Three ways I shone this week: Well this week was all about shining. I did what’s hardest for me: I showed up, I kept showing up, and I stayed present. I am grateful for the gifts of this week. 

Things I wanted to get Done: there was nothing on my todo list this week. I just wanted to be present. And I was. I spent very little time worrying about anything and spent almost all of my time being here,  now. I am very grateful for that.

I celebrate: time off. fulfilling a life dream. the joy my boys had this week.

I am grateful for: time to listen and be true and celebrate others.

I nourished myself by: so much incredible soul food and also incredible food food this week.

Reflecting on my worries: I didn’t let my family down. The camp was amazing, of course. Bad news might still continue, I won’t know for a while. Nothing went wrong. Spring break was amazing for the kids. They had the time of their lives. 

I let go of: getting it right.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

• bold: showing up was bold. showing up again was even bolder.
• mindful: i’ve been mindful of the pain and sorrow we each carry
• nourish: this was a week of nourishing.
• love: i love that my wonderful husband made the space to do this for me.

What made me laugh this week: all the wonderful ladies at the camp.
What I tolerated this week: not much honestly. except for not sleeping well.

My mood this week was: tired but grateful.
I forgive myself for: being me. making it harder than it has to be.
What I love right now: being home. 

Here’s to a wonderful week sixteen!

Three ways I shone this week: There were some challenging moments this week. Moments where it would be easier for me to close and go inward. Moments were I might have chosen poorly. But I tried to remember what it means to shine. I asked myself what I would do if I were choosing to shine. It was helpful to look at life through that mindset. 

• I showed up for work. Several long days this week both physically and emotionally. 
• I agreed to help out a new team.
• I spent several days out in the backyard, choosing to enjoy the sun.

Things I wanted to get Done: 

• I read all the packets and prepared for committee.
• I didn’t figure out our summer trip a bit more or find a different hotel, I decided this could wait until we’re back from our Spring Break.
• I think I finished all my little todos that are taking space on my mind.
• I’ve been spending time thinking about what it means to shine.
• I’m packed and sort of ready for our trip tomorrow.
• Listening more than I talk is always tricky for me. It’s a work in progress.

I celebrate: Spring break baby!

I am grateful for: a little break. i really need some time off and i am heading off to an adventure this week so I am grateful for that.

I nourished myself by: more backyard time. a little more rest than usual.

Reflecting on my worries: I did ok with the packets. my results might indeed be negative but alas. i am still quite exhausted. but i also am so deeply grateful this week.

I let go of: what i have no control over.

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

• bold: it’s been bold of me not to give up when i desperately want to.
• mindful: i’ve been mindful of feeling sad. not trying to numb it or bury it but letting myself feel it.
• nourish: i took some much needed me-time on Friday and took a nice, long bath.
• love: i love my family with all of my heart and soul.

What made me laugh this week: Nathaniel. he’s my angel.
What I tolerated this week: long, grueling work days. especially tuesday.

My mood this week was: tired, anxious and then sad. but still filled with deep moments of joy and gratitude.
I forgive myself for: things that are outside of my control.
What I love right now: having the sun finally out and enjoying the backyard again.

Here’s to a wonderful week fifteen. Hello Spring Break!