Staying Open – January 26, 2023 at 10:33PM

Staying Open – 26

I’ve been paying attention to the moments where I feel like I am closing up to understand what lies underneath it. It’s a strong signal towards an area where I still have an opportunity for growth.

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Staying Open – January 25, 2023 at 08:25PM

Staying Open – 25

Open to taking it one step at a time. Open to seeing the good and taking a moment to be grateful for it. Open to being here now with what is.

Open.

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Staying Open – January 24, 2023 at 10:08PM

Staying Open – 24

I was talking to a colleague today and he was saying how he starts every year with a huge goals list that he tracks daily and makes sure to work on.

I told.him that’s exactly what I used to do too until this year when I decided to throw it all out the window and it’s been so liberating.

And I also told him that if I hadn’t done that I wouldn’t have had the space to learn Korean now. I would be having to work on my todos.

I would have had room to be open.

#open #olw #stayingopen

Staying Open – January 23, 2023 at 09:28PM

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Some moments we live feel so acute that it’s almost impossible to imagine not being in that moment ever again. Like when you’re really really sick. The pain and discomfort are so all encompassing that even though you intellectually know you will not be sick forever it’s hard to feel that possibility.

But the cruel and joyous truth of life is that everything is ephemeral. The truth of this moment will not be the truth of your life.

It’s easy to forget this. It’s easy to take the beautiful moments for granted. Being open to this very moment helps me stay grounded and thankful for what is here now.

#open #olw #stayingopen

Staying Open – January 22, 2023 at 05:42PM

Staying Open – 22

Last night when I was lying in bed, I found myself stressing about today. I wanted to finish my books, paint, spend lots of time doing Korean and then read more books and I found myself wishing the day was really multiple days.

I used to wake up during the weekend mornings and immediately feel a sense of scarcity as if the day was already over and there was no way I was getting through my list.

But I gave that up a few months ago. Now I take my time. I don’t have anything I have to get done and so I am never behind. It’s all bonus.

So I told myself last night that I got to pick one thing that I really wanted to do this morning and if I did that then the rest was bonus.

My plan was to finish the book I was reading. I got up, finished the novel and then proceeded to paint, read another book, hosted the little one’s friends, worked on my olw book, and now I’m doing Korean.

It all worked out. It always does.

#open #olw #stayingopen

Staying Open – January 21, 2023 at 09:21PM

Staying Open – 21

A little under two weeks ago, I was at book club and jokingly said that I should learn Korean so I can watch the Korean dramas on Netflix without having to read the subtitles so I can multitask (paint) while I watch.

Fast forward ten days and I’ve obsessively been studying for hours every day. I can’t get enough.

Who knew?

It will likely take me ten years to speak or understand at the first grade level. But it’s so so much fun right now that I don’t even care.

#open #olw #stayingopen

Staying Open – January 20, 2023 at 07:41PM

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Tough tough tough day at work today. Feeling grateful and also sad for my colleagues.

Doing what I can to support others and taking what I need today.

Done with work finally, off to do things that fill my soul.

Not much else to say today.

#open #olw #stayingopen

Staying Open – January 19, 2023 at 10:57PM

Staying Open – 19

In the last few months, I’ve discovered this “new to me” form of therapy called “internal family systems” and it’s fascinating and a really compassionate way to help yourself heal.

I’m grateful to get to keep growing and healing every day.

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Staying Open – January 18, 2023 at 10:47PM

Staying Open – 18

Working to stay open. Painting. Working. Reading. Learning Korean. Journaling. Wanting to do more of my own stuff but spending time supporting and talking to the kids instead.

As I fill out forms for diploma names and baby photos, I am keenly reminded of the passage of time and that everything else can be done later but the kids are only here now and I will prioritize them fully while we have this ephemeral time together.

#open #olw #stayingopen

Staying Open – January 17, 2023 at 10:17PM

Staying Open – 17

Perspective.

We often forget how ephemeral everything is. How the things we worry about today will completely disappear tomorrow and there will be new things and unexpected things.

So it’s best to enjoy this moment right here and be grateful for what is and keep it all in perspective.

Cause you never know what tomorrow brings.

#open #olw #stayingopen

Staying Open – January 16, 2023 at 07:57PM

Staying Open – 16

Yes my Christmas tree is still up.

I know the sentiment is that if we always had 3-day weekends we’d get used to it and they wouldn’t be great anymore.

For two years in the early 2000s, I worked three days a week. I never got used to it, I never took it for granted. I worked hard during the three days, managed a team, got promoted. And during the other two days I volunteered and visited museums and did things that mattered to my soul.

It was perfect.

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Staying Open – January 15, 2023 at 06:03PM

Staying Open – 15

There’s something so much fun about learning something brand new for the first time. It’s confusing and it’s also infinitely exciting.

I love how it feels like my mind is expanding and all new worlds are opening up.

#open #olw #stayingopen