Carrying Water

One of my clients sent me a mail this week that contained this story:

Once upon a time a psychology professor walked around on a stage while teaching stress management principles to an auditorium filled with students. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they’d be asked the typical “glass half empty or glass half full” question. Instead, with a smile on her face, the professor asked, “How heavy is this glass of water I’m holding?”

Students shouted out answers ranging from eight ounces to a couple of pounds.

She replied, “From my perspective, the absolute weight of this glass doesn’t matter. It all depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute or two, it’s fairly light. If I hold it for an hour straight, its weight might make my arm ache a little. If I hold it for a day straight, my arm will likely cramp up and feel completely numb and paralyzed, forcing me to drop the glass to the floor. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn’t change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it feels to me.”

As the class shook their heads in agreement, she continued, “Your stresses and worries in life are very much like this glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and you begin to ache a little. Think about them all day long, and you will feel completely numb and paralyzed – incapable of doing anything else until you drop them.”

I had heard it before but, like most things, this time it resonated more because I was listening better. I was ready to hear it. As I read it a few more times, I found myself thinking about the cups of water I am carrying. Which ones am I holding up too long? And, more importantly, what’s the impact it’s having on me? Carrying around worries and stress all day long is no small task. Some of it might be unavoidable, but much of it is. And like all other things, the first key is to raise my awareness.

If I don’t know what worries I am carrying around, I cannot ever choose to put them down.

So the first thing I decided to do was to sit and “throw up” all my worries on to the page. Let’s see what was really on my mind, in my heart, in my body. I gave myself ten minutes in the car (while I waited for Nathaniel’s class to dismiss) to write down all I could think of. No limits, no reading, only writing.

It was easy for the first three minutes, and then it got harder and I had to think more and more. I am sure that if I had given myself 20 minutes, it would have been even harder.

Once I had my list, I went over it and grouped it into two sections: things i have control over and things outside my control.

Then I started with the list of things I had control over. I wrote down one thing I could do to either let go of the worry or to “fix” the situation. For example, one of the items on my list is “I worry that I will never learn to ride a bike.” This is something that’s theoretically within my control to fix. I can either decide it’s not that important to learn how to ride a bike anymore and choose to let this one go or I can take one small (or big) action towards this one. (I could also decide that I will postpone this one. I won’t give up on it completely, but I am not ready to take action yet. This allows me to put the water down for a while.) A small action here might be to buy a bike. Or a helmet. A bigger one might be to schedule time with a friend to help me learn. A bigger one might be to commit to a biking event 3 months from now (which will mean I have to learn by then. Alas this might create new worries 🙂 ) By letting it go or choosing to take action, I will remove these from being worries. Because they either will not be worthy of being worried about anymore or I will actually be doing something about them.

The other list is trickier. I have some things on my list that I clearly have no control over. Like “I worry that something might happen to my husband or my kids.” Well, this is mostly out of my control. I could live my life being as safe as possible but something could still happen to these people I love. Planes crash, cars get into accidents, horrible things happen each day. As I looked at the list, I decided to shift my thinking around these a bit. I asked myself, “If I knew this might happen tomorrow, what might I want to make sure I do today?” Let’s say it was inevitable that it would happen. How would I behave differently? I figured if something were to happen to the people I loved, I’d want to make sure they knew how much I loved them and that they mattered to me deeply. Then I thought, ok, how can I do that now? I can’t change the future but I can change how I behave now, what I say, what I do, etc. I have more about this coming in another post, but changing my perspective to what I can do here allowed me to feel like I had some choice and some power to alter these. It allowed me to think of what I might regret if that outcome were to happen and how I can make sure those regrets don’t come to fruition (even if the outcome did.)

While this doesn’t fully eliminate the item for a worrier like me, it does shift my relationship to the worry. Instead of having the worry weigh me down, I use it as a motivator to remember what matters most to me and make sure that I live my life aligned with those priorities. (This is true for me because when I look at my worry list, I notice that the things that worry me the most come from the things/people I hold dearest.)

Having this perspective (and list of action items from the first set) created a lot more space for me. It didn’t eliminate my worries but I no longer feel numb or paralyzed. I feel like I understand what matters to me, what I care about, and how to alter my choices to align them accordingly.

5 comments to Carrying Water

  • Cheryl

    It takes so much energy to worry about things we can’t control. A shift in perspective is exactly what is needed in these situations. While it may not eliminate the item, it can no longer be seen as a burden. That is a huge accomplishment.

  • Jan

    Thank you for sharing. Your worry about your family is a daily one for me as well. My husband is an officer. My daughter is about to start her Bachelor degree in a town an hour away and has chosen to drive each day to the college from home. I worry about her so much it makes me ill. I will use your advise to concentrate on the things I can control. Like you, I realize it won’t eliminate the worry, but it will give my mind and body something to grasp onto other than the worry about her commute.

    By the way, I’m taking your Book of Stories class with BPC. Your are an amazing person. Thank you for sharing your talents and yourself with all of us!

  • This was very eye opening to me! I worry alot about things I really have no control over, and carry them around with me.. so I know they get heavier and heavier! The way this story was presented, it really made sense to me and I plan to sit down, like you did, and make some lists about what I can and can’t control, and what worries I can let go of for awhile. I could just put them away for awhile in a little box, and later, take them out and look at them and decide whether to keep worrying or not! Thank you for this post.

  • This rang very true to me – I’m a great believer in the brain dump and then looking at that list. Knowing that you aren’t going to worry about something is actually fairly freeing. Making that list of action plans or sorting things into a ‘deal with later’ list is so helpful.

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