This is a Moment of Deep Joy and Gratitude for me

This is a layout I made for My Mind’s Eye.

I’ve been experimenting with making pages that are 2 6x12s where one side is all journaling. Here’s the journaling on this one:

My sweet boys,

As the two of you started growing up and learning new things, I had my own list of “what to teach the boys” which included items like reading, programming, art, writing, and math. I had many non-academic ideas, too. How to be kind, how to always say please and thank you. How to make sure you apologize if you hurt someone. To make sure you look them in the eye when apologizing. And how to say “I forgive you” when someone apologized to you. How to serve others and volunteer your time to the community.

My list was long and layered.

But I wasn’t worried about tackling it. I knew that, with time and patience, we’d make it through each item. I knew that I was capable of teaching those to you. I cared about the list and I was willing to take the time.

But then I had this other list.

The one full of the things I didn’t know how to do but wanted to make sure you learned.This list was much more challenging because, in this case, it wasn’t a matter of time or patience. Even if I had all the time in the world, I couldn’t tackle this list on my own. I didn’t know how to do these things.

While this list was layered and complicated, too, the very first item on the list was what most would consider easy: learn to ride a bike.

Learn to ride a bike.

As someone who never learned it, it was essential to me that my boys would learn to ride bikes at the typical ager most other kids learned. I wanted to make sure this was a part of their childhood experience.

Other people might think I was crazy to worry about this simple task so much, but, to me, teaching you how to ride a bike was a monumental task. How do you teach something to someone that you’ve never learned in the first place? Even though I had tried to learn a few times, I knew that there was no way I was going to master this in a way I needed to, so I could teach you two.

So I enlisted Daddy.

He’s an awesome biker and I told him that it was crucial to me that you boys learn. Daddy told me he’d take care of it.

And, take care of it, he did. He got you the bikes, the helmets, he spent the time and the effort. He ran alongside you for hours and held on and let go all at the right times. While I was vaguely aware it was progressing, it wasn’t until this weekend that I realized he had really come through all the way.

As I stepped outside to snap some photos of the two of you, I couldn’t believe my eyes. Nathaniel was able to ride all my himself, on the big boy bike with pedals and no training wheels. Yes, he still needed a bit of help occasionally, but he pretty much had it down. And David was a master-rider. Biking round and round without a care in the world.

I cannot tell you the joy that filled my heart. This is why I love Daddy so very much: he is the perfect complement to me and helps all my dreams come true. Thank you so much, Daddy, and I am so very proud of you my biking boys!

Savor the Gifts of the Present Moment

Since I will not get to write tonight either apparently, I figured I’ll share a recent layout with you. This one is almost all My Mind’s Eye and was made for the Big Picture Classes’ recent NSD Creative Crop.

My challenge was to use your own handwriting. When was the last time you used it on a layout?

Here are few different shots from it:

I Love My sweet amazing boys and their silly hats in every way

I noticed that it’s been a while since I shared any of my layouts with you. While I am doing a lot less scrapping lately, I am still making some pages and here’s a recent one I made for My Mind’s Eye.

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My boys like to be silly. They put hats on and make silly faces and laugh and laugh. Then can play one little hat for over twenty minutes. I don’t really understand how they can find so much joy and entertainment from such a small thing and yet they do. And I love that about them so much. How the smallest things can create joy in their lives. How they can entertain themselves and laugh and laugh. I love how easy it all is for them. It never was for me and I am so grateful that joy comes so easily to them and how happy they are. I love them so!!

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My wish for you: Make Love of Yourself Perfect

This is a layout I made for My Mind’s Eye.

And the journaling says:
If there’s only one thing you get to have or be, my wish is for you (and me) to know that all you need is already within. Deny yourself nothing. Give yourself inifinity and eternity and discover that you don’t need them, you are beyond. I love the the two of you with all my soul and I wish you endless peace and contentment. May you make love of yourself perfect.

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The greatest joy of life comes from the smallest moments

This is a layout I made for My Mind’s Eye.

And the journaling says:
One of the greatest joys of having kids is watching them delight in the smallest moments. Like when Nathaniel found this little toy bucket and sat in it. You thought it was the funniest thing my sweet boy. And when daddy pushed you around you laughed with so much joy (until it was David’s turn of course.) Seeing you two have the best time with the simplest things is a daily reminder to me that I should be grateful for the smallest things in my life, too. There are the moments when we cherish life. Thank you for reminding me what matters most. I am so deeply grateful for the two of you and I love you with all my heart.

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i am learning that being your mom means i have to be brave. thank you for teaching me so much

This is a layout I made for My Mind’s Eye.

And the journaling says:
This morning, we went to the park and there was this closed slide where I couldn’t see you slide down. You both loved it but it made me super anxious. What if you got stuck? How would I save you? Your daddy explained that part of being a mom is learning to let you do it and be brave. And that I had to be brave, too. It’s so hard not to protect you all the time. I love you so very much my sons.

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Thank you for teaching me the joy of being silly

This is a layout I made for My Mind’s Eye.

And the journaling says:
My sweet boys, I’m not known for being silly. Truth be toldm I am too serious and find silliness, well…silly. But ever since you came into my life I find a lot of joy watching you be silly, especially since you think it’s so funny to be silly. Thank you for letting me see it through your eyes and allowing me to laugh more. I love you so much and appreciate you so much.

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the best start possible

This is a layout I made for Maya Road for CHA.

And the journaling says:
This was your first year at your new school. I will admit I was quite nervous and didn’ know what to expect. Especially when we got a note thay your teacher was sick and you’d have a sub. The first few weeks we had no idea what would happen. As it turned out you got to have this teacher all year and she was the awesomest teacher ever. Thanks to her, we had the very best introduction to your school. Thank you Mrs. Richardson!

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There’s something magical about seeing the people you love, love each other

This is a layout I made for Maya Road for CHA.

And the journaling says:
I love the two of you more than anyone can love anyone else. And when you grow up you’ll see that there’s something wonderful about having people you love, love each other and hug each other. I cannot tell you the joy it brings me when I see you two hug and and kiss and show each other affection. I hope hope hope that it continues forever. And I will not take any of these moments for granted. I love you so much!

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Make a point to always cheer for yourself

This is a layout I made for Maya Road for CHA.

And the journaling says:
I was watching you play with the batman toy. How you pick a type, you think and then you choose your answer. ANd when you get it right you do al ittle dance and cheer yourself on. I love that you take the time to congratulate yourself for a job well done! Make sure to always always take time to do that in your life. You’re a great example to all of us. I love you Nathaniel!!

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I am so sad to see the beginning of the end of baby teeth

This is a layout I made for Maya Road for CHA.

And the journaling says:
I remember being excited when you lost your first baby tooth. But in the last few weeks, you’ve lost four more and it’s clear now that the last signs of your baby years are almost all gone. I know time passes and part of me can’t wait to see the person you’ll become but another part of me wants to stop time so you can stay my baby forever. I love you so much David.

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I really love watching all the joy you get from a hat

This is a layout I made for Maya Road for CHA.

And the journaling says:
Your class went to the fire station and you were too scared to go in the truck but you did get a little hat and it has become your very favorite thing. So much so that it’s duct taped all over now because you will not take it off and it’s falling apart. I love how such a simple toy can bring so much joy. A lesson we can all learn. Thank you, my son for making my life so much better.

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