Weekly Reflection 2019 – 39

Magic I Saw this Week: This was one of the quieter weeks. I worked pretty long days, spent the nights helping the kids or working, drew and read. But didn’t do too much else.

Magic I Made this Week: I spent all of my Saturday scrapbooking, printing our photos, telling our stories, reading. It was magical.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: hmm some journaling but that’s mostly it.

Top Goals Review:  not the most successful week this week.

  • Work: did more perf and did calibrations. did not do org health but will do soon. stayed on top of email. organized birthday some more. did not clean up calendar aggressively.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised very little, journaled very little, did make time to sleep. did not come up with a whitney plan. nor a meal plan.
  • Family:  no family photos, hugged kids. did not do date night with jake.

I celebrate: going to book club!

I am grateful for: printing all those pictures.

This week, I exercised: i only went rockclimbing this week and that was it.

Self-care this week: none really this week i’m afraid. except maybe for all the reading and going to book club.

I showed up for: book club.

I said yes to: taking more time to sleep this week.

I said no to: working too many late nights.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am trying to embrace what matters most and remind myself that many many things don’t actually matter.
  • Alive: i feel good. but also tired.
  • Lighter: i feel a bit lighter each day.
  • Kinder: paying attention to this one a lot.
  • Surrender: surrendering to learning and growing a bit more each day

What I tolerated this week: it was super hot all week.

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: getting my blood tests done, scheduling my PT.

I forgive myself for: still not being where i wish i were.

Here’s what I learned this week: i can choose to tell myself the stories that help me.

What I love right now: getting a few quiet weekends.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 38

Magic I Saw this Week: This was a bit of a crazy week, I flew to Zurich on Sunday, arriving midday Monday worked till Tuesday night, then I flew to London late Tuesday night, spent Wednesday working, then left Thursday morning to fly back home. Arrived late in the day, worked and then drove to Tahoe on Friday, worked a bunch more and then had a weekend trip with my family and drove back home Sunday. A lot of time spent traveling for my taste. I was (and still am) wiped pretty much all week. I am tired and all I want to do is curl up and read but of course I am behind on 50 million things. But despite all that, my life was 100% full of magic. I loved all the reading I got done, meeting all the folks in London and Zurich, buying my favorite chocolates, getting to see london again after 20 years, having dinner with one of my closest high school friends, and getting to spend the weekend with my boys at a little piece of heaven on earth. I am wiped but also deliriously grateful.

Magic I Made this Week: hmm… I went to dinner at my friend’s house despite being really tired and having so much work. I rock climbed with my family, went on a small hike and took a vacation.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: not enough this week. I am really tired.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did most of perf but still have some. did not even start org health. did zurich/london meetings. stayed somewhat on top of email but not enough.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised very little this week, did not journal, did not make time to sleep.
  • Family:  did family photos, did talk to kids as much as possible, prepped Jake, prepped lunches.

I celebrate: finishing this whirlwind of a trip

I am grateful for: our vacation in Tahoe, it’s always so relaxing despite the long drive.

This week, I exercised: i only did a tiny bit of rockclimbing this week and that was it.

Self-care this week: none really this week i’m afraid. except maybe for all the reading.

I showed up for: work, kids, jake. my friend.

I said yes to: working so so much. grueling travel, no real sleep.

I said no to: working the evening i went to see my friend instead.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am trying to embrace all the things but some weeks it all just hits me at once.
  • Alive: i am a bit wiped right now :).
  • Lighter: i feel lighter with most of perf being done but i think it will not fully feel better by end of October, sadly.
  • Kinder: still trying to be kinder to myself.
  • Surrender: surrendering to all the ways in which I am doing doing and being enough right now.

What I tolerated this week: lack of sleep, jet lag.

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: not sure at this very moment tbh.

I forgive myself for: not being sure of my path at this moment.

Here’s what I learned this week: i think i need to step back and see what I still want and don’t want.

What I love right now: how many vacations we were lucky enough to have this year.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 37

Magic I Saw this Week: This was one of those wonderful combination weeks. I did a lot of work over the weekend, got my hair done and rested on Sunday and then worked hard until Wednesday. Thursday was my birthday so Jake and I went on adventures and then to back to school night. Friday I climbed, worked hard, and then met my friend Kelly which was a huge treat, then worked again, and then went out on date night to the movies. It was a full and magical week.

Magic I Made this Week: Date night, meeting my friend, celebrating my birthday! lots of magic this week.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: hmm i did some journaling and it was great.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did not do enough perf or org health. did plan the zurich/london meetings. somewhat stayed on top of email.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised, journal a bit, hiked, did not do any 5ams, was really bad with sleep.
  • Family:  took family photos, went to back to school and morning coffee, did celebrate me!, went on date night, hugged kids, prepped lunches, got ready for trip.

I celebrate: my birthday!

I am grateful for: another wonderful trip around the sun. may there be many mor.

This week, I exercised: went to body pump twice, went on a hike on my birthday and went climbing.

Self-care this week: it’s been a full week which sometimes makes things tougher. getting my hair done was lovely and so was taking the day off for my birthday.

I showed up for: The kids by going to school twice for coffee and back to school night.

I said yes to: i continue to keep saying yes as often as i can.

I said no to: working on my birthday!

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing the fullness of my life.
  • Alive: i feel so alive when i am out in the wild.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter… hmm i will feel lighter when perf is done.
  • Kinder: trying to be kinder to myself, it’s hard.
  • Surrender: surrendering so much each day

What I tolerated this week: just a lot going on still.

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: working really hard to support people the best i can

I forgive myself for: not being perfect.

Here’s what I learned this week: i want to keep showing up and keep trying

What I love right now: how much my kids are growing up and learning to navigate new stages of their lives.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 36

Magic I Saw this Week: So much magic this week. We went to Yosemite National Park and Mammoth Falls for Labor Day weekend and we saw a wide variety of incredible nature. It was truly magical. So many lakes, so many trees and so much beauty.

Magic I Made this Week: Well I climbed big mountains and took trips to my kids’ school and showed up again and again.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: nothing new here still…I know I need to work on this one.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: I did a bunch of perf but definitely not enough. I did stay afloat but I also got a ton done on Saturday because I went into work for 9 hours and just finished a bunch of things that were on my list.
  • Personal: did my daily drawing, exercised, journaled a tiny amount, hiked, did not wake up at 5am this week because I made time to sleep.
  • Family:  we did not take family photos or clean out kids’ closets, but we did do both the back to school and morning coffee, and celebrated Jake, did not go on date night, did hug kids.

I celebrate: hiking to the top of Mt. Dana. 13,000feet and a steep steep insane hike!

I am grateful for: all the different layers of my life. I am really tipping over at this point but I love all the different aspects of my life. I love all the work I have, Love my kids and where they are in their lives, Love my husband and all the things he is exploring and bringing into my life, love getting to draw and exercise and I wish I had twice as many (or maybe three times as many!) hours in the day/week so I could do them each more.

This week, I exercised: i did several hikes in Yosemite, especially Mt. Dana, then I went to yoga, and went outdoor rock climbing with jake which included a 1hour hike. It was plenty of exercise for a week.

Self-care this week: doing a great job on hiking and being outdoors, not as good on the diet though.

I showed up for: Jake this week. We celebrated his 45th birthday by going climbing at Castle Rock where I climbed and I learned how to belay.

I said yes to: as many things as i could this week.

I said no to: working at night when I was exhausted.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing all the hiking and working hard to be in good shape enough.
  • Alive: i feel so alive when i have some of my todo list tackled.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter in this moment when i have 2 emails in my work inbox. it won’t last though.
  • Kinder: paying attention to this a lot.
  • Surrender: surrendering to the fullness of my life

What I tolerated this week: an extra work day, it helps so much.

My mood this week was: full.

I am proud of: hiking Mt. Dana and going outdoor rock climbing this week

I forgive myself for: never ever fully catching up.

Here’s what I learned this week: i can do anything I put my mind to

What I love right now: how hard i am working at so many aspects of my life


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 35

Magic I Saw this Week: The kids went back to school this week. The biggest magic was seeing how seamless it was for them and how they just adjusted to their new lives. D still is trying to settle some things but they’ve been magical.

Magic I Made this Week: Not a lot this week, just barely managed lunches and work and school and life.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: nothing new here.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: started the markets preso, but not tokyo preso, also started on proposal for ux team, emailed on 15 plan v1, did review packets, sat through strat 2020, and did not do perf1.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised, journaled, hiked, i couldn’t do 5am but i have been waking up at 5:30 and i did make time to sleep.
  • Family:  took family photos, did not clean out kids’ closets, started first week of school, went on vacation, did date night, hugged kids.

I celebrate: school starting relatively smoothly

I am grateful for: a more seamless transition than we usually get.

This week, I exercised: i did body pump monday, yoga tuesday, climbing thursday and we’re hiking this weekend.

Self-care this week: still not super great on self care at the moment.

I showed up for: work this week.

I said yes to: so so much driving Friday.

I said no to: doing email over work.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing all this email. no i am not.
  • Alive: i feel so alive when i am outside.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter now that school is on.
  • Kinder: trying to be kinder.
  • Surrender: surrendering to all that’s going on

What I tolerated this week: long days, really behind in email.

My mood this week was: overwhelmed.

I am proud of: catching up to my email

I forgive myself for: being behind, dropping things.

Here’s what I learned this week: i need to prioritize sleep.

What I love right now: being able to go outdoors so much


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 34

Magic I Saw this Week: This week’s magic was having David back, seeing both my kids lean into their new transitions, hiking with jake, some awesome conversations at work.

Magic I Made this Week: i went climbing despite being really sick. i went to the kids’ school and saw my friend Kelly. I also worked for 10+ hours over the weekend which helped me catch up seriously.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: nothing new here.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: cleaned out all the email, got a bit of a markets and tokyo schedule done, did proposal for ux team, did figure out culture d&i, and felt more organized.
    Personal: did daily drawing, exercised, did not journal, did hike, did not make 5am wakeup happen, did make time to sleep.
    Family:  took family photos, did not clean out kids’ closets, did get ready for school things, did hug kids.

I celebrate: a good week at work

I am grateful for: my life right now.

This week, I exercised: i was quite sick this week and had a fever so i did one body pump and a little bit of climbing.

Self-care this week: still not super great on self care at the moment.

I showed up for: david’s school and work.

I said yes to: working a bit longer days again.

I said no to: letting the sickness get to me.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing being a bit sick :/.
  • Alive: i feel so alive when i have work i like doing and time to do it.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter having made the decision.
  • Kinder: this is a constant work in progress for me.
  • Surrender: surrendering to having to work longer/more

What I tolerated this week: sickness .

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: all the work i got done

I forgive myself for: not exercising as much this week.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that I have a lot more to learn.

What I love right now: i love much of my life right now. it’s so full and rich, i am very grateful.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 33

Magic I Saw this Week: This week’s magic was seeing Jake’s family visit and having all the kids play together and watching my husband share his love of climbing with his family.

Magic I Made this Week: Since my last update Jake and I did two hikes. One to strenuous one in East Bay and one easy but longish one in Palo Alto. It was wonderful.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: hmm i did some fantastic work with my coach this week. some good learnings.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did a small amount of work on next steps on tokyo and markets, i made some progress on figuring out culture d&i, i didn’t yet sort out the growing leadership stuff, i so did not stay on top of email.
  • Personal: i did do my daily drawing, i exercised , i journaled a bunch, i hiked, i did not really do one new thing daily, and i did do one yoga but no walking or other morning plan, i did make time to sleep.
  • Family:  we took family photos, we did not clean out kids’ closets, we did not get ready for school things, hugged kids.

I celebrate: starting hiking and my solid 5.9 climbs this week.

I am grateful for: the time we spent with Jake’s family.

This week, I exercised: i had a great week. i hiked on Sunday, did body pump on Monday and Wednesday, did yoga on Tuesday, went rock climbing on Thursday and hiked again on Friday. It was a good week.

Self-care this week: not super great on self care at the moment.

I showed up for: hiking.

I said yes to: working a bit longer days

I said no to: working more

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing this new hiking goal.
  • Alive: i feel so alive in nature.
  • Lighter: i will feel lighter when all my email is done.
  • Kinder: i am working on this so hard. i am working on rewriting my tapes.
  • Surrender: surrendering to having to work on the weekends

What I tolerated this week: soreness .

My mood this week was: positive.

I am proud of: all the working out this week. the climbing and hiking both!

I forgive myself for: not being in as good a shape as I wish I were.

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that I have some tapes I wasn’t even aware of. I’m learning.

What I love right now: i love being out in nature.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 32

Magic I Saw this Week: This whole week was magic. The water, the lush forests, Jake pushing himself so hard, reading, resting, drawing, sleeping hard. All of it was magic.

Magic I Made this Week: I made this holiday possible. I also found the awesome hike we went on on our last day which was the biggest highlight of my vacation. Super magical.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: lots and lots of journaling and progress this week thanks to the Do the Work workbook. yay!!

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: kept up with email enough to not stress when i return.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised a bit by hiking twice, journaled, walked a bunch, and did not restart yoga, but did get some awesome sleep.
  • Family:  hugged my kids, went on adventures with my hubby

I celebrate: our awesome vacation

I am grateful for: being able to afford the money and the time to have such magical moments in my life.

This week, I exercised: we went on two hikes together.

Self-care this week: all of this week was self-care.

I showed up for: my kids and my husband.

I said yes to: hiking when i didn’t want to.

I said no to: going out when i really wanted to sit by the pool.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing nature so much
  • Alive: i felt the most alive i’ve felt in years when we went to the waterfall.
  • Lighter: i feel so so much lighter now.
  • Kinder: i am going to try to be kinder to myself, to my kids, to jake and to every single person i know. i will collaborate.
  • Surrender: surrendering to the magic of life

What I tolerated this week: suburn.

My mood this week was: grateful.

I am proud of: the hiking we did to get to the waterfall

I forgive myself for: all the noise in my head

Here’s what I learned this week: i learned so much about growth mindset this week.

What I love right now: i love my one and only magical life.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 31

Magic I Saw this Week: Another long week this week but I still managed to squeeze in some magical time. Mostly tuck-in time with Nathaniel and late nights with David. Early morning adventure with Jake. Not ideal but still there. I had a chat with a friend, too.

Magic I Made this Week: I went rock climbing with jake, I watched all the debates. drew every single day, too.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: no journaling this week either but i’m working on it.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: finalized and delivered tokyo, getting nbu meetings on cal and wrote some thoughts, wrote up the Encore, did inbox zero (though it’s already back up to 100+, summarized learnings from D, reached out to S for org.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised, did not journal or walk, and and did not restart yoga, did better on sleep.
  • Family:  hugged my kids, tried to give my hubby time and space

I celebrate: being done with phase 1.

I am grateful for: having david back, getting a bunch of work done.

This week, I exercised: two body pumps and rock climbing this week. not terrible.

Self-care this week: i had a hair appointment but that was it.

I showed up for: offsite and rock climbing.

I said yes to: working pretty late nights this week

I said no to: not much :/

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing some time off
  • Alive: i feel more alive when i can get a bit better control on my calendar.
  • Lighter: the email is so hard on me
  • Kinder: i am going to try to be kinder about travel.
  • Surrender: surrendering to the new normal

What I tolerated this week: long nights.

My mood this week was: tired.

I am proud of: the improvement in my rock climbing

I forgive myself for: not being able to do more this week

Here’s what I learned this week: i have to learn to pace myself.

What I love right now: i love that we get one more vacation.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 30

Magic I Saw this Week: This was a tough week, a lot of early mornings and late nights. Interrupted sleep. A lot of conversations. It’s been really magical to work with a group of people at work and to have things on my plate that I really care about and hope to move forward. I feel really blessed right now.

Magic I Made this Week: I went rock climbing with jake. I went out to book club. I went out to a social event at work!

Magic of Me that I explored Week: no journaling this week but I will make up for it this weekend.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: moved tokyo forward, got a few nbu meetings on a roll, went to summit, did not yet summarize learnings from D.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, exercised very little, did not journal, did not walk, and did not restart yoga, and didn’t really sleep well. Boo.
  • Family:  i did spend time with Nathaniel this week.

I celebrate: two very kind work meetings this week

I am grateful for: david having an okay week and that he’s coming back!

This week, I exercised: i only did one rock climbing and that was it.

Self-care this week: i have a hair appointment!

I showed up for: the ux summit, book club, rock climbing.

I said yes to: climbing at an alternate day/time

I said no to: checking my mail at night

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing enjoying my job
  • Alive: i feel more alive when i have things to do and time to do them.
  • Lighter: i have vacation coming up.
  • Kinder: i am trying to soften into being kinder.
  • Surrender: surrendering to how much work i have still

What I tolerated this week: long nights.

My mood this week was: all over the place.

I am proud of: all the drawing i’ve been doing 140+ consecutive days.

I forgive myself for: not being able to do more

Here’s what I learned this week: i can do this and i have options

What I love right now: i love summer. i wish it would last a few more months.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 29

Magic I Saw this Week: Work has been really really hectic lately, especially because I’ve been having a lot of other activities. This week I had two days of manager training. Next week I have a summit. The following week I have another summit, etc. So it makes all the other days that much more squished and harder. But there was still so much magic this week. I loved being in training. I loved getting to see my friend. I loved saying hi to a colleague. I loved listening to my kids. So much magic in the ordinary everyday.

Magic I Made this Week: I went rock climbing with jake twice. I went out to dinner with my friend. I took a class!

Magic of Me that I explored Week: no journaling or anything else this week though there was some work in the manager class!

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: moved tokyo forward, did not get nbu meetings on a roll yet, did class, got most all other meetings on cal, did not yet summarize learnings from D.
  • Personal: did daily drawing, did exercise, did not journal, walked, and did not restart yoga, did pretty average on sleep.
  • Family:  did spend time with kids @night.

I celebrate: feeling really good this week

I am grateful for: getting to learn this week

This week, I exercised: i did one body pump, two rock climbing, and I walked four days this week.

Self-care this week: not super great on this front this week

I showed up for: my class, for jake.

I said yes to: two climbing sessions even though it was really hard.

I said no to: filling up my schedule even more than it was

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing being a manager
  • Alive: i feel more alive when i can balance my time.
  • Lighter: working on this one.
  • Kinder: working on this still, too, often.
  • Surrender: surrendering to how much work i have

What I tolerated this week: lot lot lot of meetings and work.

My mood this week was: tired but the week ended well.

I am proud of: my dedication.

I forgive myself for: my imperfections

Here’s what I learned this week: i have a long way to go.

What I love right now: i am really enjoying getting to read so much.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.

Weekly Reflection 2019 – 28

Magic I Saw this Week: This was a long week with a lot of back to back meetings but the most magical part was Monday night when I came home early-ish and decided to just work offline so I read a book for work, spent some time organizing and journaling and really managed to slow down. And then on Friday, I ended up getting a ton of work done so that also felt magical. Outside of that, N enjoying his camp feels magical and D running so much is also magical.

Magic I Made this Week: Not a ton this week as it was a pretty busy week but I continued to draw daily and finished the 100day project. Pretty awesome.

Magic of Me that I explored Week: a bit more journaling so far this week.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work: did move tokyo forward a bit but hopefully more this week, did not get nbu meetings on a roll yet but on it, did not really start a new cadence but coming soon.
    Personal: did daily drawing, exercised very little, journaled a bit, walked twice, and did not restart yoga, but did sleep a lot.
    Family:  i tried to be present for the kids and give jake some relief.

I celebrate: a productive week

I am grateful for: my new coach at work

This week, I exercised: only one body pump and one walking this week, not the best week.

Self-care this week: focused harder on sleep this week

I showed up for: work this week

I said yes to: taking monday afternoon offline

I said no to: working saturday morning since i worked friday night

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Embrace:  i am embracing my new calendar for a bit, it’s pretty terrifying
  • Alive: loving the summer days and light so so much.
  • Lighter: just accepting what is.
  • Kinder: still working on this one.
  • Surrender: surrendering to my new calendar

What I tolerated this week: lot lot lot of meetings and piling up email.

My mood this week was: tired and worn out.

I am proud of: progress and patience.

I forgive myself for: being who i am.

Here’s what I learned this week: i got this, i can do this, i want to do this.

What I love right now: the long days make me exceptionally happy.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.