May 2016 – Choosing Means – 10

Today’s card says: Choosing the life you have is so much easier than fighting everything. Choose to see the amazing gifts that already exist in your life. Choose to see what’s there, not what’s missing. There’s so much there.

This is something I should frame and put up in my room, my desk, my ipad, everywhere, so I can see it again and again because I can’t remind myself this truth enough times. My life is so blessed, so lucky, so amazing. There are times I sit in this coffee shop by my house and look around and I can’t believe this little girl from Turkey is now sitting at this cafe, in the sunshine, with this amazing husband, these beautiful children, wonderful friends, incredible family, challenging/interesting/rewarding job. How is it possible that I got this lucky?

And of course there are many moments when I am sad. I wish for parts of my life to be different. For myself to be different. I wish for different things on some days. I feel bad not doing more, not being more. I feel guilty, I feel less than, I feel frustrated, lost, angry, hopeless and all the other feelings.

There are days when I wish some things were different and days when I wish everything was different. But then I know that my life is what I make it. What I made it. I worked so very hard to build this life that I have. This life that is such a gift to me.

This life that feels like a miracle most days.

And I remember that it’s so much easier to choose what is. This is my life. It’s not perfect. I’m not perfect. But perfection is not the goal for me. It’s never been the goal for me. What matters is that I get up each day and I try my hardest. I show up and do what I can. And part of that is choosing what is here. Seeing it. Being grateful for it.

Because it’s pretty darn magical.

Choosing Means is a Monthly Project for May 2016. You can read more about my projects for 2016 here.

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