Everyday Magic – 12

Weekly Intention: This is a relatively quiet week at work and not many evening commitments so my intention this week is to do a few of the longer, deeper work items I have on my list. And then to finish off some personal items too like taxes, summer plans etc.

This month’s intention is: Personal Magic:  Time to slow down again and be intentional. This month think about yourself, what you have to offer to the world, what makes you, you. What’s unique and personal. Show up as your best self. This month is not about improving but owning. From February, on my plate still is: spring break, Nathaniel’s birthday trip, summer vacation, and the taxes. I still haven’t done enough work here.

One way I will show up this week:  i will go slow this week.

One magic I will make this week: i am going to try to see my friend evelyn and a colleague at work whom i haven’t seen in a long time.

This week, I will pay attention to: my presence. my triggers. my already always listening conversations.

This week, I will be kinder to: everyone i can.

This week, I will focus on pleasing: myself still. i need it. but also my family.

One new thing I will learn this week: how i am listening.

I am looking forward to: finishing perf still since i haven’t.

This week’s challenges:we will hear some news this week and i am hoping it will be positive.

Top Goals: 

  • Work: perf + write two of the docs.
  • Personal: daily drawing, journal, yoga, and do a hike?
  • Family:  math with N, cook dinner, work with D. Lots of time with love of my life.

I will focus on my values:

  • Love: love for the parts of me that are struggling.
  • Learn: how do draw a bit better.
  • Peace: peace with my work this week. i think i am getting closer actually.
  • Service: my boys.
  • Gratitude: gratitude for my family, my parents. my nephews who call me often. my sister whom i miss so much.

This week, I want to remember: that life goes by too quickly and i need to do a better job remembering that.


Everyday Magic is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 11

Magic I Saw this Week: I consciously tried to make this week quieter than last week. Much of the magic i saw this week was just ordinary life. Sunshine daily was magical. Even though the time change was hard, leaving work and having it be super bright and sunny was magical. Seeing just our daily ordinary life was also pretty magical for me. We are so lucky even though we spend a lot of our time working hard and not paying attention to it, there’s a lot of magic in our lives.

Magic I Made this Week: This week’s magic started with getting Nathaniel to the Tech museum and seeing his whole team test their hovercraft. There was a lot of yoga this week. A lot of leaving work early to be home before the kids. A lot of art. And i went to book club, too. For an uneventful week, it was pretty great.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Still spending a bit of time on self awareness here. Not enough this week but it’s still closer to top of mind for me.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: totally did not do perf + it took 3 hours but I did empty out most of my email
    Personal: i did daily drawing, i didn’t journal at all, i did daily yoga, and we did not do a hike.
    Family:  did not do math with N, cook dinner once, did not work with D. I spent a little bit of time with love of my life.

I celebrate: going to book club after such a long hiatus.

I am grateful for: taxes being almost done even though it’s another check i have to write.

This week, I exercised: i did yoga every day, twice on Tuesday and Thursday and then I did body pump on Monday and Wednesday.

Self-care this week: leaving early and doing art daily and all the yoga are a win for me right now, and going to book club was awesome.

I showed up for: myself this week.

I said yes to: leaving work early. book club.

I said no to:  doing perf. working late nights.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing the yoga and i am proud of myself.
  • Alive: it felt really alive to go to book club.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter with my perspective at the moment.
  • Kinder: i am finding myself softening a bit, i really am grateful.
  • Surrender: yoga is helping with surrender.

What I tolerated this week: just feeling all my feelings still.

My mood this week was: ok. this was a quiet week.

I am proud of: my life.

I forgive myself for: how i’m still feeling.

Here’s what I learned this week: i am learning to be patient and to see things from so many perspectives. I am learning so much about myself.

What I love right now: our life is more hectic than i’d like but it also feels full in all the great ways.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Joy of Art – 10

Do the work. Show up. Participate.

These are small pieces I do at work or at home at night to help remind me why I love doing art. 


Joy of Art is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Books I Read This Week 2019 – 10

Big reading week this week and quite a variety in both genres and author diversity.  Here are my goodreads reviews. If you’re on goodreads, add me as a friend so I can see your books too! I’ve also started an instagram account where I join my love of reading with my love of art.


The Island of Sea Women (4 stars): I’ve read many Lisa See books over the years and she never disappoints. This wonderful novel is no exception.

At its core many of See’s novels have the same theme: female friendship. They are often overlaid against a historical background and the history is of course inextricably linked to the experiences the women are having and how their friendship evolves (gets impacted) by everything in their lives.

This book in its most basic has the same premise. It’s about two women who meet as girls and are as close as siblings from a young age. They are on the Korean island of Jeju and they are part of an all-female diving collective. This culture is characterized as matrifocal, which is, focused on females. The women do all the hard, dangerous work, earn the keep and the men cook and take care of the babies, etc.

The story takes place over a long tumultuous period, including Japanese colonialism in the 1930s and 1940s, World War II, the Korean War and what follows, and then ends up in current day era, a few generations later. There are some horrible horrible things that happen in the book. I am sure much of it is historically accurate and it was tough to read. 

The overarching story, as always, is the friendship between the two women. What we keep from each other, even in our most trusted friendships. How we can destroy each other even as we’re trying to protect each other. How we can hold on to hatred and resentment for much longer than it serves us. And, of course, regret.

I am grateful for the time I spent with this book, to Lisa See for both teaching me about a time and place in history I knew little about and weaving a deep, touching and thought-provoking story into this time period to make it come even more alive for her readers. 

thanks to netgalley and the publisher for an advanced copy in exchange for an honest review.

thanks to netgalley and the publisher for an advanced copy in return for an honest review.


An Anonymous Girl (2.5 stars):  This was your run-of-the-mill psychological thriller, something reasonably rare in these days when all the books have to be filled with twists and turns and unreliable narrators. I didn’t love it but I also didn’t dislike it. I don’t think the characters were developed enough for me to care about them in any deep way. The plot moved fast enough that I kept listening to it without wanting to take a break, so that’s likely the best thing I can say about it.


I Think You’re Wrong (But I’m Listening) (4 stars):  I have never heard of these authors, nor have I listened to their podcast but I always love the idea of grace-filled conversations in any area, let alone politics. I had a few friends mention this so I thought it would be a good read.

And it was. There are some thought provoking recommendations here specific to politics but the premise of adding nuance and not being extremist and not completely ruling out a person based on categories we put them into, being comfortable with the uncomfortable, exiting the echo chamber and getting curious are applicable in every area of being human. So we can all learn something from this book.

For those of you, like me, who have not listened to these authors before, I want to mention that there are references to religion and scripture in the book. I am not religious (and have a different religion than the authors) and this didn’t bother me or take away from the book in the least but I always think it’s important to mention so people are aware and don’t write off the whole book on account of that. 

It’s a well-organized, thought-provoking book and a very worthwhile read.


The Art of Visual Notetaking (5 stars): This book is fantastic! 

I am always fascinated by the videos and pictures of people taking visual notes as they listen to a lecture. I wish I were that talented and able to not only listen to, process but distill and visualize information so quickly and well.

This book breaks down the process for you step by step and highlights all the important factors in creating a visual representation. Emily makes sure to mention all the “basics” that are really the crucial aspects of where to sit, how to listen, how to prioritize and how to plan.

Then she talks about handwriting which she breaks down to simple steps and shows you exactly what you need to practice to get to a place that you like for yourself.

And then comes the part that I consider the hardest: the visuals. Here, too, Emily is fantastic at breaking it down and introducing a concept I’d never heard before called leveling it up where you start with the basics and keep adding to them in little bits to make it better and better. 

Emily also talks about adding color, creating a visual library, headers, containers, correcting mistakes, using metaphors and other parts of your visual notetaking journey. Like with all the other chapters, she builds it up in a very consumable, practical way that makes it look achievable.

Like everything else, the only way to really get good at this is by lots and lots of practice which she makes a point of mentioning and giving lots of examples of her progression so you know what pace to expect and she also has exercises at the end of each chapter so you can practice what you just learned. 

I know she makes it look much easier than it is and it will take a lot lot lot of practice but this book is inspiring and informative and encouraging in all the right ways. If you’re even remotely interested in this area I cannot recommend it enough.

thank you to netgalley and the publisher for an advanced copy in exchange for an honest review.


The Happiness Diary (4 stars):  I’m a big fan of living with intention. To me, this means being clear about many different areas of my life and aware of the choices I am making and paying attention to the way those choices impact me both day to day and cumulatively.

Being happy is something that doesn’t come as naturally to me as it might to others. My natural state is lower than average and I have a tendency to remember the negative more strongly than the positive. So this is an area where I make a lot of extra effort to be even more intentional.

This book is the perfect tool to do that with. This is not a “reading” book, it is a “working” book. You have to work with it, live with it, think and take the time to really be intentional. It has eight different sections from definition to focusing on present moment to changing your brain to capturing the small things, etc. There are future looking exercises, ones that encourage repetition, ones that you revisit in intervals of time, etc.

Some of the exercises encourage introspection and you can do them in one sitting. There are others that are about making future commitments. And then there are ones that are about remembering the past or the present. Ones that encourage practicing new behavior and ones that encourage practicing new ways of thinking. 

There is a wide variety in this book and while my digital copy didn’t allow me to take advantage of the beautiful way this book is laid out for writing, the prompts and exercises are all easily transferable into your own journal. It’s not about the looks (though it’s so pretty too) it’s about the content. 

This book will be my close companion all throughout 2019 encouraging me to be intentional and thoughtful about my life so I can welcome more happiness (or be more aware of the happiness that’s already there.)

with gratitude to netgalley and the publisher for an arc in exchange for an honest review.


Where Reasons End (4 stars):  What an unusual book. This short book is an imaginary dialogue between a mom and her son who committed suicide. They talk about ordinary things: her writing, the world, poetry, etc. So I know some of the negative rates think there’s no emotion in this book when it’s clearly such a horrible emotional tragedy but I actually felt like there was a lot of emotion there. It was subtle and more acute in small moments but it still felt really sad to me. (Maybe because I listened to it on audio.)

I’m still not fully sure how I feel about the book but I am glad I read it.


The Care and Feeding of Ravenously Hungry Girls (4.5 stars):  This is one of the few cases where I felt like the blurbs that quoted The Mothers and An American Marriage did a little bit of justice to what this book feels like as opposed to just throwing titles on there to encourage readers to buy and then sorely disappoint them because of the lack of actual resemblance. Even though I’d say The Care and Feeding of Ravenously Hungry Girls is not like either of them, it does have the same feel as both of them in some ways.

This book is about a couple who go to jail for embezzling from their charity and the siblings of the mom, as well as their two teenage kids. The chapters shift perspective mostly among the three adult siblings but there are a few chapters with the dad, too, but not as many. While much of the book is the impact of the incarceration on the kids (and the adult siblings), it gets intermixed with the history of each sibling going back in the past and revisiting abuse in their own childhood, dealing with the scars of that and in some cases working hard to make peace with things. In fact, I’d say each character is on his/her own path to peace in this book. And there are varying levels of getting to it, just like in the real world. 

This book was very well written, the characters are deeply developed and there is a wide range of issues raised that are so real and told with such honesty that it’s hard not to connect with the characters. 

This is definitely up there as one of my favorite reads of 2019 so far.


Territory of Light (3.5 stars):  This small, quiet novel takes place during the year after the narrator separates from her husband and lives with her young daughter in an apartment. What I liked so much about this novel is that it’s told in little vignettes and moments from their lives. 

There is the sorrow, loneliness, and journey of the mom overlaid with the wonder, joy, and sometimes agony of the little girl. There is a lot of detail of simple every day things, the small pleasures, the small things that cause us deep sadness.

One of my favorite scenes happens pretty early on in the story when the water tank in the building has a leak and water floods everywhere and the two of them sneak out at night and go play in the water. There are so many little scenes like that. 

I am really enjoying reading novels that are different in the rhythms and language they use and this was one of the ones I am really glad to have read.


And there we go, a small week of reading. Here’s to another good week next week.


Books I Read this Week 2019 is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here. I am also tracking my books in real time on Good Reads here. If you’re on Good Reads add me so I can follow you, too! I’ve also started an instagram account where I join my love of reading with my love of art.

Stories from 2019 – 11

This story is about an amazing birthday party Nathaniel was lucky to be invited to.

Here are two more stories from my 2018 album. The content for these comes from the learn and light kits. 

This one is this wonderful trip we took to Lake Tahoe with a whole bunch of Nathaniel and David’s school friends. Super serene and lovely.

Stories from 2019 is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here. Everything on the pages is from Ali’s Story Kits unless mentioned otherwise.

Everyday Magic – 11

Weekly Intention: I had a really tough experience at work last week and I am still reeling from it. My intention this week is to quiet down and go within and decide what I want to do about it. This week is hopefully mostly quiet so I will have time to center myself, calm down, and see how i’d like to proceed. In general my intention this week is to be quiet and go within.

This month’s intention is: Personal Magic:  Time to slow down again and be intentional. This month think about yourself, what you have to offer to the world, what makes you, you. What’s unique and personal. Show up as your best self. This month is not about improving but owning. From February, on my plate still is: spring break, Nathaniel’s birthday trip, summer vacation, and the taxes. Last week, more than any other, highlighted to me that this is something I really want to focus on. I don’t just want to do this, i need to.

One way I will show up this week:  i think i will reserve this week for myself. i might not be as open as usual but more looking in to understand how i’m affected by what’s going on around me.

One magic I will make this week: i might try to go to book club which i think would be magical.

This week, I will pay attention to: my feelings, my thoughts, my perspectives.

This week, I will be kinder to: myself, i really need it.

This week, I will focus on pleasing: my inner child. might sound woo woo but i don’t care.

One new thing I will learn this week: what’s triggering me?

I am looking forward to: finishing perf.

This week’s challenges: i think showing up to work and being present will be challenging after last week. making sure i am not triggered, reacting etc.

Top Goals: 

  • Work: perf + empty out email
  • Personal: daily drawing, journal, yoga, and do a hike?
  • Family:  math with N, cook dinner, work with D. Lots of time with love of my life.

I will focus on my values:

  • Love: love for who i already am this week.
  • Learn: understanding what triggers me is going to be big learning.
  • Peace: peace with me, i am still struggling so much with being ok to be me.
  • Service: to me this week.
  • Gratitude: gratitude for all the people who love and support me.

This week, I want to remember: that it’s ok to stand up for who i am and what i believe. it’s possible to listen and create dialogue without apologizing constantly.


Everyday Magic is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 10

Magic I Saw this Week: This was a crazy long week filled with a lot of highs and a lot of lows. I saw rainbows, I saw people working together, I saw my kids working hard, I saw people excited about our college and its future, I saw excited kids who accomplish so many amazing things. I saw that there’s so many small touches in my day to day life that are magical.

Magic I Made this Week: I did yoga every day except Friday. We hosted a friend of Jake’s monday night and it was lovely. We built a prosthetic arm at work and that was magical. Going to science fair was magical and david winning first place was also magical. going back to a school even with jake where we talked a bit about our college years was magical.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: i did a bit of work on this, this week. I got my hair done on Monday. I had a really really bad experience at work on Thursday so I took Friday off and had a mental health day and spent the day with my friend Kelly which was truly magical. I spent a bunch of time thinking about my life and who I am and what I am willing to do (and not willing to do.) and read a lot. Good day for me.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: done with offsite + did some of perf + emptied out email but it’s full again 🙂
  • Personal: did daily drawing, did not journal, did yoga, and did not do a hike, was totally sane till Thursday when i just had the last drop
  • Family:  did science fair, did not do math with N, did not cook dinner once , worked with D. Some time with love of my life.

I celebrate: David. He won first place in science fair.

I am grateful for: my friend kelly this week.

This week, I exercised: i did yoga every day except Friday, twice on Thursday and then I did body pump on Monday.

Self-care this week: mental health day for the win.

I showed up for: my manager and my son.

I said yes to: having something to do every single night.

I said no to:  working at the state i was in on Friday.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing that i have a lot of feelings and need more time to figure them out.
  • Alive: it felt really alive to be with a friend on Friday.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter with the offsite done.
  • Kinder: i let several people be kind to me this week. feels very vulnerable but i tried.
  • Surrender: still reminding myself to surrender daily. it’s helping.

What I tolerated this week: a lot of long long days and very low lows.

My mood this week was: ok until Thursday which completely destroyed me for a while.

I am proud of: my children.

I forgive myself for: how i flew off the handle and how much all this is getting to me.

Here’s what I learned this week: i need to figure out what’s going on with me.

What I love right now: being able to sit on the couch and read.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Joy of Art – 09

joy is around you.

This was the Lifebook class for week three or four, I can’t remember. I enjoyed making it and its 3-D nature. those are meant to be ranunculus 🙂

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Joy of Art is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Books I Read This Week 2019 – 09

After all that wonderful reading last week, I only got to read four books this week. It was a long work week.  Here are my goodreads reviews. If you’re on goodreads, add me as a friend so I can see your books too! I’ve also started an instagram account where I join my love of reading with my love of art.


The Valedictorian of Being Dead (4.5stars): This is a powerful book. Despite a few jokes here and there, it’s not a funny book. It’s not your typical dooce stories. It’s an honest and raw book on the profound toll depression can take on your life and the lengths to which one might be willing to go to release themselves from the grip of it.

Back when my kids were in their toddler years, I used to read dooce and while I didn’t relate to many of her stories, her blog was compulsively readable. It was honest (maybe honest is not the right word since everyone writing online is presenting a version of themselves) and funny and it gave me something to do during those endless nights with little babies. I stopped reading it over the years and have maybe checked in on her site twice in the last ten years. 

Nonetheless, when I saw this ARC, I knew I wanted to read it. I have my own stories with depression and knowing how raw she can be, I wanted to read what she wrote. I knew it would be well written in her compulsively readable style.

This book was probably one of the rawest descriptions of depression I’ve ever read. The feelings and thoughts were articulated with such honesty that it hurt to read them. It was hard to get through much of this book, especially if you can connect with any of the feelings/thoughts. I found myself connecting with her mother and feeling such an overwhelming sadness of watching your kid go through all that and also such awe at her showing up for her daughter again and again.

It’s so easy to believe that the pieces of ourselves we share online (or even offline for that matter) are who we are. But they are far from it. The truth is always far from what we see. It’s layers and layers of complicated truths. And of course even with this book we won’t ever know the full story but I am still grateful Heather chose to write this story, chose to articulate what depression can feel like. We need more stories of the not-so-pretty but honest parts of life so all of us can feel less alone in our mess. So all of us can be more compassionate towards each other.

thanks to netgalley and the publisher for an advanced copy in return for an honest review.


The Unwinding of the Miracle (4 stars):  Reading two really sad books back to back was maybe not the best idea. Two books about death that both also have bits that are really hopeful and both remind you to live life.

Like The Bright Hour: A Memoir of Living and Dying and When Breath Becomes Air, this is a book about dying. The main character starts by telling you that they are dead by the time you read this. 

Much of the book comes out of the blog Julie had while she lived with colon cancer. It’s heart wrenching in bits, inspiring in others, and beautiful in yet others. What I really appreciated was the honesty she shares in its raw form in many, many parts of this book. The anger, the resentment, the frustration and the total unfairness of it all. 

The whole time I was reading this book I was thinking that I need to be more grateful for my life. I am not that far from the age Julie died. Life is unpredictable and it’s short and it can change on a dime. It’s hard but important for me to remember. 


The Last Romantics (4 stars):  I really enjoy stories about families and this one has all the bits I love. It’s about siblings who are deeply affected by their dad’s passing and the impact that has on their mom. Their journey over the years as they are close, get upset with each other, keep things from each other, support each other and all the other things siblings do.


Early Riser (2 stars): It’s clear I’m going to be the outlier here. As someone who has never read Jasper Fforde before, I am not exactly sure what compelled me to pick up this book in the first place. I do read a bunch of science fiction and I’ve read many dystopian novels and I can be a big fan of the absurd, clever humor. I’ve devoured and loved every book by Douglas Adams so I thought this might be fun.

But then I got lost almost immediately. One review I read said it might be fun to read this on audio but I am wondering if that’s what went wrong for me. If I should have just read it on paper instead. Or if I should have read it more in one long sitting, etc. I just kept getting disconnected from the story and never had any attachment to any of the characters. 

I thought of putting it down many many times throughout and in retrospect that’s exactly what I should have done. Midway through this would have been a 3-star read but by the end I was so tired and frustrated that I could not possibly give it that. 

There are many, many fans of the author and maybe one day I can pick up a different book and give it a shot but for now, I’ll move on.


And there we go, a small week of reading. Here’s to a better week next week.


Books I Read this Week 2019 is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here. I am also tracking my books in real time on Good Reads here. If you’re on Good Reads add me so I can follow you, too! I’ve also started an instagram account where I join my love of reading with my love of art.

Stories from 2019 – 10

This story is about david and all the ways in which he’s changing and growing up.

Here are two more stories from my 2018 album. The content for these comes from the seasons and light kits. 

This one is about my boys and how much i love them and love taking these photos.

Stories from 2019 is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here. Everything on the pages is from Ali’s Story Kits unless mentioned otherwise.

Everyday Magic – 10

Weekly Intention: When I said last week was hectic, I was lying. This week is insane. We already had a busy weekend with a camping trip, science fair, several tech challenge meetings, but now I have a 2-day work offsite that I am running, hair appointment and a dinner guest monday night, a work dinner tuesday night, and possibly a school event on Wednesday night. Oh and possibly another event Thursday night. Just writing that makes me want to weep. Not to mention a bunch more perf this week. So my intention this week is going to have to be to surrender. To be in the moment. To be grateful for all the layers of my life. There are small moments like this when they all come to the surface at the same time but it’s rare and I enjoy the layers so much.

This month’s intention is: Personal Magic:  Time to slow down again and be intentional. This month think about yourself, what you have to offer to the world, what makes you, you. What’s unique and personal. Show up as your best self. This month is not about improving but owning. From February, on my plate still is: spring break, Nathaniel’s birthday trip, summer vacation, and the taxes. I really love March’s challenge. I think it will align well with what I want to do at work.

One way I will show up this week:  excited, open, energetic.

One magic I will make this week: i will show up energetically for my hubby.

This week, I will pay attention to: how my energy is so I can decide whether to attend all the events.

This week, I will be kinder to: myself and the kids.

This week, I will focus on pleasing: hmmm… myself after i’ve already done all of what i outlined above.

One new thing I will learn this week: how can i make time to sketch even a bit daily?

I am looking forward to: finishing taxes and perf!

This week’s challenges: having all my evenings busy is challenging for me. and i won’t be able to exercise Tuesday and Wednesday since i won’t be at work.

Top Goals: 

  • Work: offsite + perf+ empty out email
  • Personal: daily drawing, journal, yoga, and do a hike?, stay sane? 🙂
  • Family:  science fair, math with N, cook dinner, work with D. Lots of time with love of my life.

I will focus on my values:

  • Love: love for myself this week. how can i be kinder?
  • Learn: how to squeeze in the art.
  • Peace: peace with perf + evening commitments.
  • Service: to work and to Jake and David this week.
  • Gratitude: gratitude for my life. 

This week, I want to remember: that my kids are growing up and will soon be gone and so will all these wonderful opportunities that sometimes overwhelm me. it’s ok to be overwhelmed but it’s also ok to enjoy it.


Everyday Magic is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 09

Magic I Saw this Week: I’ll be honest, I can’t remember much of this week. I feel like it passed in a blur. We had a lot of work moments this week so it was prepping for one thing then the next thing then the next thing etc. So next thing I knew it was Friday. I did see a lot of magic between my boys when David helped Nathaniel with a project. I also saw a rainbow which was magical.

Magic I Made this Week: I did yoga every morning. Even despite being super tired. I Showed up for my friend who wanted a hug so she came down to see me so we could spend time together. I started a new instagram account that joins my love of reading with my love of art. I spent a bunch of time watching movies with Jake. I worked from home on Friday. I took refuge in an office at work so I could get some work done. I decided not to deal with email (I did it over the weekend instead alas…)

Magic of Me that I explored Week: Mostly did a bit of art. I do plan to do some journaling too and I picked a project for OLW March. I really didn’t want to pick something around diet as per my goal this year of not dieting in any form any day of this year. I also didn’t want rigorous new exercise. So the instagram account ended up starting my goal of creating one new piece of art related to a book i am reading and then posting them together. I love it so far.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: finished february monthly, sent the email, wrote the three docs i want to work on, did my perf.
    Personal: did not do journaling + did art + did yoga, did not restart pushups, and did not do a hike.
    Family:  did math with N but only once. Did not do ML or physics with D. Spent time with J. did not Hike together. did Cook dinner.

I celebrate: finishing phase one of perf.

I am grateful for: possibly a good conversation with my manager, some good talks with my friend M at work.

This week, I exercised: i did yoga every day, twice on Tuesday, body pump on Monday and Wednesday.

Self-care this week: not a huge amount outside of the yoga.

I showed up for: my manager this week, he had a lot going on.

I said yes to: time with Jake.

I said no to:  catching up on my email. i am just so behind.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace: i am embracing how i feel.
  • Alive: there was this amazing moment on sunday night when i kept waking up, instead of being super sad, i kept getting excited that it wasn’t time to wake up yet. it was a giddy feeling, i loved it.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter with several tasks done, will feel even better next week hopefully.
  • Kinder: i let my friend M be kind to me and i’ve been kinder at home.
  • Surrender: i have been reminding myself to surrender. it’s been helpful several times this week. This word is my biggest companion this year so far.

What I tolerated this week: a bunch of work.

My mood this week was: busy, low energy.

I am proud of: all i did get done this week.

I forgive myself for: feeling what i feel.

Here’s what I learned this week: i need to and would like to push a bit more. let’s see if i can.

What I love right now: watching my kids.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.