This week ended up being a bit of a mess. I got exercise.and nutrition in but no water, and very little soul work. Thankfully I felt ok most of the week. But I absolutely need a new routine for journaling.
Now that I am exercising first thing, it’s taking up all my morning. I have no time for journaling and I already really miss it.
Today bug boy had his well check appointment. The doctors office that’s usually brimming with people and couches was bare. We walked in double masked and they gave us one more since it had to be one of theirs. I’m grateful that we get to go to the doctor because back in March of 2020, we couldn’t of course. But sad that 11 months later, life still is so restricted.
We then had to go get passports renewed for the kids which was another crazy ordeal of its own.
Both chores done. We still have drivers licenses to renew, orthodontist, opthalmologist, and who knows what other surprises await us in 2021.
I’ll take all of these and more over covid of course. These are signs that we’re healthy and living life. I am grateful to be here and not in a different state.
Also grateful for the 3-day weekend. Perfect time to rest and recover from this very busy week.
Yes to doing life’s chores. Yes to rest. So grateful.
I appear to have nothing to say tonight. I am feeling tired but also full. I still have a lot to do and I have appointments tomorrow that take me to the outside world which I always find challenging and even more so in covid. But they must be done so we shall do them.
But I am feeling peaceful and my mind is quiet. Maybe it’s because I’m too tired but either way I’ll take it. Enjoying the quiet right now as I also know it’s unlikely to last.
Its been a busy week. I did exercise and tried to eat reasonably well but I haven’t journaled, sketched, or done many of the other self-care acts that I wanted to this week. Tomorrow looks unlikely too.
But maybe I can do more this weekend and make sure I take extra time to journal and check in with myself. Since it’s a long weekend that seems feasible.
I really did not do well on anything but movement this week. And even the tracking is falling by the wayside. But it’s.ok I am making progress.
And here’s the best part: I am remembering what matters most and making choices That line up with that. I am choosing to show up the book club. I am choosing to take time to exercise. I am choosing to take a walk with my husband.
That’s what this project is all about So as far as I’m concerned it’s working.
I am grateful that while I’ve been really behind all week both personally and professionally, I feel okay this week and feel a sense of calm.
And I really cherish this feeling. Knowing that I will catch up, I’ll read all my email, and then there will be more email and I’ll read that too.
I generally feel a sense of overwhelm and self-disappointment when I am in a place like this, so I am very grateful that I appear to be giving myself grace and that I am dialing into book club instead of feverishly doing email at night.
Yes to doing the best I can and yes to creating boundaries.
Some things continue to be challenging here. I have now shifted my exercise to early in the morning but that means on days when I’m having a tight schedule everything else falls by the wayside. So no journaling and no art.
I’m not entirely sure how to fix this without waking up earlier which I don’t want to do since that compromises on sleep so that’s what I have to think about a little bit today.
I’m still really enjoying this project and making it visible for myself the progress that I’m making towards wellness so it’s making me very happy.
Making the invisible visible is always a good thing.
I have a sign on my desk that says “We can do hard things.” It’s from Glennon Doyle and I love looking at it every day.
Over the years I’ve learned that different things are hard for different people. And that sometimes big things are really easy for me and small things are really hard.
Today I did a bunch of those small things. Getting paperwork ready for a passport renewal, sending off tuition payments, and other paperwork. Calling to cancel things or to change service. Booking a small getaway. The small daily tasks are overwhelming and hard for me.
I find myself postponing them again and again and feeling the dread of them permanently sitting in my to-do list. So today I booked some time on my calendar and gone it all done in one shot. And now I feel that overwhelming relief of getting to cross off those things from my list.
I remember my sixteenth birthday. I even remember what I wore for my sweet sixteen party.
He was the only one of us who hadn’t had a pandemic birthday and now he gets to have that honor, too.
I am so incredibly proud of this boy and the person he’s becoming. He’s always had an unwavering sense of self and still does now. We are just lucky to get to do life with him.
Happy birthday sweet boy! We love you so incredibly much.
Weekly Intention: My weekly intention this week is to take more time doing things for myself. And to pay attention to my thoughts.
This month’s intention is:February: Yes to the Unknown: Be open to new things this month. Listen more, watch others. Be willing to take some steps into the unknown and assume the best. Be brave. I think I need to think more about what this means for me.
One way I will leap this week: The 100-days of radical wellness is going to continue to be a leap again so I am going to keep focusing on that for a while.
One boundary I will set this week: I am going to protect my mornings more and more, it really changes the way my day feels when I do that.
One area where I will go deeper this week: i have begun journaling but i think it will help me to go deeper there.
What do I need to sit with this week? i didn’t do this: the stories I am telling myself. I want to write them down.
I am looking forward to: big boy’s birthday
Focus onCore Desired Feelings (lighter, kinder, enough, magic, wild): this week i am really going to focus on trying to feel lighter. I need it.
This week’s challenges: i am going to see if i can make this week a less challenging week!
Top Goals:
Work: talk to D, help close NBU, write up L convo, make a plan for L/D.
Personal: continue to tinker with and edit plan
Family: take walks with J. celebrate D. do one thing with N and do one thing with D.
This week, I want to remember: life passes in the blink of an eye.
What an absolute joy it was to read this book. It definitely had a similar feel to Knives Out and also to Westing Game. I really enjoyed all the puzzles and the main character and all the brothers and the sister. If you’re in a reading slump and you like puzzles, you will enjoy this book. It’s fast-paced and a lot of fun! Can’t wait for the sequel!