There are almost no words for how much snow there is here. Let me just say, we cannot see out the window of our balcony because it’s covered with snow. The kids and I spent the day in the house with rolling blackouts. But it was warm with plenty of food so we played games and relaxed. Nathaniel looked out the window a bunch. I think he liked the snow.
or maybe just the blocks.
When everyone came back from skiing, we bundled up the kids and took David outside to play in the snow. The stairs to our condo were covered with snow and our friend Kendall helped David slide down them.
and then David did it by himself with a lot of encouragement.
And then Kendall carried him back up the hill. Isn’t David so lucky?
All this time Nathaniel was super-grouchy. He woke up grouchy from the nap and never recovered. After he ate his meal, I thought it would calm him to chew on a teething biscuit but then he started eating big chunks and I got worried he was going to choke, so I took the piece out of his mouth which made him so upset he was beside himself and could not stop crying, he was crying so much he couldn’t breathe and went all purple and passed out. And then came back within seconds. The longest seconds of my life and I don’t think I have ever felt this bad in my whole life. I shook me to my core. Even though he’s completely fine now and has been since that moment, I will never ever forget that moment. This is something Jake used to do a lot as a toddler. He would hold his breath to get his way and he would hold it until he turned purple and passed out. God help me. I hope this is not a habit Nathaniel takes on because I know I could never ever handle it.
After the kids went to bed, we sat up and chatted and it was really nice and it’s quite awesome snow but it’s been quite a trip so far.
Note to Self:
Seeing your child limp is the worst feeling in the world. I’ve really been struggling since it happened. Jake has been trying to explain to me that passing out is the body’s way of forcing you to breathe and that’s what he used to have all the time and it’s ok and it will likely not happen ever again and he’s been trying to calm me down. But it’s broken something inside me and I am not sure that will ever heal.
Three things I’m grateful for today:
1. I am thankful we are in a warm and safe home. I know they evacuated a lot of homes in LA yesterday and we are lucky not to be affected that way.
2. I am thankful that David got to have so much fun in the snow with Kendall and Holly and Jake. There’s nothing like hearing your son’s cries of joy and wonderment.
3. I am thankful that Nathaniel’s ok and back to his cheerful self. He’s such an amazing kid and I plan to make sure he’s happy all the time and those teething biscuits are going to trash.
Oh. My. I’m with you. I don’t think I could endure that scenario more than once. Why not try plain bagels frozen hard. They’re much better than teething biscuits. Dave used to suck on them and rub them against his gums and there were no big chunks breaking off. Ever.
That must have been such a scary experience.
I am thankful that my children didn’t do that.
Purple and passed out…I do trust that this phase is extremely short lived and that he very quickly finds another way of showing his displeasure.
canim bebege olan sey bir kere bana yona ile olmustu buna katilmak denir aslinda hic bir sey olmaz ama feci bir guruntu tek onemli sey cocuk o anda seniduyuyor cok sakinlikle konusup gozlerini acmasini soylemek lazim ama ne mumkun korkudan ne yaptigini bilmiyorsun insallah bir daha olmaz opucukler anne
Once you have kids, you get to experience so many emotions in different ways Terror, for one. Broken heart, for another. Things they do, their own hurts, cut us to our quick. There are no words to describe these feelings some times. Safe travel back home.