to be back at work, but truthfully I am not at all. I need more time off. I am really enjoying days full of relaxation, climbing, yoga and time with my family. I’d rather stay in this place for a few more weeks. But alas, real life is coming back whether I like it or not. So my intention this week is to stay as calm and grounded as possible. To create space and expansion and cultivate calm in my moments.

This month’s intention is:  Into the Wild: Start small. Make a plan for the steps you want to take and give yourself a lot of grace. Take a handful of steps. You got this. Ok I got this. My plan with this is to pick a small number of things. Walk 20 mins uphill as many days as possible, go climbing 2-3 times a week, do yoga. Breathe more. Do my PT.

One way I will show up this week:  I’d like to be open and listen more this week. Can I do it?

I will go into the wild: Hmmm. I’m going to mark 3-4 meetings this week that I can do as walking meetings. I will take one drive to the little lake by Palo Alto. And I will plan a hike for Jake and me this weekend.

This week, I will pay attention to: How I am feeling. Especially as I get anxious at work, I want to be tuned into how I actually am feeling so I can feel my feelings and see I can pay attention to what’s going on.

One new thing I will begin this week: I am going to do one day a week of cardio starting this week. I am not putting a time limit yet. Even if it’s just 5 minutes, it counts. Oh and I will try to see if I can move my desk to be a standing desk for some portion of the day.

One magic I will create: Hmmm… I am going to see if I can make my desk at work a bit more of a place for me to enjoy. I will bring some items to put on my desk. And maybe even buy a plant.

One thing I hope to release: I really would love to release the anxiety around being at work this week. I am going to actively work on it.

One thing I will join in on: I think I will see if I can find a hiking club nearby that I can join.

One area I will practice being open: I will practice being open at work. Listening better, being more curious, triggering less often.

I am looking forward to: Getting into some sort of routine. I am not thrilled about going back to real life but I do love routine.

This week’s challenges: Just going back to work and getting up at 6am again will be challenging.

  • Top Goals:
    • Work:  just get back into the groove of things. clean email. maybe write up nbu?
    • Personal: figure out a routine that works for me.
    • Family: make a plan with David and spend time working with Nathaniel.

I will focus on my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): I will choose to learn over reacting, i will choose to love my life and make peace with what I can’t control. I will do service to my body by moving it often and well and I will keep track of all the moments of gratitude in my life.

This week, I want to remember: that life is magical and i am always learning and growing and looking forward to new possibilities.


Living Wild is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.