karenika - march 2005

MOTIVATED

I've been reading many of Paul Graham's essays during my late night feeding sessions. The little one is still waking up every two to three hours so I have plenty of time on my hands. The articles are well-written and strongly opinionated. Besides being a good read, I find them to be extremely inspiring. They make me want to stay up all night coding.

Last time I was this motivated was my first year out of college. Jake was still at CMU and we would chat over zephyr while I worked on my 3-D Graphics class homework. One night we pulled an allnighter while chatting and I made huge progress on the trumpet. Actually, it's the only perfect model I created. It was all because of the allnighter and the push to finish it.

Now that we have a little boy, I wonder if those days of staying up and coding or working on a self project are behind us. I sure hope not because they are so much fun and they remind me of the joys of programming or working on something I love. I don't want that to ever not be a part of my life. Each time I read the articles, I want to learn all there is to learn about Python and I want to write the next great piece of software.

Now if I only knew what that was.

March 28, 2005 ~ 19:03 | link | personal | share[]

MONTH ONE

Our little baby turns one month old today. He's been in this world for four weeks. He has grown from 6 pounds 13 ounces to 9 pounds 1 ounce. His hair has turned lighter and grown a lot. His eyes are even bluer than they were when he joined us. Even though I know it's not purposeful, his smiles are already heartbreaking.

Here's a list of google-queries I've made in the last month:

Thrush
Post-partum depression
Over-active letdown
Acid Reflux
Australian-hold
Breastfeeding with a fever
Mastitis
Curdled vs Hindmilk
Breastfeeding and peanutbutter
Gripe water downsides
Newborn stuffy nose relief
Baby massage
Umbilical cord care
Washing poop stains

Most of them were the overactive imagination of a new mom. One month down, millions more to go.

We love you more than words can express, David. Happy one month birthday.

March 08, 2005 ~ 14:03 | link | personal | share[]

Life Goes On

I would like to say that life has gone back to normal in the karenika household but that would be a lie. I know that we will be establishing a new normal now that our household accomodates three, but I am assuming it will not look the way it does now.

The good news is that he has gained a lot of weight and is happy and healthy. No major or minor problems, thankfully. The bad news is that mommy is exhausted most of the time. She spends her days in her pink pajamas, eating, feeding baby, sleeping, working, and doing laundry. She has lost some weight but has a lot more to go and her back is better than expected but still in quite a bit of pain. While she is pretty patient with David, she's short the rest of the time with the rest of the people in her life. She knows that's due to exhaustion and it will go away. David spends his days eating, sleeping, peeing, pooping, and spitting up.

I had promised myself that I wouldn't be one of those moms who constantly talks about her baby and that might be why I've been avoiding updating the site (that and a complete lack of disposable time). For the last three weeks, my life has been not much besides my baby and I assume it will be that way for at least a few more weeks before I start regaining some of my adult brain cells. I will start reading normal books again and having interesting thoughts again but, for now, I'm only concerned with the little one, making sure he's well fed and all around satisfied with the service he's getting.

So if you've been waiting for new photos or some thought-provoking entries (and I know it's been a long time since we've had those) hang in there, they'll be here in a while. I'm just a little busy enjoying the miracle of life.

March 01, 2005 ~ 18:03 | link | personal | share[]