Weekly Reflection 2020 – 31

The Wildest Part of this Week was: This was a very quiet week. I did practically nothing all week since I was off work. A lot of exercise, doctor’s appointments, reading, puzzle making and playing animal crossing.

Top Goals Review:  I had no goals. I met them all!

I celebrate: relaxing a lot this week, I feel very peaceful.

I am grateful for: david being ok.

This week, I exercised: i ran 3 times for 30 minutes, I did the peloton bike every day and i also did several core, arms and stretching classes.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildwe didn’t do an outdoor adventure this week.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: journaling daily still. Doing the artistic MBSR class from this book.

This week’s Wildcard was: a doctor’s appointment on Monday, still hoping it’s ok.

I said yes to: doing nothing.

I said no to: feeling bad about my lack of plans.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: i am releasing the pressure of doing things, and being softer with myself. i am delighting in joining nathaniel with animal crossing and leaping into exercising more.

My mood this week was: anxious but also calm

I am proud of: all the exercise I am doing.

I release: the need to control the outcome

Here’s what I learned this week: all that matters to me are the people i love.

What I love right now: just not working for a little bit.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 30

The Wildest Part of this Week was: Well I am not sure it was wild, but our climbing gym shut down this week as the county closed back up. So that was definitely wildly sad. We also got our Peloton delivered this week which was really lovely.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did not make a plan for the week, did continue creating space, did do one more thing for packet. did not write draft. sort of kept email clean.
  • Personal: continued with daily peloton and the biking! + 3x/week running + we also did a bunch of climbing, i did so so on eating the wild. i drew 4 times and journaled 5 times. i still did not do art, have to figure a plan for that. i have been trying to sleep earlier. i did continue 100 days of mantras. i didn’t yet pick more friends to connect with though i did connect with two new people this week.
  • Family: supported nathaniel and david and jake. cooked. did not walk or hike together. climbed with jake. did not do friday adventures. made no plans.

I celebrate: seeing my cousin.

I am grateful for: the peloton, we’ve all been doing it a lot.

This week, I exercised: i ran 3 times for 30 minutes, i went climbing with Jake 3 times. I did the peloton bike every day and i also did several core and stretching classes.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildwe didn’t do an outdoor adventure this week.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: journaling daily still. Doing the artistic MBSR class from this book.

This week’s Wildcard was: the peloton for sure.

I said yes to: going to my cousin’s even though i didn’t feel it.

I said no to: checking my email all weekend!.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: even a bit better now. but i am still feeling in that in between place where i feel like doing nothing most of my days.

My mood this week was: noncommittal

I am proud of: all the peloton riding i did this week.

I release: so much of the angst and stress i am carrying

Here’s what I learned this week: how i move through things has a huge impact on how i feel

What I love right now: i’m going to have to go with the bike!


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 29

The Wildest Part of this Week was: Hmmm not much this week either. Tbh, the days are blending into each other and I am trying to stay productive and positive but some days it’s easier than others.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did not really make a plan for the week, started creating space but not enough, did not do one more thing for packet. sort of kept email clean.
  • Personal: continued with daily peloton + running + climbing, slowly going back to eating the wild. drawing. journaling. not doing art. sleeping a bit earlier. continuing 100 days of mantras. not picking more friends to connect with.
  • Family: trying to support nathaniel and david and jake but doing so so. cooked very little this week. walked with N. hiked together. climbed with jake. did our first friday adventure.

I celebrate: going to the waterfall on Friday

I am grateful for: the good moments that are always there in the middle of the noise.

This week, I exercised: i ran 3 times for 30 minutes, I did peloton daily between stretching, strength, yoga, mediation, bootcamp, walking and running. i went climbing with Jake 2 times.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildwe went to Uvas Canyon park and hiked around waterfalls.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: journaling daily still. Doing the artistic MBSR class from this book.

This week’s Wildcard was: the lovely waterfall will have to do.

I said yes to: going out even though i totally didn’t feel it.

I said no to: letting the days blend into each other.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: a little better this week, mostly because i focused on what i love most. but still a bit all over the place

My mood this week was: numb

I am proud of: i am proud of all the exercise i am doing. i am showing up and trying.

I release: the need to control how others experience things. i can only change my perspective, if that.

Here’s what I learned this week: not much is changing any time soon so it’s best to find good coping strategies.

What I love right now: i still love the serenity of my backyard.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 28

The Wildest Part of this Week was: I was mostly feeling down this week. I think I am worn out and need a longer vacation/time to process all that’s going on and all that I’m feeling about it. Nothing was all that wild this week.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: i did not really make a plan for the week, i’ve been trying to hold on to the free time i have during the week so I can get through the email load and some weeks i totally can do it while other weeks it just doesn’t work out. I did not do one more thing for packet. I sort of kept email clean. It’s not clean but it’s also not terrible this week.
  • Personal: continued with daily peloton + running 3x week + climbing 3x a week, did not go back to eating the wild but doing better. drew 4x this week. journaled every day. did no other art. did sleep earlier some days. finished 100 days of noticing. did not pick more friends to connect with.
  • Family: doing poorest in this area, I think. just not doing enough.

I celebrate: making it through this week, this was another rough week.

I am grateful for: the good weather, moments with my hubby and that my kids give me lots of hugs/

This week, I exercised: i ran 3 times for 30 minutes, I did peloton daily between stretching, strength, yoga, mediation, walking and running. i went climbing with Jake 3 times.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildnothing this week. it’s been a quiet week.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: journaling daily still. Doing the artistic MBSR class from this book.

This week’s Wildcard was: no wildcard this week.

I said yes to: having a little mini date with Jake.

I said no to: not enough.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: Still feeling too triggered lately, trying to pay attention.

My mood this week was: tired

I am proud of: i climbed pretty hard this week, especially friday.

I release: i want to release my attachment to feeling the way i feel.

Here’s what I learned this week: i forget what matters most and get frustrated about things out of my control. it doesn’t have to be this way.

What I love right now: Jake and i are watching the babysitter’s club and it’s giving us much joy.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 27

The Wildest Part of this Week was: This was a relatively quiet week. The wildest part of the week was getting the kids to the dentist. They hadn’t been in months and we couldn’t be sure if it was better to go or not to go. It’s amazing how even the simplest tasks have become complicated in our new reality.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: sort of made a plan for the week but need to do better here, did not start slowly putting together packet but did take a few steps, talked to charlotte.
  • Personal: continued with daily peloton and running and climbed a bunch of times. did not really go back to eating the wild. have been drawing and journaling. doing so so on the sleeping earlier but continuing the noticing. did not pick any friends and doing so so on the art project.
  • Family: doing mediocre on supporting nathaniel and david and jake. cooked little. walked a tiny bit. did not hike together. climbed with jake.

I celebrate: making it through this week, this was a rough week.

I am grateful for: i’m taking fridays off for the summer and it’s become one of the few things that helps me stay sane.

This week, I exercised: i ran 3 times for 30 minutes, I did peloton daily between stretching, strength and running. i went climbing with Jake 3 times.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildnothing this week. it’s been a quiet week.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: journaling daily still. Doing the artistic MBSR class from this book.

This week’s Wildcard was: a great conversation with a colleague on Friday

I said yes to: doing some art this week.

I said no to: i had to advocate for myself a lot this week.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: I am being a bit too triggered lately so I am trying to soften into what’s going on and see if I can release some of it.

My mood this week was: down

I am proud of: the exercise still.

I release: how i am feeling. i want to put it all down and walk away from it

Here’s what I learned this week: i get to choose my perspective and i get to decide what matters. i forget this too often.

What I love right now: the quiet simplicity of my life.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 26

The Wildest Part of this Week was: The wildest part of this week was getting to go to the climbing gym again. Climbing with masks and being in a closed space with other people and touching ropes, belays, holds was scary. We tried to be as safe as possible.

Top Goals Review:  my goal this week was to do a lot of exercise. I did a hike, 3 climbing sessions, 3 running sessions, a strength class, a yoga class and two meditation classes. I feel good about it. I didn’t fix the eating just yet, but working on it. I didn’t draw much this week but i did paint. I journaled daily. I didn’t sleep early but not too late either. I did continue my 100 days of noticing. I haven’t picked more friends yet.

I celebrate: going climbing again.

I am grateful for: a week off. i really needed it.

This week, I exercised: i listed it all above. lots of exercise this week.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildwent to Castle Rock with Jake and the kids, it was really wonderful to be in the wild. I need it more and can’t seem to decide to do it.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: journaling daily for now. Doing an artistic MBSR class from this book.

This week’s Wildcard was: i have never been a fan of the enneagram (or other tests TBH) but for some reason i took 6 tests this week just to see how consistent they would be, and of course, they disagreed with each other. But through the process, I think I actually found my number (4!) and it deeply resonated with me. So now I’ve been reading more and more about it.

I said yes to: going climbing. time together.

I said no to: i did absolutely no work this week. zero.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: I leapt into going climbing with jake. i am trying to soften into my anxiety and sit with it where and when i can. i didn’t join much this week but that was okay. I was delighted by some time off.

My mood this week was: grateful (and sore).

I am proud of: how much i showed up and exercised this week.

I release: as the days ticked down this week, i realized how much anxiety i still have about going back to work, how tired and burned out i still feel. today i am planning on working through some of that in my journal.

Here’s what I learned this week: I really, really love having a backyard. i am so incredibly grateful for my tiny yard.

What I love right now: I love the last few hours of my vacation when i am still feeling calm and peaceful.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 25

The Wildest Part of this Week was: This week had several wild parts but I guess the wildest two were having a socially distanced dinner with our friend Nate and then Nathaniel playing a socially distanced chess with my friend Kelly’s son Jake. Both in our backyard. It was really nice to see people in 3-D again even if with masks and distanced.

Top Goals Review:  i haven’t been blogging with consistency. my only goal right now is to go back to doing so regularly.

I celebrate: my kids who both did phenomenally at school this year.

I am grateful for: seeing people again for a bit.

This week, I exercised: i am up to week 7 of couch to 5K. I’ve had to move to running more slowly but I am still at it!

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildwent rock climbing with Jake and the kids. Also booked time at the gym which is opening next week!

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: still journaling even if intermittently.

This week’s Wildcard was: well let’s say the dinner and chess were both total wildcards!

I said yes to: having friends over, walking over to Palo Alto for some take out, taking time off.

I said no to: i had downloaded this app on my ipad which was immediately a total time sink for me, something around building a town. After I fell under its spell for 2 days, I deleted it immediately.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: I leapt into taking a few more chances in the real world. I am trying to soften into being kinder to myself and I joined several things this week: the dinner, a chat with my friend Evelyn and one with Leslie and one with Kelly and the chess game. I was very delighted to have friends over.

My mood this week was: lighter.

I am proud of: my kids.

I release: i have so much stress and anxiety and worry and pent up stress. I am working on releasing it all.

Here’s what I learned this week: I need more regular downtime in my life. It is really good for my soul.

What I love right now: I love that the weather is pleasant enough and that we have a backyard even if it’s a tiny one. It’s been getting a lot of use.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 22

The Wildest Part of this Week was: The weeks are passing and it feels both really slow and really fast. I guess that’s how life feels in general lately. The weeks have all been wild. This week with all the riots and all the blatant racism, potentially major changes at work, a lot of final projects for the kids, and of course the ongoing covid insanity might take the cake but I am scared to say that or write that because I know that things can always get wilder. So I am sitting here and trying to take it one moment at a time.

Top Goals Review:  still taking things moment to moment here.

I celebrate: a lovely remote dinner with our friends Jess and Sam. It was definitely the highlight of my week.

I am grateful for: my morning routine which while making me super tired is also helping me connect to myself.

This week, I exercised: finished week 3 of couch to 5K.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildwent rock climbing with Jake.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: finally started journaling and it’s been saving my soul.

This week’s Wildcard was: too much going on for me to be interested in throwing my own wildcards.

I said yes to: learning, showing up, and contributing to start becoming actively anti-racist.

I said no to: i am falling behind at keeping up with work email because i need the downtime. it’s piling up.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: i leapt into running, it’s kicking me in the butt. I am trying to be soft and leaning into the pain and sorrow. I am working on releasing the guilt and joining into doing the work to help others and delighting in the back yard with all the wildlife.

My mood this week was: spent.

I am proud of: doing community and culture work that i am grateful to be a part of.

I release: i am getting close to being able to release because of exhaustion.

Here’s what I learned this week: that journaling always is the thread that connects me to myself. i keep forgetting it and having to relearn it.

What I love right now: I love taking time to connect with my friends.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 20

The Wildest Part of this Week was: I’m sorry that I still go back and forth with the writing. Most of the weekend I feel an overwhelming sense of apathy towards pretty much everything. So none of my routines are working, all I do is sit here and read. This week though, Jake and I went rock climbing on Friday and it was definitely the wildest part of the week. It was awesome to be on a rock again.

Top Goals Review:  i didn’t do much of it so we will ignore for now.

I celebrate: my mom’s 70th birthday, my nephews turning 21 and our 18th wedding anniversary all back to back!

I am grateful for: our new tree. mostly that the dead tree is gone and we have some new one to grow.

This week, I exercised: still walking but i also finally managed to rock climb a tiny bit and started day 1 of couch to 5k.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildwent rock climbing and then went hiking on the beach with the family.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: have not been doing anything here still.

This week’s Wildcard was: all of life is a bit of a wildcard at the moment.

I said yes to: going climbing, it was so worth it.

I said no to: working during this long weekend.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: i am still working on doing all of these. slowly i am taking leaps where I can, trying to be soft with myself and others, trying to release things before they really build up, join in even when i don’t feel like it, and bask in the delight of flowers, birds and squirrels.

My mood this week was: grateful.

I am proud of: being kind to myself during all this.

I release: still trying to release everything i am carrying around all this. all the not doing enough, the not being enough, the constant noise of not enough.

Here’s what I learned this week: i am learning to sit with the anxiety and still do things anyway.

What I love right now: I love that summer is coming. Even though I am sad and anxious about it, too. I still love it.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 18

The Wildest Part of this Week was: It’s been a weird few weeks. Even though I’m home and all is well, I just haven’t been in the mood to write. I usually write my blog posts over the weekend and I just haven’t felt like it in weeks. I spend my weekends reading back to back now. I tend to average 4 books a weekend which means I am literally doing nothing besides reading. Not sure why but I am not ready to change it just yet either. So trying baby steps today. I am grateful to those of you who’ve checked up on me, I am doing ok. Healthy thankfully. Just tired. Mentally, physically and emotionally tired.

Top Goals Review:  living things moment to moment most days.

I celebrate: not much this week. just feeling gratitude.

I am grateful for: being safe, sound and for my family’s safety.

This week, I exercised: my exercise regimen has been all over the place. very little of it. I will see if maybe this week I can start getting back into some routine.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildi’ve been buying a lot of things for my backyard and I spent all of Friday-Sunday in the backyard this week, watching the birds come and eat. it’s been magnificent.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: have not been doing anything here. I will see if I can make some progress this coming week.

This week’s Wildcard was: all of life is a bit of a wildcard at the moment.

I said yes to: letting things be.

I said no to: worrying about things i cannot control.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: i am still working on doing all of these. taking a leap wherever i can at the moment. trying to release the anxiety i have. being soft with myself and my family. and joining whenever i can. the delight is mostly limited to flowers and back yard at the moment.

My mood this week was: worn out.

I am proud of: all that i have been able to do at work and all the vegetables I’m eating at home.

I release: all the guilt I am carrying about not doing enough, not being enough, i am trying to release it all so I can lean into this new normal and find some routine inside it for myself.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that things are unlikely to change drastically for a while, so it helps me to stop treating this as if it’s momentary

What I love right now: I love my backyard. I love the birds. I love my boys. I love possibility.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 14

The Wildest Part of this Week was: I’ve been behind. I keep meaning to write and then the weekend comes and goes and I just don’t manage to write. I am not even sure how I can call out a particular part of the week as wild anymore as we’re all living in new normals where it all feels pretty wild and pretty normal all jumbled into one.

Top Goals Review:  still actively doing covid work.

I celebrate: getting a whole weekend without work this weekend, the first in a few weeks.

I am grateful for: for being safe. for my family. for some downtime this weekend.

This week, I exercised: i started doing daily yoga this week and am still taking the walks with Jake. That’s about it here.

This week, I answered the Call of the WildJust the fresh air I get from being outside, not much of wild here.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: I did some scrapping this weekend, some OLW journaling and i have plans for this coming week.

This week’s Wildcard was: no major wildcards this week.

I said yes to: joining a zoom call with several of my highschool friends. it was lovely.

I said no to: going out i guess. i haven’t been anywhere except the perimeter of my house in a long long while.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: i am working on doing all of these. taking a leap wherever i can at the moment. trying to release the anxiety i have. being soft with myself and my family. and joining whenever i can. the delight is mostly limited to flowers at the moment. oh and delighting my son with all the hardware i have at home.

My mood this week was: still pretty tired.

I am proud of: all that we got done this month, it was intense

I release: any anxiety around the future. the future is unknown so i can’t control it by being anxious, i am going to try to take it as it comes.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that i look for ways to be anxious, no matter the path i take.

What I love right now: I love the warm weather. i love my family. i am so grateful.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 11

The Wildest Part of this Week was: Ok so I ended up skipping last week because I worked 32 hours last weekend over the course of the two days. When I wasn’t working, I was sleeping. This week was no different. Work work work work, and then sleep. I am not even sure how to say what the wildest part of this week was except to say all of it. When I picked wild for my word this was not at all what I had in mind.

Top Goals Review:  all these went out the door in the wake of covid and all covid related work.

I celebrate: My team at work getting some valuable features out the door, I am so proud to work where I work and be a part of this amazing team.

I am grateful for: my family being safe here, in Boston, in Michigan, and in Istanbul. I am so glad we are all healthy and safe at the moment.

This week, I exercised: I’ve been taking daily walks around the block and that’s been the extent of my exercise lately.

This week, I answered the Call of the WildJust the fresh air I get from being outside.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: no journaling but finally a bit of a quieter weekend so a lot more reading and resting and napping.

This week’s Wildcard was: Coronavirus and Jake win it all handsdown.

I said yes to: doing whatever’s needed at work.

I said no to: doing pretty much anything else to be honest.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: well things are a bit topsy turvy at the moment. I am trying really hard to be soft and to find little ways to help delight. I ordered flowers from our local CSA and bought myself a candle that crackles thanks to a wood wick. I am taking the little moments as they come.

My mood this week was: exhausted and focused.

I am proud of: my kids being patient with all that’s going on. And helping their dad.

I release: all of everything dropping on the floor at the moment. 2020 is apparently going to be a year for the books. May it come and go with all of us staying healthy and may we all slowly recover from this.

Here’s what I learned this week: so much learning about what we’re each capable of. we are capable of doing hard things.

What I love right now: I love that it’s getting warmer. Hopefully rain will come and go quickly and we can enjoy a bit of warm weather.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.