Staying Open – February 16

 

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Still at it, I am obsessed. Not sure what’s going on.

Grateful to have something that’s really making me happy right now.

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Staying Open – February 15

 

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One of my favorite people at work is so wildly different than I am. In ways that would seem to be incompatible and yet I love working with her. I think the dynamic between working for, managing, and working alongside matters a lot for what I think is ideal from my peers.

And I think that I would always choose someone kind over any other attribute. Give me kind, give me hardworking and give me collaborative. Smart is overrated and without the other three, it is not good enough.

But as long as they are the three I love working with people different than I am and learning and being open to other ways of leading. So grateful to get to learn from people I admire.

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Staying Open – February 14

 

 

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We dressed up and went out tonight. A lovely dinner together. It was sweet and delicious.

And also, I don’t fit into any of my clothes anymore. And also my feet hurt from the heels. And also we made the reservation just yesterday cause we were so disorganized.

But we still showed up.

This is the only moment I have. I can spend it anxious or bitter or sad about what I don’t have. Or I can be here and find joy in what I do have.

I’m choosing to do the latter.

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Staying Open – February 13

 

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There are ways of being that have worked for me for 48 years. Ways I show up, things I say, things I do. They’ve led me to this wonderful life that I appreciate so much.

and yet.

And yet they also get in my way. I’ve been carrying these behaviors as the way to be for so long that I don’t even know what happens when I am not this way. Is there an even better outcome on the other side of that other way of being?

This is also what open is about. Open to other ways of being. Open to my way not being the only way. Open to change and options and a shift in perspective.

Oh captain! My captain!

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Staying Open – February 12

 

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My goal this year is to stay slow and light with my expectations from others and myself. I lie in bed longer, I watch TV and paint if that makes me happy, and I try to remind myself that my stressing about it won’t actually make things resolve to better outcomes.

I am here in this moment as I am.

I wish exercised more and ate better. I wish I were more diligent about staying in touch with my friends. I wish I were able to learn Korean faster. I wish I were a less scared driver. I wish I were more social.

I wish for many things.

And I am also ok right here right now. Grateful for what is and what I am. Open to growing and expanding when the time is right.

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Staying Open – February 11

 

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There’s so much going on. Both in the macro and the micro sense I feel like there’s more going on than I can absorb at this moment. Devastation, inflation, depression, layoffs, anxiety, sickness, unidentified objects in the sky, bruised joints, overwhelm and more.

It’s too much.

So instead I am staying here in this moment. Open to being here and seeing the good that’s available to me. Trying to center and ground myself in gratitude for what is.

Trying.

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Staying Open – February 10

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Saw the most touching movie tonight. “Living” highly recommended.

Feeling grateful for spaciousness lately. For possibility and friendship at work. It’s easy to get lost in the hard moments and not see moments of space so I wanted to record this moment of ease.

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Staying Open – February 09

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I love watching the planes take off and land. That sound when the plane is just about to take off always makes me think of magic and wonder. I love it.

Grateful for wonder and joy today.

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Staying Open – February 08

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He is 18 today. How does that even happen. I’m so grateful for this kid who is kind, smart, generous and always always says yes to hugs.

I love you more than there are words.

Happy birthday my angel.

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Staying Open – February 07

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Our first time back at the kids’ school since before the pandemic. It was so good to be in a room together again and to laugh and see the people we love.

I’m so grateful.

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Staying Open – February 06

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Mondays come with so much pressure. I’ve been thinking about what would make Monday a perfect day for me. I’d like it to be the kind of day I look forward to.

I wonder what would make it so.

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Staying Open – February 05

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I am wondering lately how much more time I would have if I didn’t have Instagram installed.

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