The Adaptive Brain

Last night, I started my local course on The Science of Mindfulness. This is taught by the same teacher who taught The Science of Willpower class last year. She has a great book and is an excellent lecturer. I really enjoy her classes and I knew this would be no exception. As she talked about what the class would cover, one of the things she mentioned is how our brains are constantly changing.

I think most of us believe that youth is the time to learn all new things. By the time we reach middle ages, it’s too late to pick up a new instrument, a new “talent.” We’re pretty much done.

It turns out not to be true.

I’ve never believed this to be true so I am glad to find out that there’s research proving the human brain can be changed at all ages. She specifically mentioned a study where a group of adults were taught to juggle. These people had never juggled before. They had brain scans before the study began, then they were taught juggling for a while and had another brain scan done. The research found that certain areas of their brain changed during the study. The part of the brain responsible for tracking visual things (makes sense, right?) got denser. So the brain realized they were doing this and started becoming more efficient and capable.

So lesson 1: you can learn at every age and your brain is constantly adapting and optimizing in your favor.

And, even more interestingly, these same people were then told to stop juggling for six months. At the end of six months, they had another brain scan and it showed that the same areas got less dense. Weaker.

So lesson 2: if you don’t keep practicing, the brain adapts to that, too and thinks you don’t need that optimization anymore and so deteriorates.

Isn’t that fascinating? Your brain is a lot more adaptable than you think. I love this because it shows that we have a lot more control than we assume. If we want to get better at something, we have to do it, and then keep doing it. We say this to kids, but it’s also true for us.

And it’s true for physical/mental activities as well as emotional ones. So we think we can get better at math or music with practice. But we don’t think the same way about depression, pain, anxiety, happiness, etc. Those work the same way, too. You practice, you get better, your brain helps you out.

So you are in control.

You can make it happen.

I am not saying there aren’t limits and that we can do anything, anytime, etc. But the fact that our brains have plasticity all the way from birth to death is a very empowering thought for me.

As we always say: what you water, blooms.

Choose wisely.

Daily Sketching – Week 76

Here are the sketches from last week:

Sunday:

Monday:

Tuesday:

Wednesday:

Thursday:

Friday:

that’s it for this week.


Daily Sketching is a weekly project for 2012. You can see a detailed post on my sketching journey here.

the best start possible

This is a layout I made for Maya Road for CHA.

And the journaling says:
This was your first year at your new school. I will admit I was quite nervous and didn’ know what to expect. Especially when we got a note thay your teacher was sick and you’d have a sub. The first few weeks we had no idea what would happen. As it turned out you got to have this teacher all year and she was the awesomest teacher ever. Thanks to her, we had the very best introduction to your school. Thank you Mrs. Richardson!

details:

David’s BoGM – Week 20

Here is the next spread from our book:

More valentines this week. A paper origami Yoda. Some pyramid drawings David made.


David’s Book of Good Memories is a bi-weekly project for 2012 with my seven-year-old son David. You can read more about it here.

Weekly Diary – September 22 2012

Very very few photos this week. Some weeks are just like that. Here are some snapshots from our week:

Nathaniel loves watching David play on the computer.

David’s math homework.

More puppets from school. This owl was extra-cool.

my little boy.

i know this is super-blurry, but i love it nonetheless.

and another puppet from school!!

nathaniel wasn’t in the mood to pose this week.

we did some “we love…” yelling

and some more!! he was into that.

he kept making funny faces.

the more I asked him to smile, the more he got excited and funny.

so of course I couldn’t stop myself from laughing.

even tickle time was extra crazy this week. but alas there was a lot of laughter and that makes me feel blessed.

and here we go. i hope your week was lovely, too.


Weekly Diary is a project for 2012. You can read more about it here.

Journey into Collage – Week 38

The title says: forgive yourself and treat yourself with loving kindess.


Journey into Collage is a project for 2012. You can read more about it here.

Breaking Open

In 2002, I quit my six-figure job on Wall Street to do something I deeply felt like I needed to do. I wanted to be making the world a better place. I wanted to help. I wanted to change lives. I wanted to do something good.

So I did.

I changed everything, turned our lives upside down to make this big change. I felt right every step of the way. I felt pulled toward this new goal. It was hard and challenging but I knew in my bones that this was the right thing to do. It was me walking in the direction in which I was meant to go.

It felt right.

But it wasn’t.

Once I started doing it, everything seemed to go wrong. I fell into an ever-growing spiral of despair and frustration. I think it was harder for me because I felt so strongly that the cause was essential. It was important and I didn’t want to mess it up. I owed it to the people I was trying to serve to do a good job. They deserved my best.

And my best just didn’t measure up.

Not to the ideal in my head of how good I had to be. It didn’t matter if I was better than others. It didn’t matter if I did a little good. I wasn’t doing the good I felt they deserved. I wasn’t measuring up to my goal. I judged myself constantly.

And it broke me apart.

I felt so ashamed of myself. Of my inability to create the change I so deeply craved for these people. I felt so incapable. So incompetent.

While the degree is different, I felt the same way today. That combination of “I so desperately want to do good here” and the “this person deserves better than I am.” I ached to help. I ached to be better than I actually am capable of being.

And that ache is painful for me. It sends me to the darkness and I don’t know how to find my way back. It is a reminder that I am not good enough to measure up to the person I want to be in my head, in my heart, in my soul.

It hurts.

So I did the only thing I can do. I apologized. I was honest and I cleared the space the best I could. Now I need to tend to the wounds I created for myself. The ones from that dream ten years ago are still there. While my head knows it was right to walk away, my soul aches for the person I wasn’t. But I want to know that I can forgive myself. I want to understand that sometimes when you want something so badly, it makes it harder because your measuring stick is misaligned. You’re holding yourself to a standard that cannot be met. You are setting yourself up to be crushed.

And I don’t want that. I want to be strong enough to get up and try again. Or strong enough to walk away without looking back. I want to disassociate my self-worth from the outcome. I am here with the gifts I have to give to the world.

My job is to offer those gifts and give freely.

The rest is not up to me.

Art Journaling – Arches Printmaking Set 21

Here are some more pages I did:

The full text reads: celebrate every single day you get to have.

And here’s the next page:

The full text reads: make a point to take time for yourself. you deserve it.

Well here we go. More coming next week.


I am creating multiple art journaling pages a week for now. You can read more about this project here. This set uses the Fabriano Roma papers.

The Savor Project – Week 36

And here’s the next spread:

here’s a closer up of the left side:

And here’s the right side:

This week is all about our 4 days in Santa Cruz. I just posted titles across the whole spread and then told stories from our trip.

Art along the bottom as usual.

Another great week. Happy Savoring.


The Savor Project was supposed to be a weekly project for 2012. You can read about my setup here.

A Book a Week – the rook

The Rook was for book club. I hadn’t read a good mystery in a long time and thought it might be fun.

And I was right.

This book has the very interesting premise of a woman who wakes up to find out that she remembers nothing about who she is and she’s a secret spy of some sorts. I enjoyed the way the story unfolded and it was different than what I usually read which is a plus, for me.

It’s sort of a Men in Black like story. So if you’re into that genre, it’s recommended.

Brave

Ever since I made this collage page for the Your Living Canvas class, I’ve been thinking about bravery and taking brave steps and being brave in general.

Here’s what I’ve come to believe….I’m going to say something controversial now. Ready?

I, think to the outside world, the difference between a brave move and a stupid one is the outcome. Society (and even we) measures bravery on how good the outcome was. If you took a big risk and moved to a new town, job, relationship and it turned out great, you were so brave! But if the outcome was less than stellar, well then you were dumb and/or didn’t think things through.

Taking a step in a new/different direction is very difficult. Our body, mind, heart and soul just want to play it safe. We like inertia. We know how things work at this moment. Even if we dislike so many parts of status quo, we know how to navigate through it. All the upsides and downsides are known.

And “known” is a good thing.

Unknown is a scary thing. The outcome is not quantifiable. There are no guarantees. There’s risk (and of course potential reward) and whenever there’s risk, there is always the possibility of undesired outcome, unexpected downside. I think almost all of us are afraid of the unknown.

I might be in a situation where I have to decide if I want to plunge forth on a decision that involves some changes. Some unknowns. I am trying my best to get reassurances that things will work out the way I want them to, but there are no guarantees. When you do something new, something you’ve never done, there are no guarantees.

To be honest, even the “knowns” are not guaranteed. Today I have a wonderful husband and two great kids, I have a job working at home, I have a home, I have hobbies, friends, etc. One or more of these things may no longer be true tomorrow. Things are not in my control as much as I’d like to think they are. So things could change tomorrow anyway. But the difference is that if I plunge forward, I will have put the changes in motion. I will be the responsible person if things don’t unfold as desired. It will be my fault. I will say “I wish I hadn’t been so stupid or greedy or selfish….” I don’t know what I’ll say but it won’t be nice. I’ll blame myself.

Whereas if things work out, I’ll be so wise! Good job doing the right thing Karen. Good job for being brave.

But of course, what’s brave is taking the step. Moving forward even though you don’t know the outcome. Thinking and feeling your way through the choices. Doing the best you can to stabilize and clarify the unknowns. And then just taking a leap.

Each leap is brave.

Regardless of the outcome. Each leap means you’re trying to grow, stretch, improve, try something new. Each leap means you’re not staying with the easy but unpleasant status quo. You’re taking charge of your life. Right or wrong. You’re doing something about it.

And that’s brave.

How it turns out? Well that’s just life. Things work out the way they do. Sometimes they don’t. And then you learn and you apologize. You eat your pride and figure out your next steps. Or maybe it’s a small adjustment. Maybe it’s the final straw to something that was fundamentally never going to work.

And sometimes things work out. And then it’s magic. You’re so glad you leapt.

No one knows what the future really holds. And we can all be geniuses in retrospect. So we all work with what we have now.

I want to practice being brave. I want to know that regardless of the outcome, I will find a way to be ok, I will survive, I will thrive. Each time I am brave, I get stronger. Each time I am brave, I learn to trust myself more. I want to remember that being brave is about taking the leap. Not about where I land.

I want to be brave.

Daily Sketching – Week 75

Here are the sketches from last week. not delighted with this week’s offerings but some weeks are like that:

Monday:

Tuesday:

Wednesday:

Thursday:

Friday:

Saturday:

that’s it for this week.


Daily Sketching is a weekly project for 2012. You can see a detailed post on my sketching journey here.