Today was the first day this year I sat outside to take my meetings. I decided midday that I was done sitting indoors and I am still sitting outside with the birds chirping and fresh air as the sun sets.
I have been doing all the things I can to help fill my own cup lately. And I see a tangible difference in my level of calm and centeredness. Being outside contributes to that significantly.
I was talking to my husband a while ago and asked him what will matter more in ten years, and I’ve been thinking about this a lot. In ten years when I look back I want to be able to say that I went on adventures and lived my life fully. I want to be able to say I was kind to people and helped lift them up and cheer them on. I want to have learned to sit silently and be still. I want to have grown and learned new things. I want to have poured love all over my people.
That’s all I care about.
That’s the stuff I want to get right. So that’s the stuff I want to lean into because what you pay attention to blooms.
Yes to living life. Yes to outdoors. Yes to adventures. Yes to doing what matters to me.
[ Restorative yoga is still saving my sanity daily. 10 minutes in the morning and I feel grounded and calm. ]
Big boy took the Calculus AP test today. I can still remember the room where I took my test some 30 years ago.
Life is moving and things are happening and yet I also feel like so much of life is suspended at the same time. I can’t figure out what the fallout will be on the other side of all this.
So, for now, I am waking up each day, doing my exercise, doing my yoga, working and being there for my people.
As for all the other stuff, I’ll deal with it when I can. Which is not now.
Yes to being here now. Yes to doing what’s needed. Yes to restorative yoga.
I painted today for the first time in a long time.
Long time.
I’ve been wanting to make more art but having a lot of trouble with getting started. So over the weekend, I bought some paint, a 6×6 journal and I made a box full of some stencils, ephemera, and a few other materials.
I set my timer to 15 minutes and got to work.
Is it the most beautiful page I’ve ever creater? Absolutely not. Do I even like it? Not sure. Am I glad I did it? Yes yes yes.
The feel of paint in my hands and the freedom to just have fun was exactly what I was seeking.
For me, boundaries help Witt creativity and fun and freedom. Two containers of materials, 6×6 page, and 15 minutes. Those are my boundaries.
They help set me free.
Yes to painting. Yes to boundaries. Yes to finding ways to make it work.
Yes to art.
Weekly Intention: My intention this week is to stay present to the difference between things that are about me and things that are not and to stay as grounded as possible.
This month’s intention is:May: Yes Just Yes: Time to be bold. Jump in. Dare to go all in and see what happens. What happens if you say yes?!This one is interesting, I have some plans about art and food, maybe we will just lean into those?
One way I will leap this week: I made some plans for art journaling. This will be my big leap for this week.
One boundary I will set this week: not sure about this one at the moment.
One area where I will go deeper this week: i started the work but really didn’t dig in and do some work around the designing work book so maybe that’s a good one for this week.
What do I need to sit with this week? i need to sit with how much can change in a little time and make sure i am grateful for what’s here, now.
I am looking forward to: big boy’s ap test being done so he can relax a bit.
Focus onCore Desired Feelings (lighter, kinder, enough, magic, wild): i feel like i am leaning into kinder and feeling lighter and even enough lately. The wild in my life is only the climbing. So is the magic. Maybe the art will help here.
This week’s challenges: just some anxiety around work.
Top Goals:
Work: write up team plan and six month plan.
Personal: start art journal plan, do journal
Family: celebrate d. find painters, book real id.
This week, I want to remember: it’s going to be okay.
Sunday nights used to make me sad. I’d be worried about the week ahead and all that I didn’t get done over the weekend.
Lately, I have been relaxing and slowing down a lot during the weekends and I find myself less anxious. Yes it would have been great if I’d done a bit more work.
But what’s even more important to me lately is using the time to fill my cup. To exercise, to work with my kids, to climb with my husband and to read while soaking in the tub.
Work could easily fill up 100% of my life if I let it. So it’s up to me to draw that boundary. It’s up to me to not let it take over my Sunday night.
Tonight, I will relax more. I look forward to another productive week hopefully. Or maybe it will be a disaster. Either way, feeling relaxed tonight is going to help me enjoy this day for as long as I can. Tomorrow, I can tackle whatever Monday throws my way.
Yes to being here now. Yes to taking back Sunday nights.
The Best Part of this Week: we went climbing in Oakland this week at a gym that was new to me. it was fantastic.
I celebrate: my nephew graduating college this week.
I am grateful for: my family, for all of us being healthy and here and showing up and doing the best we can.
This week, I exercised: I climbed 3 times a week, rode every day for 10 mins and twice for 30 minutes, did 10 mins of core and 10 mins of arms and 5 minutes of stretching and 10 minutes of restorative yoga daily. I also started a new beginner strength class which was 1 hour and 20 minutes of strength and 20 minutes of stretching this week.
This week, I said yes to: being there for my husband.
I said no to: letting my anxiety around work get to me.
I honored my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): i am feeling serene still for the most part. I have a few nagging worries but I am trying hard for them not to get to me.
Top Goals Review: n/a
My mood this week was: open
I am proud of: i am proud of showing up to life no matter what.
I release: what i can’t make better. i am letting it go.
Here’s what I learned this week: life is short and precious.
