So right before I went to bed last night, I realized I didn’t have my notebook. This is the notebook where I journal, sketch and write my daily todo lists. I live with this thing. I couldn’t possibly imagine having left it at home so I was sure I lost it. Let’s just say it put a sour end to a lovely day.

But I went to bed and despite Nathaniel waking up several times and a raging headache, I still woke up happy and after a bit of getting everyone settled, I went to the gym. And when I came back, we thought it would be fun to take a walk down to the beach. They had these golf carts that take you down to the beach and I knew David would want to ride one so we took it down to the beach.

Once we got there, everyone was happy. At least fascinated.

David was happy.

Nathaniel was watching the waves.

And his brother.

Who ran right into the sand.

And kicked around.

And laughed.

And went running.

The colors are off on this one but I still like it.

We walked all the way up the path and I took tons of flower photos on the way up. And then we went into the lobby and rested by the fire.

Then it was time to check out so we packed up and got out of there. We drove down to the Santa Cruz boulevard and Jake and David played video games while Nathaniel napped in the car and I sat with him and did my sketch. When he woke up I tried to get him to sit on the driver seat but he was mighty cranky.

They came back and we all walked to the boardwalk and the boys all had some food as we enjoyed the fresh air.

We walked back to the car and headed home and guess what? my notebook was here!! So it all worked out! The kids are now in bed (well David’s playing in his room but the little one’s in bed.) and we’re watching 30 Rock and I will then journal and do my art journal and blissfully go sleep. It was a truly sweet and wonderful vacation and, like always, it’s wonderful to be home.

I also wanted to say, thank you for your kind words about my “random thoughts” post this week. I didn’t mean to cause a ruckus. I actually feel much better inside than I ever remember feeling and I am not sad in any way. When I said “i might be a nobody” I meant that I am not a big name in the industry and thus a million opportunities don’t come my way each day which makes each of them harder to turn down. I didn’t mean for that to sound so out of proportion. Also, while I can feel not as talented as I wish I were, I don’t ever let it stop me and I still sketch and art journal and work on improving myself so I can be happy with me. I appreciate your kind words deeply but as you know it’s always more about how one feels about oneself. Which is why I am working on finding my way with art and sketching. I did it with scrapping and it’s been wonderful. I am also doing it with exercise/food so I can be more at peace with my body and that’s wonderful, too. So I know I can, I am just working on it.

Same goes for the “hang ups” from my childhood. I spent some time in a dark place over that but I am not anymore. For me, all these thoughts are coming out of paying attention and stepping back being more aware which is the first step to being free. I feel much more in a good place with all of this. Everyone has issues. These are some of mine. I am working on them and sharing them, analyzing them, thinking about them is all part of the process for me. I didn’t mean to worry anyone and like before I deeply appreciate your kindness but please know that I am in a good place. I have the most wonderful life. The best kids in the world and the most amazing, supportive and loving husband. I have a great job, friends, home, family and I love what I do in my free time. I couldn’t possibly ask for anything more. I am grateful every minute of every day and, it is because I feel so much happier that I can now notice these things, think about them and talk about them and work on them. Just wanted to make sure you knew not to worry.

But I am so touched by all your words. I am so so grateful. Thank you. It means the world to me.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful for our sweet vacation. It was exactly what I hoped it would be.
2. I am grateful for another two days off to relax.
3. I am grateful I found my notebook!

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I watched TV{* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I played video games with daddy.
3. I am grateful that we walked on the boardwalk and went to the beach.

Today was a weird day where I was wildly unproductive for no reason. I did the basic stuff and that was it. I guess some days are just like that and thankfully we’re taking some time off the rest of the week, obviously I need it.

I know this photo is blurry but I love it. It’s Nathaniel’s “smile” to the camera.

And here’s the other boy smiling.

And here he is “really” smiling. See those eyes smiling?

Nathaniel watching his brother play on the computer.

And his brother focusing hard.

I have book club tonight and I am going even though I haven’t read the book, even though it was my pick and even though I really should be packing. I am going. That’s that.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful for book club. I always enjoy it.
2. I am grateful for a quiet day when I obviously needed it.
3. I am grateful for fun art videos which I watch as I exercise.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I am going on a trip tomorrow {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I finished one of my workbooks.
3. I am grateful for mommy and daddy.

Happy Sunday!! I am not a fan of Sundays but I went to bed last night with a specific list of tasks so I woke up and did two of them right away. Then I exercised and then I showered and sat outside with the kids for a bit. I read to David. I also snapped some photos while the light was good. David made a sad face when I told him he couldn’t run around (he’s still got the bandaids in his head.)

Nathaniel was pensive, too.

Then he tried to entertain David by pushing his chair.

And he spotted the dirty chair on the corner of the yard so i went and got the clean one for him and he said and made his funny smile.

He really enjoyed sitting there.

I then snapped what’s likely my favorite photo of David in recent history. Look at those eyes.

This little one is super cute, too.

I feel like hugging him pretty much all day long.

We then went inside and Nathaniel went down for his nap, David played and I sketched. Daddy came home soon after and we took family shots.

with tickle time, of course.

there was much much laughter.

Then we went out to lunch but couldn’t find the cafe in Stanford that we were trying to go to so we went to our regular hangout instead. Ran into some friends, had a lovely lunch/dinner and then came home. Some wind down time and now we’re off to play legos for family time. I feel happy and grateful. I still have a few todo items on my list and my art journal’s been neglected all weekend so I will work on that next. then some resting and we’re off to start another week. Phew.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful for a lovely day. Quiet and filled with laughter.
2. I am grateful for my family. My husband and kids are so amazing. They drive me crazy often but they are also the biggest joy in my life, bar none.
3. I am grateful for some art time tonight. I miss my journal.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I had some candy {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I decorated my tooth brush (with stickers).
3. I am grateful we went out to lunch.

I promised myself that I would rest this weekend. I need downtime as usual. I seem to have gone into a long long funk but I will not whine cause I still get stuff done and I am proud of myself for learning to recognize that I need sleep or that I need rest. So this weekend, I have a bunch of deliverables and I will check in on my class but otherwise, I will relax and rest. So this morning I got up late and then took my time. When I got up to exercise finally, David was sharing some of his cheerios with Nathaniel.

He’s been in a really good mood, thankfully.

Then I finished my book, surfed a bit, looked up sketch inspiration, sketched and did some cleanup while Nathaniel finally napped. And then it was time for family shots.

The little one was not in the mood.

one of my favorite parts of these shots is how Jake and I hug and kiss.

David was in a good mood after the shoot, too. Always in a good mood my boy.

Then we finished our book, picked a new one and then it was dinner etc etc. Now we’re hoping to make a quick trip to Target and it’s time for bed. I plan to do some art, check in my classroom, and finally close all the tabs I have open. Love nights with no huge plans!

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful for another sketch. I am really working hard at them.
2. I am grateful I exercised. Still going.
3. I am grateful for a quiet night. Love those.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I watched TV {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I played with my legos.
3. I am grateful I am building a game.