Weekly Reflection 2017 – 38

How I shone this week:  My sister was here all week! Which was wonderful and while the early part of the week was filled with work, we got to spend some quality time together towards the latter end of the week. And it was wonderful. Of course, I am behind at work, in reading, and more but this kind of time with my sister is once in a life time. Books will still be here and so will work. My way to shine this week was to remember that.

Things I wanted to get Done:

  • Work: cleaned email, did blog post, started planning October, did the deck and posters. Still need to think about meetings and no work on the dashboard.
  • Personal: no client call this week either. exercised. ate okay. journaled but only a little. did mapmaker. didn’t do brene’s class. no solution to chocolate 🙁 did the scrapping system.
  • Family: did math with both kids, did back to school night, did school chores, and took photos!

I celebrate: a whole extra week with my sister!

I am grateful for: my sister and all the help she lent me this week!

I nourished myself by: eating as well as I could this week. 

Reflecting on my worries: i apparently didn’t post a living intentionally last week so we’re going to go with i had no worries! lol 🙂

I let go of: getting things done while my sister is here. and reading.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: taking all the minutes i could to be with my sister.
  • mindful: mindful that i will have a lot of catch up this week. but that it was worth it.
  • nourish: i’ve been more relaxed this week but i’m trying to be mindful about it.
  • love: love love love having my sister around.

What made me laugh this week: i laughed a lot with my boys and sister and at work, too.

What I tolerated this week: not getting enough alone time.

My mood this week was: overwhelmed.
I forgive myself for:  craving some alone time.
What I love right now: i love having my sister here and her wonderful energy.

Here’s to a great week 39. 

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 37

How I shone this week:  Well this week took an unexpected turn. My sister called me Sunday and asked me if she can come Monday night. She was in Boston and was planning to come in three weeks but due to a last minute change, she decided to show up. While it was absolutely wonderful, between that and my taking the day off on Tuesday, this week was very crunched so there was much running around to squeeze in going to school and work and exercise and of course being with my wonderful sister. Maybe shining mostly looks like surviving lately for me.

Things I wanted to get Done:

  • Work: i don’t even want to tell you how behind I already am in email. did the blog but not done yet. finished deck and posters. didn’t do October get together. Dashboard still needs iteration 2. moved meetings.
  • Personal: no client calls this week in the end. didn’t journal 🙁 ate okay and exercised. did mapmaker 7 (not 8) , didn’t start brene’s class, no solution to chocolate but i did continue scrapping.
  • Family: did math with both kids, did chores for school, had bday!, checked in with family and took photos!

I celebrate: getting to celebrate my birthday with my sister!

I am grateful for: my sister! my hubby! my boys! 

I nourished myself by: lots of exercise this week. 

Reflecting on my worries: all the days worked out and so did making more room so i could be with my sister.

I let go of: getting it all right this week.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: back to seven days of exercise.
  • mindful: mindful that i need to figure out how to balance things better this week.
  • nourish: i need to stop with the chocolate!
  • love: having my sister around.

What made me laugh this week: i laughed a lot with my boys and sister.

What I tolerated this week: not getting enough work done.

My mood this week was: tired.
I forgive myself for:  not getting enough done.
What I love right now: i love having my sister here and i know i will figure out how to balance things out.

Here’s to a great week 38. 

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 36

How I shone this week:  Here’s how I shone this week: I made it through!! This was an insane week. Monday was a holiday. Tuesday I took off to be with Jake for his birthday but then worked at night until 7pm and then went to bed soon after so I could wake up at 3:45am and get on a plane to Seattle where I spent all day working and then made it back home 1:30am that night (next morning?) only to wake up 5 hours later and go to Nathaniel’s class for a grade lead meeting. And then drove to work and then back up to the school for David’s back to school night. Friday, I went to exercise at work, drove back home to take a phone call for a school event i am helping chair, then i went to midday book club and then back to work until 6pm and then came home, did math with David and then did work while Nathaniel slept and David went to see a movie with Jake. Phew. I am tired just writing all of this down. But I did it all. I tried to do it with grace, too. I showed up. For work, for jake, for my kids, for friends, and for myself. phew!

Things I wanted to get Done:

  • Work: Cleaned email! (though already a bit of a mess now) Didn’t do blog post, went to Seattle, sent the email, started the dashboard, got the email done.
  • Personal: Exercised only 4 times but it was all that was feasible. Ate clean save for the chocolate (even during travel) Didn’t journal enough. Did mapmaker 6 but not 7 yet. Did OLW September and cashed check. I am continuing with my fun new scrapping system and I love it. 
  • Family: went to school for back to school night and N’s conference. We had Jake’s birthday day and took photos. woot!!

I celebrate: surviving this week.

I am grateful for: traveling safe. being safe.

I nourished myself by: sleeping and exercising as much as possible.

Reflecting on my worries: I managed to exercise as much as possible. i survived wednesday and thursday. david had a good week. nathaniel is making friends and adjusting well. packet may or may not be a disaster. time will tell. i got stuff done! things are ok. flight had no problem, i made it back in time. i did not disappoint Jake. phew!

I let go of: being mean to myself about the chocolate but i do want to experiment with trying to stop.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: all of this week was bold.
  • mindful: mindful that i need to get more rest this week.
  • nourish: this one is all about chocolate and letting go of the need to have it.
  • love: i love that my life is so full and textured and varied and layered.

What made me laugh this week: i laughed during book club and with my friends at book club.

What I tolerated this week: not enough sleep!

My mood this week was: tired, worried.
I forgive myself for:  being anxious.
What I love right now:  i love that I have a day off this week (i am taking it off for my birthday.) and that this week is getting closer to a “normal” week.

Here’s to a great week 37. 

2017 Stories – 35 – Our Eclipse Adventure

As the summer was coming to a close, Jake and I kept talking about how we wanted to see if we could squeeze in one more quick holiday. We went to Australia at the beginning of summer so we felt like we wanted one quick one. We thought about SoCal or Tahoe or the middle of California. But couldn’t settle on one.

And then he suggested that maybe we should go see the eclipse. I told him everything was sold out (like six years ago.) The more we looked into it, the more it became impossible to pull it off. So he suggested we email my sister in law who’s originally from Ashland to see if we can pick her brain.

As it worked out, she was going to be in Ashland and had a friend who would let us stay at his house (and he was going to be out of town!) we hemmed and hawed for a few more days but then we just decided it was meant to be and we had to make it happen.

We got up early Saturday morning and got on the road to Ashland. It took us a long time to get there, but when we arrived, we got to see how her friend’s house was absolutely amazing, at the top of a hill with deer and other wildlife around us. It was truly such a gift. 

We spent Saturday and Sunday in Ashland, with the kids playing with their cousins, and just relaxing. Sunday night we went to bed at 7pm and got up at 11:30pm so we could do the four-hour drive to Totality. We were worried about all the potential traffic so we decided to get on the road super early. We had some idea of where we might want to stop but we also weren’t sure what the situation would be like. 

As it turned out, we had no traffic at all. We got to a rest area a little before where we had intended to stop so I told Jake we should check it out since it had bathrooms and all. It was very full but we found a spot pretty close to the bathroom and with a great view of the sun. It was 3am at this point, so we tried to get some sleep (we weren’t super successful.) and then patiently waited till the eclipse. 

We got really lucky with the rest area which had a lot of bathrooms, all of which were being cleaned regularly. There was a church nearby passing out tea and coffee for free. When it came to be time, everyone ahhed at the same time and the birds flew away in fear. It was such a sense of community and a moment of awe.

I had given Jake such a hard time for wanting to see the 100%. Ashland had 97% so I wasn’t sure why we really needed to travel four hours just to see the extra 3% but I was so wrong. My very favorite part of the entire thing ended up being the one minute where I could watch it without glasses. It was an awe inspiring moment that I will never forget for the rest of my life. It was 1000% worth it. I’m so grateful we did it.

When it was over, we’d planned to go straight home even though it was 10+ hours of driving. As it worked out, we took 7+ hours to get back to Ashland and by then it was 7pm so we decided to spend the night in Ashland instead of doing something unsafe. (especially since we hadn’t slept the night before.)

So we spent one final night in Ashland and woke up super early Tuesday to come right back home. All in all, it was a crazy, insane, magical and one of a kind adventure!


Stories from 2017 is a year-long project for 2017. You can read more about my projects for 2017 here.

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 34

How I shone this week: This week was an adventure. It’s not like me to go into the unknown the way I did this week and I am proud of myself for that. I am proud that I showed up, all of us worked together to make all this possible and the adventure was one of a kind. I feel wonderful about it. 

Things I wanted to get Done:

  • Work: Behind in email again of course. Bought tickets to Seattle but didn’t do the blog post. Almost done with September but still needs one final read. No work on dashboard, did the email.
  • Personal: Exercised 6 times this week in 4 days. Ate pretty clean, did quite well when away. Journaled very little and am still working on mapmaker 5. 
  • Family: we had fun! were open minded!! went to Nathaniel’s orientation, David had none in the end. Prepped for school and took a ton of photos!

I celebrate: our adventure!

I am grateful for: this wonderful summer. my family. my boys, and my husband. so much my husband.

I nourished myself by: spending a lot of family time!

Reflecting on my worries: i managed to exercise and ate reasonably well while away. eclipse was amazing!!! didn’t fall off the wagon at all. nothing went wrong.

I let go of: certainty.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: i was bold about our adventure. 
  • mindful: mindful that school is about to start which is both good and bad. i like routine but getting into it will be tricky. also that nathaniel is going into a new school and will need help transitioning.
  • nourish: as we transition into fall, i want to be creative with the foods i will eat.
  • love: i love how much gratitude I’ve been feeling lately.

What made me laugh this week: lots of family time with Jake’s sister in law and laughter in the car, too. Amazing how much we didn’t fight considering we were in the car for 30+ hours this last weekend.

What I tolerated this week: a lot of car sleeping.

My mood this week was: awed.
I forgive myself for:  being tired.
What I love right now:  i love how full I feel right now (mentally, physically and emotionally) in a good way.

Here’s to a great week 35. 

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 33

How I shone this week: I was saying how last week was tough but I must have not realized what was coming. This week has been much rougher, scarier and worrisome. I have been glued to CNN way more than I’d like. I am very frustrated and angry and sad all at once. I am making some changes and trying to figure out what I can do because staying silent is not an option. So… not much shining. I am in the meantime, trying to show up and be my best self.

Things I wanted to get Done:

  • Work: maybe figure out a better system for email.
  • Work: finalize matches, blog post, sites page.
  • Work: be done with september goal.
  • Work: create dashboard.
  • Work: prep preso contents.
  • Personal: exercise 6/7 days. one new exercise.
  • Personal: continue eating clean. one new food.
  • Personal: check in for taxes.
  • Personal: Journal regularly.
  • Personal: Do mapmaker #4
  • Personal: prep food for Oregon
  • Family: plan our trip to Oregon.
  • Family: prep food for Oregon.
  • Work: Woot caught up to email, somewhat. Finalized matches, didn’t do blog but did sites page. Sort of done with September. Didn’t do dashboard. Did preso. 
  • Personal: exercised 8 times and did one new one. ate clean. didn’t like the new food. didn’t do taxes, journaled some and didn’t do mapmaker 4 just yet. or did it partially. bought some food for Oregon but didn’t prep yet. 
  • Family: didn’t really plan oregon but I will asap.

I celebrate: 8 exercises this week. I am getting stronger.

I am grateful for: my manager and his kindness and encouragement.

I nourished myself by: spending some down time this week.

Reflecting on my worries: i exercised, i ate well, all is ok at work but I am still worried about school. we have one week left and none of us feel like it’s coming.

I let go of: getting things done in certain instances so I could choose to rest instead.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: i did 3 classes in one day this week. i spoke my mind again in a meeting with a lot of executives. i decided to go on an adventure even though i am scared.
  • mindful: mindful that i am feeling a lot of feelings still.
  • nourish: trying to relax my mind and have faith that i will still be ok on the go
  • love: i love going on adventures with my boys.

What made me laugh this week: not much this week, to be honest.

What I tolerated this week: all the awful news.

My mood this week was: sad. dismayed and frustrated. 
I forgive myself for:  getting distracted with news at work yet again.
What I love right now:  i love all the exercise i am doing, i am so proud of myself.

Here’s to a better week 34. 

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 31

How I shone this week: I’ve done a lot of work this week. I’ve been working on myself, on my kids, on my work, and in my house. I am connecting with friends. I am doing the best I can. Trying to balance out what’s worth it and what needs to be done and what I love.

Things I wanted to get Done:

  • Work: I won’t lie, email’s been a nightmare. I did send Q2 analysis email and reviewed round one of september work and finished both reports for Q2. I got the day planned. So it’s not all terrible but I am still feeling more under water at work than I’d like.
  • Personal: exercised. eating clean. didn’t schedule PT, not sure I need it. didn’t do the taxes but did cash my checks. i journaled more and did both mapmaker assignments. woohoo!
  • Family: Worked with both D and N on Math and cleaned up both their rooms and closets and bought N some fun stuff for his room. 

I celebrate: a whole month of taking better care of myself.

I am grateful for: having the flexibility in my life to make all this work.

I nourished myself by: good food, exercise, and good friend time this week.

Reflecting on my worries: i exercised, i ate well. i am still a bit behind but getting there. the effort i put in will still matter to me. david loved his camp. i didn’t give up. i might never catch up 🙂 i journaled! 

I let go of: reading as much as i was before. i can’t do it all.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: i doubled my weights in body pump. i tried salmon despite hating it forever.
  • mindful: mindful that i want to be much kinder to my kids. i know they know i love them but sometimes i speak so much more harshly than necessary.
  • nourish: i’m going to keep trying new foods. make new fab4s now that i have my vanilla protein.
  • love: i love how much richer my life has gotten, i hope hope hope to be able to keep all this up.

What made me laugh this week: My boys. Always my boys.

What I tolerated this week: i have a bit more backache than i’d like.

My mood this week was: strong. 
I forgive myself for:  constantly worrying that I will quit. 
What I love right now: i love sitting in the backyard still. sitting here as i write this, in the dark but lovely air. I love it. I also love the early morning hours so much. 

Here’s to a lovely week 32. Here’s to another great week of shining!

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 30

How I shone this week: I have been driving to work and back every single day to exercise. I am so grateful for all the support that makes this possible. I am showing up at work. At home. For Jake. And for me. So much for me.

Things I wanted to get Done:

  • Work: archived all emails darn it. didn’t write docs but made some presos. still working on q2. finalized round one. and got C organized. 
  • Personal: did olw. exercised every day. didn’t schedule PT. didn’t cash check or do taxes. journaled!
  • Family: Worked with both D and N on Math and had fun, too!! 

I celebrate: still here, still doing this!

I am grateful for: jake again and again. i couldn’t do this without him. and Ali for inspiring me.

I nourished myself by: a lot of good food this week.

Reflecting on my worries: i exercised, i are well. i am catching up. effort i put in will or will not matter, i can’t tell. kids seem to be doing okay.

I let go of: being perfect. never going to happen.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: two classes on wednesday and friday was bold.
  • mindful: mindful of journaling. i want to do it more.
  • nourish: will make a list of new proteins. and veggies. 
  • love: i love our CSA and the farmer’s market. getting all the fresh food makes my day.

What made me laugh this week: My boys.

What I tolerated this week: all the muscle ache.

My mood this week was: grateful. 
I forgive myself for:  progress still being slow. I am doing my best every day and then letting it go.
What I love right now: i love sitting in the backyard. i love the fresh air.

Here’s to a lovely week 31. Here’s to keeping things going!

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 29

How I shone this week: Another good week. Things are really hectic at this moment but we are all making it work. Kids are doing their part. Jake’s really helping and I’m trying to do as much as I can in all areas. I am really proud of our family. I am really trying to take it one day at a time and do the best I can in every area. Some days are better than others, of course, but I keep showing up!

Things I wanted to get Done:

  • Work: emails are still a mess. i’ve started the work on the documentation, and more for september and some for data collection. i haven’t sent q2 closing emails. but i am getting there.
  • Personal: I didn’t do OLW july, still don’t feel ready. I want to do it next weekend if all goes well. i did exercise and eat clean. Didn’t schedule PT or taxes but did schedule allergy appointment.
  • Family: Worked with both D and N on Math, supported him  and Jake. yay!

I celebrate: showing up everyday. one day at a time. one good decision at a time.

I am grateful for: my incredibly supportive husband. 

I nourished myself by: lots of water and downtime on the weekend.

Reflecting on my worries: i exercised. I continued to eat well. I caught up a bit more at work. i am closer to ready for the new cycle. i don’t have control on what matters. i am working to make time for me and my knees are just fine! and jake’s meeting went well!!

I let go of: email. i just can’t catch up.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: an hour of body pump was bold. 
  • mindful: mindful of making things work one day at a time.
  • nourish: making a list of new veggies and proteins to try.
  • love: i love summer and the long days and the wide range of food options. 

What made me laugh this week: My boys.

What I tolerated this week: still in pain of course and long work hours.

My mood this week was: harried. 
I forgive myself for: taking my time with moving things forward on all grounds. things take time. progress is slow.
What I love right now: i love all these veggies and proteins i am eating. branching out. 

Here’s to a lovely week 30. Here’s to keeping things going!

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 28

How I shone this week: Woohooo! I did well this week. I did math with both of my kids for hours and tucked the little boy in bed every night, and supported David through a long test. I supported Jake with bouncing ideas for an exciting opportunity he has this week. I exercised and ate well every day. I showed up at work, in person, and tried really hard as much as possible and then let it go when it was time to sleep. I went to the dentist. I went to the blood lab to check my basic stats. I showed up again and again. 

Things I wanted to get Done:

  • Work: can’t say i caught up on email, i basically archived all. i didn’t document anything yet. i did setup the sheets and meetings. I didn’t do q2 closing yet or phase 2 of data. I am hoping i will do the posters today. 
  • Personal: I didn’t do OLW july but I think i want to make a project out of it, so I might wait till next weekend. I did exercise and eat well but didn’t check in for taxes or schedule PT. I will do those this week.
  • Family: Worked with both D and N on Math, supported him  and Jake. yay!

I celebrate: exercising every day, eating well, i am so grateful.

I am grateful for: getting a bit on track for a bit. jake supporting me so i can go exercise.

I nourished myself by: eating really well and sleeping!

Reflecting on my worries: i exercised. I continued to eat well. I caught up a bit at work. i am starting to get ready for the new cycle. i don’t have control on what matters. i am working to make time for me and my knees are just fine!

I let go of: trying to catch up to everything. i’ll get there when i get there.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: i exercised! I showed up to classes i knew nothing about. 
  • mindful: mindful of the fact that I will run out of hours and need to start getting solid about prioritizing work.
  • nourish: nourishing well now. cooking even!
  • love: i am feeling so much gratitude and love for turning things around a tiny bit. 

What made me laugh this week: This teacher on Friday (Molly) was super nice and made me laugh and laugh.

What I tolerated this week: quite a bit of muscle pain and getting used to the protein powder’s taste.

My mood this week was: aching but grateful.
I forgive myself for: being so out of shape and weak. Not getting more done at work.
What I love right now: i love summer. i love being able to sit in the backyard. i love that the sun is up at 6am. I love the long days. 

Here’s to a lovely week 29. Here’s to keeping things going!

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 27

How I shone this week: I haven’t updated in three weeks. I was in Australia that whole time. One week of work and two weeks of vacation. I will post all about it on Tuesday. I shone at work by working really hard and getting most of what we intended done. And I shone the two weeks with family by doing my very best every day.

Things I wanted to get Done:  There were two big items: get work done, go on vacation. I did both. I even travel journaled. 

I celebrate: being home. I loved the vacation but I missed my home.

I am grateful for: the incredible memories we made on vacation.

I nourished myself by: well if vacation isn’t nourishment, not much is.

Reflecting on my worries: our vacation went wonderfully and there were no glitches at all.

I let go of: work. i didn’t work almost at all during the two weeks.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: i was pretty bold with my kiddos during the snorkeling in the reef.
  • mindful: mindful of my family and trying to support each of them well.
  • nourish: i didn’t really nourish all that well there. unless cappuccinos count.
  • love: i loved having this week with my family and creating all these amazing memories. i realized that i want to make sure to do this again next year.

What made me laugh this week: my family made me laugh all week!

What I tolerated this week: a lot of plane trips, a very cold AirBnb but noting else 🙂

My mood this week was: tired but content. 
I forgive myself for: having so many issues around food and my body and exercise and i just wish i could be done with all of this but i am not. i just need to give myself grace and remind myself that i am constantly a work in progress.
What I love right now: i love being back in summer. even though it was really hot here yesterday, i love summer! 

Here’s to a lovely week 28. Ready to settle into a summer schedule!

Weekly Reflection 2017 – 24

How I shone this week: This week felt like it flew by. We had a lot of doctor appointments and a trip to David’s school and then several trips to work and some self-pampering. All in all I feel exhausted but also accomplished and relieved. A chunk of what I was doing at work is finishing. We all had our eyes checked. Finished dentist and orthodontist appointments. Spent a lot of time doing Math with both kids. And I also journaled a lot this week. I am looking forward to a bit of quiet time on the airplane hopefully.

Things I wanted to get Done:  This Saturday I was still bruised from my “not shining” moments so I decided not to work. But I think I still did okay on my todo list. With the exception of exercise, I am doing well.

  • Work:  Not a lot of documenting still but I’ve done more of the planning meetings, data collection, organizing. I did a bit of my plan for the fall but need to do more.
  • Personal: No exercise this week at all. I went to one of the book clubs, prepared my travel journaling, packed all of us, went to mani/pedi.
  • Family: Took photos! Didn’t register David yet but got him setup for deciding. Will wait a bit longer. Did all the doctor appointments. wohoo! 

I celebrate: being almost in vacation mode!

I am grateful for: the journaling, the trip, my family.

I nourished myself by: taking some time for my mani/pedi/hair and spending lovely time with the kiddos.

Reflecting on my worries: ready or not, i am leaving for Sydney tonight. Hopefully I didn’t drop anything on the floor 🙂

I let go of: worrying for the sake of worrying this week. 

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

  • bold: i did journal a bunch about this, still exploring what it means to be bold outside of work.
  • mindful: mindful of our vacation and how/what I want to do with my family.
  • nourish: right now i think i need sleep the most. i need to change my eating habits so I can get better sleep.
  • love: i love my family so much and will miss them a lot while i am gone.

What made me laugh this week: book club and nathaniel and a lot of laughing at work this week.

What I tolerated this week: several extra trips to work, especially on thursday, i went in for an hour.

My mood this week was: flowing. 
I forgive myself for: not getting it all right.
What I love right now: sitting in the backyard and listening to the birds sing at this moment. I am about to leave summer for winter so I am enjoying the few hours I have left for a while.

Here’s to a lovely week 25. We are almost halfway through the year. It both feels like it flew by and feels like we still have a lot of it left! Enough to get plenty done!