I am grateful we made it Thursday. Even though I have a lot to do tomorrow, I have only two meetings and I am hoping I’ll be able to pace myself well.
We’ll see.
This was a long week and I can’t really even put my finger on why. I have felt depleted all week.
Feeling depleted starts this negative cycle because then I am too tired to eat well or make good choices. Sometimes unintuitively I even go to bed late during a week where I feel depleted. So I just keep making one poor choice after another.
So I am trying to put some checks in place to help. Midmorning healthy snack, middle of the day visits to climbing gym, breaks to walk outside, connecting with friends in the afternoon and closing computer when work is done.
Some help, some help less.
Realistically I need several days off so I can rest and rejuvenate.
Day two of cold showers was decidedly harder! But did it. I will say that 30 days in I am in a more mediocre place but still making progress and that’s what this is all about. Here’s to showing up every day!!
I was talking a colleague today about being reactive vs proactive. I tend to be proactive and organized and intentional about my life.
And that’s at the crux of the word ‘yes’ for me. Diving in, choosing to take this head on, designing the life I want.
Being proactive is awesome when you know what you want.
Then there are times or areas when I don’t. Where I am a bit lost or don’t have super strong opinions. And saying yes is also about receiving things. Taking what comes and reacting with openness and possibility instead of judgement and fear.
The unexpected always surprises you. And what you do with that surprise is totally up to you, too. So much of life is about how we receive it.
I want to get much better at receiving it with grace and enthusiasm.
Yes to receiving it with possibility, optimism and unbridled joy.
I had my first cold shower this morning and it was cold cold cold!!
I did it post-exercise this morning so I imagine tomorrow will feel even more painful. Let’s see!
In the wellbeing journey I feel exercise, food, meditation and skincare seem to be going reasonably well. I have more room to grow on drinking water and cold showers so let’s see how this goes!
I’ve been quite cranky for the last two days at work. I am not even sure why but I’ve been moody and everything is getting on my nerves.
I’ve experimented with several things: sitting outside, hosting talks, connecting with people I love, sleeping in, getting up early and exercising and a few other things.
They all worked for a while. But didn’t last or shift my perspective.
So finally we went to the gym today and I saw how they were setting new routes and I started climbing. Climbing is one of the very few things that completely gets me out of my head.
It’s just hard enough for me to climb a complicated wall that I have to be absolutely present. I can only hang on for dear life and figure out my next move. I have no room to think of anything and that’s my favorite thing about it.
Now I’m sitting at home and feeling centered and calmer (and more sore!) Here’s hoping this sticks and I can be less grumpy tomorrow.
Yes to getting out of your head. Yes to finding something that really helps me be present. Yes to climbing!
I had a tough day today. I couldn’t put my finger on the why but I felt frustrated and spent all day. I was annoyed with everything and wanted to upend my life completely.
I have a 24-hour rule for moments like this. Where I do nothing for 24 hours and then see if I still want to take drastic action in which case all bets are off.
Big boy has managed to rack up a lot of accomplishments in his short life and tends to have many academic accolades here in our house. So he gets celebrated often.
Little boy is still too little for many of these opportunities but this week he’s had his first big accomplishment and we wanted to make sure to celebrate it.
It’s not about the size of the accomplishment here in our house, it’s about looking for a reason to celebrate each other. As a type-A person, I find it very easy to move from accomplishment to next goal without acknowledging or pausing for too long.
And I want to make sure I don’t do that for my kids. It’s important to celebrate accomplishments, risk taking, stretching out comfort zones, and sometimes just making it through a tough day.
Big fan of celebrating over here. Big fan of remembering that there’s something to celebrate each week, each day. Taking a moment to acknowledge that and finding a way to cheer each other is so joyful.
I am not a fan of competing with others. I don’t subscribe to the ideology that there’s only so many slices of pie to go around. I think we each get our own pie. So today we celebrated little boy making his own pie a little bit bigger.
Yes to celebrating each other in big ways and small ways. Yes to cheering each other on.
Weekly Intention: Ok so plans for this week include finishing off perf, finally writing the doc, and climbing a bunch. My intention this week is to pay attention to how i am moving through things. What beliefs am i holding on to and what can i let go.
This month’s intention is:March: Yes You Can: This is usually your hardest month. No break, still too cold. It feels hard to make it through this month but you can. Yes you can. Keep going. I still haven’t picked my March theme and it’s making me sad.
One way I will leap this week: Hopeful for some leaps around climbing if I am lucky.
One boundary I will set this week: I am going to try to do my exercise and not work at nights.
One area where I will go deeper this week: [same as last time] personally journaling, professionally figuring some next steps for the big rocks.
What do I need to sit with this week? my march plan, this is the week i sort it out or let it go.
I am looking forward to: longer days.
Focus onCore Desired Feelings (lighter, kinder, enough, magic, wild): i still feel the need to be lighter.
This week’s challenges: i am feeling tired and lost a bit at work, i’d like to be able totake a step back but not sure if this week’s insanity will let me.
Top Goals:
Work: write up the 3 for L and 3 for D, email advocates, figure out more steps for analyst+pgm. meet with Brit. Finish perf.
Personal: get back to drawing and journaling. find a book to journal with.
Family: take walks with J. do one thing with N and do one thing with D. celebrate N.
This week, I want to remember: things are going to be okay.
I’ve been thinking a lot about what wellness means to me and where am I giving myself grace or a break and where I am actually letting myself off the hook when I should not.
It’s a delicate balance to become who you want to be while celebrating who you are.
Last year, this week was the first ranunculus of the season for me. I had this shot of me with flowers from the farmer’s market while my husband was away with his brothers.
Today, I was incredibly excited to get to walk to the market again and buy these amazing, beautiful flowers that bring me more joy than any other purchasable item ever has.
They are $6 a bunch and they fill me with unlimited joy.
Yes to simple joys. Yes to color. Yes to spring flowers. Yes yes yes.
The Best Part of this Week: The best part of this week was getting some work done and getting to climb again.
I celebrate: doing a lot of cleaning up this weekend.
I am grateful for: my sore muscles from all the climbing.
This week, I exercised: i’ve continued to do a lot of exercise.
This week, I said yes to: powering through perf.
I said no to: giving myself a hard time about the food.
I honored my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): i’ve been trying to take care of myself and see what i can do to give myself more grace and love.
Top Goals Review:
Work: did not write up the 3 for L and 3 for D, did sort out advocates, talked to R, and talked to A, figured out next steps for analyst+pgm.
Personal: i did some drawing and journaling but not as much as i would have wished, and i did bike to 30 mins.
Family: took walks with J. did one thing with N and did one thing with D.
My mood this week was: i ended up starting last week with a lot of energy and ended it fully depleted. so i didn’t write last week. but this week was better. so taking it one step at a time.
I am proud of: taking care of myself.
I release: that i didn’t get all my exercise done this week.
Here’s what I learned this week: i really do need to journal more, i still feel pretty discombobulated.
