You Choose - Week 5

It was only fair that I tackle abundance next since I did all the other three in previous weeks. This was the perfect picture for it. I love how it looks and it reminds me that there’s plenty to go around. The text says “I open my hands to blessings.” Blessings. There are so many of them. Enough to feed me and everyone around me.

I am so grateful for the abundance in my life.

here is a side look for the shimmer; i wanted to keep this really simple as it’s my goal with this project:

here’s to remembering how my cup overflows.

You Choose is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

A Book a Week – We are Water

I read We Are Water because it’s Wally Lamb and I love Wally Lamb. Love him.

I actually listened to this one on audio and it was really well done with multiple narrators, one of which was Wally Lamb himself. Fair warning: there are some triggers in the book. I don’t want to give away the plot or spoil anything but I want to say there’s one very disturbing character the book and this is the kind of book I usually would not pick up just for that reason.

BUt I am glad I picked up this one. Wally Lamb never disappoints.

Fifty-Two Stamps - Week 5

This is the final week of carving the Core Desired Feelings words. The final word is: open. I probably should have started with this one as it’s the shortest word and not super complicated.

Maybe because of those two facts, this one ended up being bigger than the others. Not too big but definitely bigger.

here’s to being open to the gifts of the universe this year!

Fifty-two stamps is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self – Week 5

For this first page, I used Kate Thompson’s lesson from Life Book 2014. She is magnificent with drawing faces. Me, not so much. But I felt like trying anyway.

This whole page is painted gold and is really shiny. I am not sure why I didn’t take a shot of it sideways so you can see. But just imagine it. :)

In the spirit of bravery, I wrote down the lyrics of the Alanis song I was listening to at the time. It says: I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone. You live, you learn. You lose, you learn. You cry, you learn. You live, you learn. You scream, you learn.

To learn, you have to live. And if you live, no matter the result, you learn something from the experience. As with my word, I want to be brave this year. I want to bite off more than I can chew. I want to try harder, do more, work harder. I want to learn. I want to push myself. I want to learn about what I am capable of. I want to scream, cry, laugh, live.

I want to feel alive.

Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Everyday Brave - Week 5

This week’s page has some shimmer on the left side. It’s one of those pages I built as I went along so the items don’t really make a cohesive picture together. But I still really like how it looks.

On the left is my sandal. I added some shimmer to it because, in real life, it has some shimmer.

maybe you can see some of it here:

In the middle is the halloween pumpkins that were hanging outside my neighbor’s house when I made this page. And then to the right are my birthday balloons that my friend Holly gave me when I turned forty. I love how colorful they are and how they have patterns too.

And there we are.

Everyday Brave is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Weekly Diary – February 1 2015

Still not taking many photos. I feel like January went in a blur. I have been brave and taken risks and done so many more things than I usually do. But I also felt more hectic than I’d like to at times. I think I need to work a bit more on organizing my days better, chunking up my time better so I am not context switching so many times in a short period. I also need to just go to bed early, no matter what. Eight hours of sleep is a bare minimum for me. I need to honor that.

Here’s to hoping February feels a bit more settled.

In the spirit of keeping tabs on my priorities and goals weekly, here’s some of what worked and didn’t work this week so far:

Worked Well:

  • I got caught up on some of the art I hadn’t finished in the last week.
  • Still doing well with the skin cream.
  • It was a tough week for food but I still tried more than usual.
  • I really love teaching math to the boys.
  • I spent a lot of time with David and Nathaniel, working and playing.
  • We had a successful benefit pre-party.
  • Organized a social at work and one more coming up.
  • Bought both boys some books and took them out to celebrate for having such good feedback from their teachers.
  • Did more research into middle schools.
  • Did better on sleep. I went to sleep at 7 two nights in a row.
  • Finally bought presents for David’s birthday.
Needs more Work:
  • I am still not journaling but I have a plan, now.
  • I did not exercise this week. I feel really sad about this
  • I didn’t drink enough water or take my vitamins.
  • Still feeling disorganized and not-grounded.

So for this upcoming week, I really want to focus on coming up with a plan. Be more focused. Feel less frazzled. Feel more in control. And if I can also exercise, I’d consider that a big bonus.

Here are a few more photos from this week:

Nathaniel has started reading more and more and it makes me so happy to see it.

He and Daddy spent some time playing chess this week, too.

I also found these photos Jake took at the Air Museum the boys went to two weeks ago.

they aren’t perfect but i love them.

there was some more biking for Nathaniel this week.

he’s getting better and better.

then it was family photo time

i love my boys

silly faces

more silly faces

they make me laugh so much.

tickle time!!

and here we are. A busy but productive and amazing week. I am so grateful for my life.

Weekly Diary is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

David and Nathaniel's Books of Happy Memories - Week 3

Here’s this week’s offering from David:

This is the other side of the same paperbag from last week.

And one from Nathaniel:

He has his handprint puzzle they made on the first day of Kindergarten.

David and Nathaniel’s Books of Happy Memories is a two projects I’m doing with my kids for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Stories of Twenty-Fifteen - Week 4

Here’s this week’s story:

Title: Saying Goodbye to Chrome
I started out in the Chrome team around 2008. It’s hard to nail down the exact date because I worked for Sundar for a while before that and there was no official transfer date. One day I was on the Mac team and also supporting Gears and next thing I know I was the PM for Mac, Linux and ChromeFrame.

I remember joining Sundar’s org and hearing about Chrome day and night and feeling like it was Sundar’s special baby. I used it and I didn’t think there was anything special about it. I remember wondering why he thought it was all that magical and why he thought it was going to be so important.

And he was so right.

As it turned out, Chrome is awesome. I mean the single best product I’ve worked on so far in my life. I’ve loved the product, the team, the management, the users, the work, all of it. Of course, there were many things I didn’t like. Many things I didn’t understand and likely never would, but still, I’ve loved Chrome for such a long time, now. It’s been something I’m incredibly proud to be a part of. Something I’ve felt a strong sense of belonging with and something that’s felt so very familiar.

And yet. The last few years have also had a lot of tough moments. I’ve had times where I felt I was no longer learning, I was no longer inspired by my own work, I was feeling frustrated and trapped. And I don’t want to feel any of those things. I was scared to move. I knew how special Chrome was and I knew there was a high chance I’d regret moving. But the things I wanted to change weren’t really going to for a long time. So since they were here to stay, I had to figure another way out.

So I made the tough decision to finally say goodbye. It mostly fell on my lap. It started with an email from Caesar, went to Ryan and then randomly ended up on Holly’s lap. And I churned and churned and followed an instinct that I am still not sure of but it felt brave. (Let’s see if it still does a year from now or if it will feel stupid.)

It was time to move on but I know I will miss it dearly and I am so thankful to Chrome.

Stories of Twenty Fifteen is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

You Choose - Week 4

This week’s pick is a bed that makes me feel serene when I look at it. I love the light coming in, the white covers, and the plants by the window. All of this makes me feel so serene. I coupled it with a sentence from an old Brave Girl’s class I took. It says “I choose happiness.” That’s what serenity is about for me. Choosing happiness. Choosing calm. Choosing to know all is ok and will always be ok.

here is a side look for the shimmer; not too much shimmer on this one:

here’s to embracing serenity.

You Choose is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

A Book a Week – love water memory

I picked up Love Water Memory because I saw the author’s name in Jennifer Lauden’s blog and I just felt drawn to the book for some reason. I even checked it out from my local library.

I read it really quickly, mostly because I was interested in finding out what happened. I felt like it was an interesting story but it never got as deep as it could have. It felt like the story, the plot, the characters all stayed in the surface most of the time. I really liked the book and wished it had more depth because I think it could have been that much better.

Fifty-Two Stamps – Week 4

Week four is another one of my Core Desired Feelings for 2015. This week’s word was serene. One that I thought would have been easy but it was really hard. I kept messing up my “s” and the first time I was carving it, I cut right through the top of it so it was no longer recognizable as a letter. I thought of salvaging it and tried to, but alas I finally had to admit it wasn’t going to happen.

So I gave up and started all over again, doing a slightly different version and ended up with what you see above. Here are the two stamps below.

the process of carving this wasn’t so very serene but i persisted.

Fifty-two stamps is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self – Week 4

This page was originally supposed to be a Tam assignment for Life Book 2014. Representing ourselves as an animal that represents growth and strength. But I didn’t feel like drawing any animals.

At the time, I was taking several big leaps of courage and I was thinking a lot about being brave so I decided I wanted to draw this girl leaping from one side of a cliff to another. I wanted her to be doing it gracefully, fearlessly, joyfully. Alas, my drawing skills aren’t that advanced. I tried and tried and this was the best I could end up with. I don’t love it but I also don’t hate it.

It says: the courage is in choosing to leap, not in the outcome, so celebrate the leap.

I wanted to remind myself that bravery is not about not being afraid. But it’s also not about the outcome. It’s about trying. Being willing to try. To jump without knowing what’s on the other side. To have faith.

This is a good one for me to remember as I go on my journey of being brave this year.

Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.