Moments from this Week – 43

this week was mostly an offsite at work.

i worked pretty long days this week so most of my photos are from work.

and then cpan and some nature moments.


Moments from this Week 2018 is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Books I Read This Week 2018 – 43

The best part of this week was getting to sit with Killing Commendatore. I am a big fan of Murakami. His books are always different in mind-blowing ways that no other writer can ever come close to and I just really like being lost in a Murakami-world even when I don’t like many of his specifics. This book was no exception. It was weird. And I really enjoyed reading it.

I then wanted something lighter and Not If See You First  was perfect. I read it super fast and really enjoyed it for what I wanted then.

I was still feeling a bit heavy and worn out and  Love and Other Words made me feel happier.

Which might be why I thought it was ok to read Broken Things which was dark and unpleasant. I read Lauren Oliver’s first book (If I Fall) and it was one of my favorite reads. I have read all her books since then (except for Replica) and disliked all of them so I think this is officially me giving up on Lauren Oliver. 

The second best part of this week was Anne Lamott’s Almost Everything  coming out. I read it on Tuesday when it came out. It’s a fast read but it’s wonderful and healing and just everything I’ve come to expect from Lamott. I love her so.

I then read What if it’s Us. I was a fan of Simon and the Homo Sapiens Agenda and have read several Silvera books but alas this book was no better than mediocre. Just nothing to write home about.

I then picked up  Maeve in America  which I discovered from the library. I’d never heard of her but the essays were funny, thoughtful and I enjoyed listening to them.

Quite a good week considering I had two of my favorite authors in one week.


Books I Read this Week 2018 is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Stories from 2018 – 42 – Fallen Leaf Lake

Last year, as part of donating to the school our kids go to, we had bought tickets to a special weekend event over Fallen Leaf Lake near Lake Tahoe. 

When the time came it wasn’t the ideal weekend but of course we went anyway. The kids had a blast. Nathaniel made bread with his friends.

There were many many animals as part of an evening event. 

look at this porcupine?!

and a baby mountain lion.


Jake and I woke up at 5:45 and were able to see the sun come up. It was magical.


The colors were amazing.

there were several different kinds of boats but the second day was super windy so the kids could only do the pedal boats.

I don’t even have one photo of David because he was with his friends the whole time.

The weather was cold but really beautiful.

on the first day, Jake went sailing.

while I read Hank Green’s book and relaxed. We got there 5 hours before everyone else. 


and it was the best idea since it turned out to be the most beautiful day.


I couldn’t stop taking photos the whole weekend.


There was just so much beauty. 


i even brought my large camera so not everything would just be phone photos.


here’s me listening to my book.


and jake still sailing.


and the little boy.


the love of my life.

in the evening, there was a lovely fire, smores, singing and more. I am so grateful we went to this event. The kids had a wonderful time, we barely saw them all weekend, and Jake and I also had a wonderful time. Here’s to doing it again next year.


Stories from 2018 is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018here.

Stronger Than Before – 43

 

Weekly Intention: This is another mixed week where I might work from home on Thursday and might be offsite all of Wednesday. Jake’s leaving town for the last part of the week. No school events this week except one day where I have late pickup. Otherwise, I am hoping for an uneventful week (hopefully.) My biggest intention this week is to give myself some grace and find some time to really journal so I can feel like I have a hold over my life, so I can feel grounded again, and so I can feel good about where I am and what I’m doing with my life. I am so grateful for my life but I am also feeling a little lost lately and I know journaling will help me with that.

This month’s intention is: Stronger than Before: Here’s your chance to give it one last push before the year’s over. Where are you still wanting to be stronger? How can you help yourself get stronger than before? How can you take things one notch higher? One notch deeper? OK so my plan here is to look back at the stuff I’d written in January of OLW and really figure out what I haven’t focused on so I can do more here. [ I still didn’t do this so I will keep it here for this week.]

One way I will stretch this week:  i think i am going to try to sit with the discomfort this week and see what I can do there.

One boundary I will set this week: i will journal. i will take time alone.

This week, I will focus on pleasing: i want to spend a bit of time with david this week, making a plan, moving forward.

One new thing I will learn this week: i wrote this last week: what my priorities are for the rest of 2018, focus on a word for 2019 and personal goals for 2019 and I didn’t do it so i want to do this. 

One area where I will go deeper this week: journaling, let’s do this.

What do I need to sit with this week? how i can get out of this space i am in and feel more on track.

I am looking forward to: taking some alone time to journal.

This week’s challenges: i am a bit unclear on Wednesday and having no Jake for four days will definitely be tough

Top Goals: 

  • Work:  december summit, this wednesday’s speech, documenting my thoughts.
  • Personal: i am going to have to repeat: get back to routine, journal, draw, eat well, exercise and sleep, make 2019 plans
  • Family: spend time with David, cook for Jake. more time with Nathaniel.

I will focus on my values:

  • Love: i want to spend time with my kids in a loving way. 
  • Learn:  learn what i need right now. also how to define my job.
  • Peace: peace with fact that this will take time
  • Service: to myself again.
  • Gratitude: for so much of my life that works.

This week, I want to remember: there’s an ebb and flow and it’s ok to embrace where i am now.


Stronger Than Before is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 42


How I got Stronger this week: I am still in a funk. I know it’s been months, weeks, I don’t even know. I feel like much of 2018 has been a struggle amidst lots of good things. Here’s what I did this week: I stood for what I believed. I took a chance and a risk. I was vulnerable. I told my truth. I stood up for others. I exercised twice. I ate poorly. I showed up and I took what I needed when I needed. I am trying to give myself grace. Some days it’s harder than others but I keep trying and I guess that’s how I get stronger. 

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: made progress on december summit, done with wednesday’s speech, barely worked on year end goals.
  • Personal: did not get back to routine, and did not really do any of these: journal, draw, eat well, exercise and sleep
  • Family: made a little bit of a plan for each kid but didn’t implement it. cooked only once.

I celebrate: hmm let’s go with i celebrate good books this week.

I am grateful for:  being able to tell my truth, not everyone is open to receiving that and i am very lucky. 

Karen’s Points: this week was also unusual and i ended up with two body pump classes. 

A Change I embraced: trying to embrace my blonder hair. Some days i really like it, others i miss my dark hair a lot.

I let go of: feeling better. i’ve been letting myself feel out of sorts.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: i’ve been working from home a bit lately and i love it. i missed it.
  • Magical: doing math with nathaniel is my happy place.
  • Lighter: a few big things are off my plate so that makes me feel better.
  • True: i need to make a plan for myself. i am feeling out of sorts and not sure how to re-anchor myself. i need to readjust.

Where I chose Joy: i spent more time with Nathaniel this week.

I showed up for:  david at school this week.

A Mistake I made this week: i have been giving feedback, listening and being honest. i am happy about doing that but maybe i need to also be a bit more careful + thoughtful.

What I tolerated this week: still down, frustrated, sad, worn out, and just overall not my best self.

My mood this week was: off. 

I forgive myself for: eating poorly, not wanting to make an effort.

What I love right now: a little bit of quiet.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Moments from this Week – 42

this week’s spread is a bunch of mishmosh. 

8th grade tea, nathaniel breaking boxes, driving to school, breakfast, and more cayucos.

planning for an offsite, meetings at work, birthday party, and going blonde.


Moments from this Week 2018 is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Books I Read This Week 2018 – 42

This was a good week. 

I thought Make Time  was ok. It had a bunch of practical tips but there was nothing wildly new in it for me. It’s more things I know I should be doing.

I then read Fox 8 which was a short story. I really liked it even though it was a bit weird.

I then tackled  An Audience of One: Reclaiming Creativity for Its Own Sake  which also had nothing new in it. It was meh.

I was finally ready for a novel so I grabbed The Dream Daughter which completely surprised me and I really liked it. If you’ve read this author before, you might like this one, too.

I wanted to make sure to read Whiskey in a Teacup  before it was due at the library. It was fast but honestly, not super resonant for me. I still love and adore Reese though.

I finished the week with Dare to Lead which was the highlight of the week. I love love love Brene and this was no exception. I cannot recommend her enough.

Let’s see how I do next week.


Books I Read this Week 2018 is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Stories from 2018 – 41 – Backyard Camping Birthday Party

A good friend of Nathaniel had his tenth birthday a few weeks ago. It was in their backyard and the theme was camping. They went above and beyond to make it special for the boys. 

After dinner, they all got to watch Princess Bride. 

before dinner, they played with tons and tons of boxes. All the kids said it was one of the best parts.

at night they slept in tents in their own sleeping bags. It was quite lovely.

It was Nathaniel’s first sleepover ever. He had a wonderful time. We are super grateful and hope he continues to have special memories like this with his good friends.


Stories from 2018 is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018here.

Stronger Than Before – 42

 

Weekly Intention: This week is a mixed week. I have to work all Tuesday for an all-day meeting on Wednesday. I have to go to the high school on Monday night. I have a hair appointment on Thursday night and the kids have no school on Friday but David has a high school shadow. I also really want to knock off some of my todos this week. Personal ones. Things I’ve been dragging around for weeks. I have to make some serious forward momentum on some of my work too since I will be going to Zurich in a few weeks. So here’s my intention for this week: I will do as much as possible, i will give myself grace for the rest, i will make some plans for the next two months so I understand my priorities, and I will focus on what’s in front of me the most. I will be kind. Kind kind kind. This is what i really want more than anything else. I want to be kind to me, kind to the kids, kind to Jake, kind to colleagues, kind to every single person. 

This month’s intention is: Stronger than Before: Here’s your chance to give it one last push before the year’s over. Where are you still wanting to be stronger? How can you help yourself get stronger than before? How can you take things one notch higher? One notch deeper? OK so my plan here is to look back at the stuff I’d written in January of OLW and really figure out what I haven’t focused on so I can do more here. [ I didn’t do this so I will keep it here for this week.]

One way I will stretch this week:  the appeals committee work and the onboarding will both stretch me.

One boundary I will set this week: i will take all of Tuesday to read packets, i will make sure i can be at home reading.

This week, I will focus on pleasing: me still, i need it.

One new thing I will learn this week: what my priorities are for the rest of 2018, focus on a word for 2019 and personal goals for 2019.

One area where I will go deeper this week: december summit.

What do I need to sit with this week? how i’m feeling and why it’s so hard on me.

I am looking forward to: the kids coming home earlier now that cross country is over.

This week’s challenges: evening commitments are always hard for me. Getting back to exercising is also going to be hard. And finally the unpredictable Wednesday.

Top Goals: 

  • Work:  december summit, wednesday’s speech, year end goals.
  • Personal: get back to routine, journal, draw, eat well, exercise and sleep
  • Family: make a plan for each kid. cook again.

I will focus on my values:

  • Love: take stock, figure out what’s getting in the way, make a plan.
  • Learn:  learn what i am missing the most and how i can bring it back in.
  • Peace: peace with how i’m feeling, accepting what is.
  • Service: to myself still.
  • Gratitude: for my wonderful husband.

This week, I want to remember: that things will get better. i can do this.


Stronger Than Before is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 41


How I got Stronger this week: I want to be honest, this was a tough week for me. There has been many tough periods this year and I appear to be in the middle of another one. I feel like I am balancing too many things and they are all falling apart. At least I feel like they are falling apart. Each individual thing is small and possibly inconsequential but when I add it all together it feels like an avalanche and I just can’t breathe. I am not exactly sure how to find my way out at the moment. But I haven’t given up yet. I am trying. And I guess that’s going to have to do for this week.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work:  i did get started on other things, and worked on the december summit a little bit.
  • Personal: i can’t really say that i got back to routine, i journaled only once, didn’t draw, ate i’d say mediocre at best and likely just not well, i exercised but not enough and i slept so so
  • Family: i spent a teeny tiny amount of time with david on his project, and did not find a volunteer opportunity for David yet but i did hug them a bunch. though not enough. never enough.

I celebrate: making it through this week.

I am grateful for:  my husband who showers me with kindness more often than i deserve.

Karen’s Points: this week i had a bunch of morning commitments so all I got in was one body pump and one 1.5 mile run.

A Change I embraced: I rested a lot this week, I needed it even though I had a lot of work.

I let go of: so much this week. i just couldn’t work crazy hours after last week. so i paced myself.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: i got to meet with an old friend and it was lovely. 
  • Magical: getting to work from home both monday and friday was awesome.
  • Lighter: i don’t feel light right now. so much so that i feel like i have to pick light as my word next year.
  • True: i am working so hard at getting better.

Where I chose Joy: i worked at home when i needed it.

I showed up for:  nathaniel at school this week.

A Mistake I made this week: i have been dropping the ball a lot but i am trying to catch up.

What I tolerated this week: just overall feeling of being down. 

My mood this week was: exhausted. dejected and just worn out.

I forgive myself for: being where i am. this is how i feel right now. 

What I love right now: my husband. the good weather. kindness of everyone.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Moments from this Week – 41

more from our weekend away. adventures in the backyard. and just reading and reading.

i love the beach so very much.

so grateful for sunny california days!!


Moments from this Week 2018 is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Books I Read This Week 2018 – 41

This might be the week I read the fewest books in all of 2018 so far. It was a long week so I knew it was unlikely I would be able to read much but it’s still better than nothing.

I thought Charlotte Walsh Likes To Win  was ok. I wasn’t amazing but it didn’t make me upset as it has many others if you read the reviews on amazon.

I then read Wildcard which I knew would be an easy read and it was.

I started the  Muse of Nightmares  as soon as it came out. Laini Taylor is so so so talented. Her books are a joy to read and are unlike any other. And this was no exception. 

Here’s to a much better reading week next week.


Books I Read this Week 2018 is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.