Great, wonderful day! I got a ton of work done. I got to spend tons of time with my family. I embroidered. I did some art. I watched TV and I am off to read some now. Can it get any better? I think not.
Nathaniel was really cranky all day today. He had some blotches in his face (maybe the strawberries I gave him? or it could be his drool. hard to tell.) but mostly he was super tired and weepy and sad. I am hoping it was just a mood and he’s not coming down with something. It’s so hard to see him so sad. But so cute when he wakes up from a long long nap.
This morning, the three of us were sitting on the couch together, talking to my mom so I asked Jake to snap a photo (look at me, two times in two weeks!!) and I love this one of us laughing. Love my kids.
Well not much to chat about today. Trying to get organized and see what more I have to get done.
Note to Self:
I’ve noticed that having Nathaniel cry drives me insane. Even if he’s crying for no reason. When he’s grouchy and I can’t do anything to stop him, I get snappy at everyone around me. I am rude and mean and feel frustrated. The truth is, I feel incompetent. I don’t know why he’s upset. I can’t stop it. And he can’t tell me. All of this drives me insane. I have a biological response to it. A need to take his sadness away. And yet I can’t. I know this will happen again and I need to make my peace with it. It will happen to David, too. People will hurt him. He might even hurt himself and I can’t always take it away. I can just be here and make sure he knows that I am here. I can also try not to be mean to other people who love me. I am sorry, Jake. I love you.
Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. Jake spent a lot of time with us today and played with the kids a lot. Wrestling, the Wii, laughing, hugging. I love seeing them together and am grateful for family-filled days like this.
2. I am really grateful for my little week-in-the-life project that I started last weekend. It’s turned out really beautiful and it’s been a joy to work on it all week.
3. I am grateful for a productive day. It’s rare that it’s family-filled and productive all in one and I am so thankful for it.
One of the hardest things about parenting is not being able to fix it when your kids aren’t well (for any reason). Remember the quote you shared the other day – it’s not that you loose your cool, but how quickly you regain it. I tried to remember that myself last night.
Beautiful photo of you and the boys, you all look so happy.
Thanks for sharing.
Cheers