Catalyst One Hundred and Fifteen is: What was the saddest moment of your life?
Thoughts:
I thought about this one for a long long time. I know I’ve written about this before but (besides the deaths in my family) the saddest moment in my life was when I walked away from my commitment to Teach For America. I really believe in following my commitments to the end and quitting this one was the hardest, saddest thing I ever did. It’s something I still think of all the time and feel bad about, despite knowing it was the right thing to do. Quitting is not what I do.
You are really angry at yourself, arent you? I can feel it looking at this layout.
You really put yourself out there for this challenge and I think you are brave. I wish I could scrap my saddest moment, but its buried so deep Im not sure I could part with it.
I have been reading and coming to your site for a while know. Love seeing all your beautiful projects and your great pictures from your lovely kids. So much love you have for them, you can just tell by the pictures you make.
Seeing this layout makes me sad. I love your grateful posts and all, but seeing this my kearts aches for you. So much pain is coming free this page. The page is beautiful and so is your journaling.
Hope you made peace with yourself and sometimes you have to quitte even when you are not a quitter. It takes a strong person to make that decision.
Just something I wanted to let you know. Hope you don’t mind.
Karen, I too quit before fulfilling a teaching commitment. I had a four year teaching scholarship. I taught for two years and then quit. I was so stressed that I had high blood pressure when all was said and done. I had to pay money back for the two years I didn’t complete. It was an agonizing decision to make at the time. Teaching was a life long dream of mine. It is hard to make choices like that, but it sounds like to me from following your blog, that you have found your calling in life now! I’m now in the midst of homeschooling my own children, so life has come full circle for me! Hugs!