Two



Another one of my August Kit projects for A Million Memories. This one
was just with the scraps and just cause I love these two photos so much.
It’s David learning to sign “two.”

No More Doubt



I finally finished my August Kit projects for A Million Memories. I wanted
to concentrate more on journaling this month so my projects are simpler
and more about the sentiments, thoughts, and feelings I want to remember.

Before you came along, I wasn’t sure if I wanted children.

Well, that’s not true. I knew I wanted kids, I just wasn’t sure I was
ready for them. I kept worrying about how much I didn’t know and how
likely it was that I would end up messing you up. Causing you sorrow or
frustration. Or even worse. Life long problems.

I kept doubting myself. I kept seeing friends whose parents messed them
up. I kept worrying and wondering and postponing.

And then, one day, I was talking to your uncle Clark and I told him
about my worries and he said, “Isn’t it better that a kid has a mom
who’s paying attention to those things? Chances are your kid will be
better off because you care.” And I totally agreed. I guess half the
game is just trying to do right. As much as possible.

And then you came along.

The most perfect, wonderful, kind, generous boy. The sweetest thing
ever. And I realized I was bound to mess it up but that it was ok.
Because there will be no single moment in my life when I don’t love you
more than anything else. No moment when I won’t be giving all I have. Ever.

Ever.

And I wondered why I waited so long.

You are the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I just look at
your sweet face and thank my lucky starts.

And I thank uncle Clark.

Making a Life

Today’s prompt from Shimelle: Share a story with your readers about
one moment when you felt independent and in control.



I’ve had a few such luxurious moments in my life. When I moved to the US
from Turkey. I was really homesick for a few weeks but overall I was
much more in my element in the US than I ever felt in Istanbul. I had a
similar feeling when I graduated and moved to New York, when I had my
own apartment, my own job, and just my own life. I love it. Even now. I
am scared to do something to rock things but I do have a very nice life
and I feel lucky to be able to be independent (or feel that way even
with a 3 year old.). I love my life. I love my family. I love that I
made this life. We made it. It’s really magical.

I’ve always, always wanted to make my own choices. Ever since I can
remember and I love making them.

Thankful Today – August 1, 2008

1. Thankful that I work for such a generous and fun company. They throw
lavish parties and always make us feel so special. It’s important not to
ever lose sight of it.
2. Having a healthy family. I am not thankful for this often enough.
3. Feeling calmer and a bit caught up for a change.

Photo of the Day – Day 214



Daily David – Day 214



Today was the Google picnic and David wanted to go down this huge slide.
As soon as it started, he was immediately scared and cried. But for this
one moment that I captured he looks happy in anticipation.

Just Wait a While

Thursday’s prompt from Shimelle was:What do you do when don’t feel
very creative or feel like you’ve hit a
creative block? Share a few tips that help you get back to yourself.




Honestly, I think the best thing is to walk away. Wait until the next
wave of creativity comes and don’t force yourself. Or just to play with
no plan in mind and see what happens. In the ideal world of no
deadlines, I think that’s the best thing to do. Give yourself permission
to rest. Relax. Rejuvenate. If only I took my own advice.

Thankful Today – July 31, 2008

1. Finally finishing with this month’s kit. Struggled a lot.
2. Spending some quality time with David. He always brings so much joy
into my life.
3. Getting a new computer. No more crashes.

Photo of the Day – Day 213



Daily David – Day 213



Not Your Typical Teenager

Wednesday’s prompt from Shimelle was: Who was your personal favourite
teeny-bopper pin-up? Share a story
about that dreamboat or another happy teenage memory with your readers.

This one didn’t make me think a long while. I didn’t even have one
poster in my room as a teenager. I have never been that type of girl. I
think that’s one of the reasons I was so miserable in Turkey. I just
didn’t fit into the tiny community I was stuck with. I also don’t really
equate teenage with fun. Then again, I did have a few good, solid
friends. One of whom I will be talking about in this week’s creative therapy piece.
The few friends I did have, I still cherish wholeheartedly.

Thankful Today – July 30

1. David’s mouth healing well.
2. Good friends and generous support
Today’s a short day cause I had a long week and wasn’t keeping good
track. Not good.