100 Days of Radical Wellness – Day 8

I walked over to the coffeeshop today just to encourage myself to do a long walk. When I got there I decided to get a coffee and a baked good.

The two options were either a brownie or a lemon cookie. I asked the barista which one she would recommend and she said she’s not a big chocolate person. I told her I was and she said well then she would definitely recommend the brownie.

As she handed it to me she said something along the lines of it being a treat that I deserved or maybe she said indulgence I can’t remember. But I do remember that I thought words matter and how we use our words also matter.

Calling the brownie an indulgence immediately made me think “do I deserve it?” I could tell there was a tape in my head that said well you ate all those vegetables earlier today so it must be okay. And then another voice saying you’re never going to be thin if you keep eating brownies. And yet another one saying you’re already almost 50 when do you stop worrying about these things. All these voices inside my head just from a single word.

I have been trying really hard to unlearn all of the tapes in my head about what’s a good food and what’s a bad food. I’ve been trying to pay attention to what I’m craving and just eating only the amount that I actually want. I’ve been paying attention to the words I use and the words others use.

It is so hard to unlearn things especially when they’re all around you all the time. And I felt really proud today for being able to catch all those conversations in my head and for being able to order the brownie anyway and eat only as much as I wanted and then put the rest away. And most importantly for not feeling guilty or ashamed or even daring.

It’s going to be a long journey for me to normalize all the foods and maybe it may never happen but this is also part of the wellness journey for me. Paying attention, noticing, being intentional. And as always giving myself grace again and again and again.

#100dayproject, #the100dayproject, #karenikaradicalwellness

100 Days of Radical Wellness – Day 7

Today was mostly a rest day. I didn’t achieve all my goals this week but I did well and i.am grateful.

The best part of being in California is getting to walk outside in the sunshine almost every single day of the year. I decided to take advantage of it and got my audiobook to keep my company as I walked around snapping photos and enjoying the sunshine.

Grateful for rest days.

#100dayproject, #the100dayproject, #karenikaradicalwellness

100 Days of Radical Wellness – Day 6

Here’s what I found out today. This project is working out for me amazingly well. I had a pretty tough week this week and I was still able to do most of what I want to do for myself and having this project is help me make the right choices.

I’m exercising more. I am eating better. I am taking time to connect with myself. I am taking time to do my art. And I’m trying to take better care of my body.

And when a day is exceptionally tough and I don’t do those things I am now giving myself so much more grace because I know that I do them more days than not.

It’s been a real gift.

#100dayproject, #the100dayproject, #karenikaradicalwellness

100 Days of Radical Wellness – Day 5

 

This morning I woke up and did all my meditation and exercise before any of my day started.

And I am grateful that I did that because my day went downhill fast and now I have no interest in this project or doing well. All I want to do is lie on the couch.

But that’s ok and I can give myself grace and I am glad I moved my body this morning. Tomorrow is a new day and there will be more opportunities to do more.

#100dayproject, #the100dayproject, #karenikaradicalwellness