Weekly Reflection 2020 – 20

The Wildest Part of this Week was: I’m sorry that I still go back and forth with the writing. Most of the weekend I feel an overwhelming sense of apathy towards pretty much everything. So none of my routines are working, all I do is sit here and read. This week though, Jake and I went rock climbing on Friday and it was definitely the wildest part of the week. It was awesome to be on a rock again.

Top Goals Review:  i didn’t do much of it so we will ignore for now.

I celebrate: my mom’s 70th birthday, my nephews turning 21 and our 18th wedding anniversary all back to back!

I am grateful for: our new tree. mostly that the dead tree is gone and we have some new one to grow.

This week, I exercised: still walking but i also finally managed to rock climb a tiny bit and started day 1 of couch to 5k.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildwent rock climbing and then went hiking on the beach with the family.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: have not been doing anything here still.

This week’s Wildcard was: all of life is a bit of a wildcard at the moment.

I said yes to: going climbing, it was so worth it.

I said no to: working during this long weekend.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: i am still working on doing all of these. slowly i am taking leaps where I can, trying to be soft with myself and others, trying to release things before they really build up, join in even when i don’t feel like it, and bask in the delight of flowers, birds and squirrels.

My mood this week was: grateful.

I am proud of: being kind to myself during all this.

I release: still trying to release everything i am carrying around all this. all the not doing enough, the not being enough, the constant noise of not enough.

Here’s what I learned this week: i am learning to sit with the anxiety and still do things anyway.

What I love right now: I love that summer is coming. Even though I am sad and anxious about it, too. I still love it.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 18

The Wildest Part of this Week was: It’s been a weird few weeks. Even though I’m home and all is well, I just haven’t been in the mood to write. I usually write my blog posts over the weekend and I just haven’t felt like it in weeks. I spend my weekends reading back to back now. I tend to average 4 books a weekend which means I am literally doing nothing besides reading. Not sure why but I am not ready to change it just yet either. So trying baby steps today. I am grateful to those of you who’ve checked up on me, I am doing ok. Healthy thankfully. Just tired. Mentally, physically and emotionally tired.

Top Goals Review:  living things moment to moment most days.

I celebrate: not much this week. just feeling gratitude.

I am grateful for: being safe, sound and for my family’s safety.

This week, I exercised: my exercise regimen has been all over the place. very little of it. I will see if maybe this week I can start getting back into some routine.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildi’ve been buying a lot of things for my backyard and I spent all of Friday-Sunday in the backyard this week, watching the birds come and eat. it’s been magnificent.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: have not been doing anything here. I will see if I can make some progress this coming week.

This week’s Wildcard was: all of life is a bit of a wildcard at the moment.

I said yes to: letting things be.

I said no to: worrying about things i cannot control.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: i am still working on doing all of these. taking a leap wherever i can at the moment. trying to release the anxiety i have. being soft with myself and my family. and joining whenever i can. the delight is mostly limited to flowers and back yard at the moment.

My mood this week was: worn out.

I am proud of: all that i have been able to do at work and all the vegetables I’m eating at home.

I release: all the guilt I am carrying about not doing enough, not being enough, i am trying to release it all so I can lean into this new normal and find some routine inside it for myself.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that things are unlikely to change drastically for a while, so it helps me to stop treating this as if it’s momentary

What I love right now: I love my backyard. I love the birds. I love my boys. I love possibility.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 14

The Wildest Part of this Week was: I’ve been behind. I keep meaning to write and then the weekend comes and goes and I just don’t manage to write. I am not even sure how I can call out a particular part of the week as wild anymore as we’re all living in new normals where it all feels pretty wild and pretty normal all jumbled into one.

Top Goals Review:  still actively doing covid work.

I celebrate: getting a whole weekend without work this weekend, the first in a few weeks.

I am grateful for: for being safe. for my family. for some downtime this weekend.

This week, I exercised: i started doing daily yoga this week and am still taking the walks with Jake. That’s about it here.

This week, I answered the Call of the WildJust the fresh air I get from being outside, not much of wild here.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: I did some scrapping this weekend, some OLW journaling and i have plans for this coming week.

This week’s Wildcard was: no major wildcards this week.

I said yes to: joining a zoom call with several of my highschool friends. it was lovely.

I said no to: going out i guess. i haven’t been anywhere except the perimeter of my house in a long long while.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: i am working on doing all of these. taking a leap wherever i can at the moment. trying to release the anxiety i have. being soft with myself and my family. and joining whenever i can. the delight is mostly limited to flowers at the moment. oh and delighting my son with all the hardware i have at home.

My mood this week was: still pretty tired.

I am proud of: all that we got done this month, it was intense

I release: any anxiety around the future. the future is unknown so i can’t control it by being anxious, i am going to try to take it as it comes.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that i look for ways to be anxious, no matter the path i take.

What I love right now: I love the warm weather. i love my family. i am so grateful.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 11

The Wildest Part of this Week was: Ok so I ended up skipping last week because I worked 32 hours last weekend over the course of the two days. When I wasn’t working, I was sleeping. This week was no different. Work work work work, and then sleep. I am not even sure how to say what the wildest part of this week was except to say all of it. When I picked wild for my word this was not at all what I had in mind.

Top Goals Review:  all these went out the door in the wake of covid and all covid related work.

I celebrate: My team at work getting some valuable features out the door, I am so proud to work where I work and be a part of this amazing team.

I am grateful for: my family being safe here, in Boston, in Michigan, and in Istanbul. I am so glad we are all healthy and safe at the moment.

This week, I exercised: I’ve been taking daily walks around the block and that’s been the extent of my exercise lately.

This week, I answered the Call of the WildJust the fresh air I get from being outside.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: no journaling but finally a bit of a quieter weekend so a lot more reading and resting and napping.

This week’s Wildcard was: Coronavirus and Jake win it all handsdown.

I said yes to: doing whatever’s needed at work.

I said no to: doing pretty much anything else to be honest.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: well things are a bit topsy turvy at the moment. I am trying really hard to be soft and to find little ways to help delight. I ordered flowers from our local CSA and bought myself a candle that crackles thanks to a wood wick. I am taking the little moments as they come.

My mood this week was: exhausted and focused.

I am proud of: my kids being patient with all that’s going on. And helping their dad.

I release: all of everything dropping on the floor at the moment. 2020 is apparently going to be a year for the books. May it come and go with all of us staying healthy and may we all slowly recover from this.

Here’s what I learned this week: so much learning about what we’re each capable of. we are capable of doing hard things.

What I love right now: I love that it’s getting warmer. Hopefully rain will come and go quickly and we can enjoy a bit of warm weather.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 09

The Wildest Part of this Week was: Voting wearing plastic gloves. I always prefer to vote in person but this year, I wasn’t sure it was safe. So we decided to go with gloves on just to be safe.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did not finish perf but pretty close. stayed on top of email. did not spend some time with nbu and tokyo.
  • Personal: did not figure out a routine that works for me. did journal a little. did not get into a groove. did eat the wild.
  • Family: supported nathaniel and david and jake. finished taxes, round one.

I celebrate: Voting.

I am grateful for: my family’s safety and health at these times of uncertainty

This week, I exercised: i’ve been doing a poor job of exercise. i went bouldering on Tuesday night at work and I went on a mini hike with Jake today. I need to go back to the daily walking and maybe take some classes at work since I can’t go to the climbing gym at the moment.

This week, I answered the Call of the WildSome awesome outdoor time in Houston. That will be it this week.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: just a small amount of journaling this week.

This week’s Wildcard was: Well coronovirus definitely is a wildcard. Albeit not a good one.

I said yes to: bouldering at work, a 5am hike right after the time change so it was a 4am hike. working really late every night this week.

I said no to: exercising in the mornings, which i am sad about.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: i haven’t connected to my core desired feelings in so long. I actively work on releasing but nothing else sadly.

My mood this week was: on edge if i am honest.

I am proud of: staying calm throughout all that’s going on

I release: the guilt of not getting it all done, of not being perfect.

Here’s what I learned this week: life is precious. yes, i know this but i seem to also have to relearn it often.

What I love right now: I love that the days will now be even longer, i love that spring is around the corner and i love that I have a desktop at work now.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 08

The Wildest Part of this Week was: Getting to be on the NASA observation room at the Johnson Space Center and watching the control room and the scientists at the ISS. How amazing!

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did docs for draft 2. cleaned email. traveled.
  • Personal: did not figure out a routine that works for me. did journal. did not get into a groove.
  • Family: supported nathaniel and david and jake.

I celebrate: Traveling and coming home and supporting both my kids.

I am grateful for: finally committing

This week, I exercised: i didn’t do much this week, just a thursday night session with Jake but I did stand and walk a lot earlier this week

This week, I answered the Call of the WildSome awesome outdoor time in Houston. That will be it this week.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: Pretty solid journaling over the weekend and I am planning to do a lot more in March.

This week’s Wildcard was: Houston was a wildcard.

I said yes to: going climbing, work trip, going to work all Saturday.

I said no to: hmm, staying late on Friday I guess.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: I’ve been working on these, and I have a plan to make a plan, lol.

My mood this week was: tired. full. overwhelmed.

I am proud of: coming home Wednesday, feeling ok changing my ticket and not staying an extra day.

I release: all the nervous energy of this cycle. let’s see where it goes.

Here’s what I learned this week: I have a lot more support than I thought I did.

What I love right now: I love my family so so much right now. I always do but right now I am just so grateful for exactly where we are.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 07

The Wildest Part of this Week was: The climbing. We went outdoors climbing at New Jack City and it was totally wild. My second time outdoor climbing ever. My first time lead-belaying Jake. It was fun fun fun.

Top Goals Review:  none 🙂

I celebrate: A really lovely time away from home.

I am grateful for: Recovering and managing to have a lovely time after the first terrible night.

This week, I exercised: We went on two hikes and an outdoor climbing session.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildso much outdoors time this week! Joshua Tree National Park and New Jack City and Palm Springs!

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: A small amount of journaling this week.

This week’s Wildcard was: Sunday night’s fight. But we recovered.

I said yes to: going climbing, going in the pool, driving crazy long.

I said no to: working.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: I did it all this week. I am proud of myself.

My mood this week was: tired and grateful.

I am proud of: my family, we all showed up.

I release: whatever else i am carrying this week, i just want to let it all go

Here’s what I learned this week: wild is my happy place.

What I love right now: so grateful to have gotten to take vacation.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 06

The Wildest Part of this Week was: I went out multiple nights this week. I chose to show up again and again. I am proud of myself.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: cleaned email but then it built up again. did draft 2. finished cheese. did not do docs for draft 2.
  • Personal: i have yet to figure out a routine that works for me and it’s almost march. i am not even sure where to begin at this point. journaled a tiny amount. have not been able to get into a groove. booked vacation.
  • Family: supported nathaniel and david and jake.

I celebrate: The reorg and release and all things being done.

I am grateful for: Jake who shows up places with me.

This week, I exercised: I did not walk at all this week. Did go climbing but it was so-so.

This week, I answered the Call of the WildThis wasn’t a big outdoors week but next week will be!

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: Not a lot this week.

This week’s Wildcard was: going to Yul’s party! Crazy and fun.

I said yes to: going to Nathaniel’s school and then Evelyn’s release party and then Yul’s Survivor party and then climbing in the middle of the day.

I said no to: writing the docs over the weekend.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: this week i joined. I showed up. I feel grateful.

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: myself this week.

I release: i suspend everything for a week as i go on vacation.

Here’s what I learned this week: i can do hard things.

What I love right now: vacation coming up!


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 05

The Wildest Part of this Week was: This week was David’s 15th Birthday! I cannot believe this boy is now 15 years old! Time passes way too quickly and it’s just truly wild.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: cleaned email but now it’s a mess again. did not do draft 2. thursday went well. did not touch nbu doc.
  • Personal: have not figured out a routine that works for me. did nto journal. did not get into a groove.
  • Family: supported nathaniel and david and jake. celebrated david.

I celebrate: David and the launch this week.

I am grateful for: everything going relatively smoothly.

This week, I exercised: I did uphill walking (15%) 2 days and rock climbing 3 days. David and I walked a lot on Friday together.

This week, I answered the Call of the WildAlso just 1 walking 1-1 this week. I am working on finding a way to go outdoors a lot more.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: i did a tiny bit of OLW journaling, I am hoping to do a bit more next week.

This week’s Wildcard was: crazy things at work always. last minute table and chair buying for david. little crazy things. visiting david’s elementary school with him.

I said yes to: showing up for David.

I said no to: doing email this weekend.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: this year feels like it started slowly and poorly for me. i am trying to stay present and give myself grace.

My mood this week was: grateful.

I am proud of: my son. he’s amazing.

I release: all my noise about how this year is going. i am letting it go.

Here’s what I learned this week: all is well.

What I love right now: i am just so grateful for my family right now.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 04

The Wildest Part of this Week was: Hmm this week was mostly just a lot of work and late nights. I worked 10+ hours most days and still went climbing on Tuesday night – though I didn’t end up climbing so much – and Thursday morning. I still haven’t adjusted to the rhythms of 2020, yet. Here’s to hoping February fares a bit better.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: had only one walking 1-1. cleaned email. did not really continue or really do the nbu doc.
  • Personal: totally did not figure out a routine that works for me.
  • Family: did support nathaniel and david and jake.

I celebrate: being brave this week.

I am grateful for: a quiet weeked.

This week, I exercised: I did uphill walking (15%) 4 days and rock climbing 3 days.

This week, I answered the Call of the WildHmm not much this week. I feel called but am not answering the call. I did take one walking 1-1 but it’s measly.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: i did my OLW inspiration board which always makes me happy.

This week’s Wildcard was: hmmm. just having to have so many conversations at work i think.

I said yes to: resting this weekend.

I said no to: working over the weekend even though i really should have.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: Hmm. I am taking a big leap and trying to release all the anxiety around that. I am also thinking of what/where and how to join. Those are top of mind right now.

My mood this week was: very tired.

I am proud of: some solid climbing on Saturday and working hard to tackle the overhangs.

I release: the outcomes

Here’s what I learned this week: how i show up has a big influence on how the story goes.

What I love right now: I love that I am moving slowly.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 03

The Wildest Part of this Week was: I am going to have to go with our hike to Mission Peak on Sunday. 9miles and I was feeling good. That was definitely the wildest part.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did not do any walking 1-1s. did clean email. did get some answers. and started!
  • Personal: didn’t even come close to figuring out a routine that works for me.
  • Family: did support nathaniel and david and jake.

I celebrate: Nathaniels winter culmination. It was so wonderful to see all his accomplishments.

I am grateful for: finishing my first draft.

This week, I exercised: I did uphill walking (15%) 5 days, rock climbing 2 days, and took one very long hike.

This week, I answered the Call of the WildI did a long and hard hike on Sunday. 9.2 miles to Mission Peak

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: Sadly no journaling.

This week’s Wildcard was: Mission Peak and my good meeting at work.

I said yes to: working all Sunday to get my packet written.

I said no to: doing anything on Saturday.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: Hmm. Mission Peak hike made me feel so much better. Delightful. Did not do much of the others tho.

My mood this week was: good, especially on Friday.

I am proud of: getting my MRI done.

I release: i think i am starting to release a bit

Here’s what I learned this week: i can do this.

What I love right now: I love that I am giving myself some grace.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.

Weekly Reflection 2020 – 02

The Wildest Part of this Week was: As opposed to last week, this week went super fast for me. There was nothing super wild. I guess the wildest part was the night hiking Jake and I did on Saturday. It was not super long but it was dark enough that we had to put headlamps on to see. It was wonderful to be in the wild at night.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: I only did one walking 1-1. I did clean email. I tried to get some answers but alas did not make a lot of progress here.
  • Personal: I also have yet to figure out a routine that works for me.
  • Family: I totally did not make long weekend plans so I am trying to make sure to climb, hike and read as much as possible to make up for it.

I celebrate: Going climbing in the middle of the day on Friday, it was awesome.

I am grateful for: a kind conversation at work on both Monday and Friday this week.

This week, I exercised: I did uphill walking (15%) 5 days, rock climbing 3 days, and took one night hike.

This week, I answered the Call of the Wildstill don’t have this down. we went on a night hike on Saturday and did some climbing (belaying for me) on Saturday by the side of the road which was crazy.

I embraced Silence of the Wilderness: I did almost nothing this week. Trying to get into a better routine here.

This week’s Wildcard was: Climbing Tuesday and getting those overhangs more right! Climbing in the middle of the day on Friday. Hiking at night. All of these were wildcards for me.

I said yes to: staying late at work both Thursday and Friday this week to catch up.

I said no to: starting my perf.

Core Desired Feelings (leap, soft, release, join, delight) Check-in: Hmm. I did leap a bit with Jake and lead belaying. I didn’t release enough. I was delighted with David’s interview that went well and I didn’t find things to join yet. Doing so so on these.

My mood this week was: solid I think for the most part.

I am proud of: getting better at the overhangs.

I release: i would really really like to release all this insane anxiety i am carrying.

Here’s what I learned this week: i am quite self-aware. thankfully.

What I love right now: I love all the climbing.


Weekly Review 2020 is a year-long project for 2020. You can read more about my projects for 2020 here.