Right Now

Sorry about not updating last night. I was watching the Presidential Debate and then I went to sleep. I feel like I don’t have much to say lately. Partly cause I am quite exhausted mentally, partly cause when the day’s over, I just want to veg in front of the TV or curl into bed with a good book. So between my Monday night class and the long days, thought-updates have been infrequent. I expect that will change at some point.

In the meantime, here’s what else is going on:

• I’ve begun to think about Christmas already. Starting my December Daily and even bought some train tickets for mid-December already.
• I was honored to be on Paperclipping Roundtable yesterday. You can listen here if you’d like.
• I am reading about five books simultaneously which I never ever do. Three of them are non-fiction, but still, this is very unlike me and shows my lack of focus lately.
• I’ve been trying to make some major decisions and I’ve noticed lately that I just blow everything out of proportion. I don’t like to take the next step unless I know how five steps down the road is going to turn out.
• Even sitting down to do art has been a bit of a chore which is saying a lot.
• I am still exercising daily (just passed my two-year mark this week.) but it’s been a struggle for the last two months.
• I finally booked an appointment to go back to the trainer next week.
• Now if I could only fix the food situation, too. And not just me but for the kids, too.
• I am in the middle of Unraveling and Brave Girl Art Camp online classes. I love them both but am not dedicating enough time/energy to either. I think 2013 will be a lot more about finishing and redoing the classes I took this year and last year.
• I’ve been thinking a lot about my word for 2013. I have a lot of ideas and I keep deciding on one and then changing it up. Savor has served me well and I really love it and don’t want to let go of it. In fairness, I felt the same way about “free” last year this time.
• I’ve begun some of my art projects for 2013 already. Just feeling my way and seeing how much I like them. I’ve also been thinking about The Savor Project (my version of PL) and whether and how I will continue with it.
• The kids’ school had a pipe burst so school has been closed for two days and will be closed for another two. Then two days on and then 3 days off again. It’s been a blessing not to have to set alarms, get lunches and drive back and forth four times a day. I love having them around, too.
• I really wish time would stop for about two weeks so I could catch up on all my TV, books, art and personal projects. Then it can start up again and I can be with people I love and do work all without guilt.
• I miss meditating. I keep saying I will do it but each day as I lie down in bed, I realized I didn’t do it again. But I am still listening to Tara Brach and still enjoying every single moment of it.
• I am afraid that before I get my new routine down, it will be mid-November and then it will all come undone with holidays and more holidays. Next thing we know it will be 2013. I am not ready yet.

And there you go. A bit of what’s going on here. What’s going on with you?