I’ve decided to let myself rest for a bit so nothing new on the big goal yet. Maybe this weekend I will do some more.
- Progress on the big five:
- Y: Finished! Need a little break before phase two.
- G: Phase two done, too! Break here, too before phase 3.
- S: Nothing back from nurse, talked to other place, will make appointment this week.
- Sa: no progress here, i think this will have to wait a bit.
- D: Nothing on this, this week, have to do a trip to pickup next week, a bit anxious.
- Three Medium goals:
- Taxes finished, filed, paid.
- Not buying this for now.
- This will be phase 3 so it will wait for a bit.
- Start: nope nope nope.
- Stop: nope nope.
- Continue: finally decided to take a break from portraits. Did more than 15, that was enough for now.
- Brave: still actively working on this too.
So proud of myself and how much I am doing. Day by day, drop by drop.
- Other things from this week:
- We had parent teacher conferences this week and one of the teachers told my daughter that she wishes she had had a friend like her when she was in high school. I am so grateful that my kids went to this amazing, special middle/high school. It is one of the best things I ever managed to do for them.
- I am so grateful that my kids still come to me for advice, for deep, meaningful and hard conversations. I learn so much from them and feel deeply lucky to have the type of relationship we do.
- I still feel like I am struggling more than I would like. I’ve noticed a few years ago that when I am not well, I seem to regularly have the sensation of jumping out of my own skin and it’s been happening with some frequency in the last few months. I’ve taken some steps to get help, but it will take some time, so I just have to be patient with myself.
- I am not sleeping at all. I am basically half-awake all night and it’s making the days more difficult. So until it gets better, I am trying to take as many naps as I can.
- This is the happiest I have been at work in my 30-year career. I feel seen and supported and appreciated. And also I feel like I am working hard to make a difference and lift others up. I feel spacious and generous at work which I feel very grateful for.
- I finally took a break from drawing faces and feel so much more comfortable doing what I love and having my downtime to not also be a struggle.
- It’s been a bad season of books lately. I can’t seem to find something that holds my interest or speaks to me. I have started and stopped more books in the last six months than I have in years. I wish I could find a few books that really get me back into the rhythm of things.
- I finally watched season one of Drops of God and it was really good. I’ve been enjoying a few other AppleTV shows. I don’t watch a lot of TV but when I do I seem to enjoy watching a bunch in a row. I hate watching one episode a week.
- I am so incredibly grateful for Sadie every day. Since I got her, every single morning is happier. I wake up feeling joy. It’s been an indescribably positive change in my life.
Here’s to another week. Paying attention. Savoring and li
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