Finding My Art Journal Voice

Apologies for posting two reposts in one week. This is a post I wrote for Julie’s Art Journal Everyday series in November. It talks a little bit about my art journaling journey and process. I wanted a copy preserved here.

The first time I decided I wanted to keep an art journal was in 2007. I had a 7-gypsies book in my stash, I decorated its cover with a photo I took and my word for that year.

I was super excited to fill its pages. During the next few weeks, I made a few collage pages. Some inspired by artists I admired, others using techniques I’d learned in the classes I took online. After the initial 4-5 pages, I didn’t touch that book again until 2010. When I finally finished it last year, I felt a sense of relief. Three years of trying again and again, and I was finally able to finish one art journal. I’ll admit that it was a lot of effort. I spent every single day in November of 2010 creating pages, just to finally be done with the book. I remember feeling frustrated each day and while I was proud to have completed it, the book just didn’t feel mine. It felt like a collection of my version of other people’s techniques and styles. It was beautiful. It just wasn’t “me.”

When I made my list of projects for 2011, art journaling weekly was at the top of the list. I knew I wanted to art journal more (I’d wanted to art journal more since 2007!) but I truly didn’t have an idea what that meant. What exactly was art journaling? When I looked around to people whose art I admired, I saw a wide variety. There was acrylics, collage, watercolor, fabric, drawing. I can go on and on. Instead of feeling inspired by the variety, I felt confused and frustrated. I didn’t know what was “right.” Where should I start? What did an art journal really look like? I signed up for a bunch of different classes, all claiming to teach me how to “get inspired.” But they just managed to confuse me further.

And then, two pivotal things happened. The first one was a blog post by Julie. I had seen similar week-long pages by Judy Wise and admired them, but I had never before thought I could create them, too. Julie’s post and the way she broke down her process was exactly what I needed. So I purchased the same journal and immediately started doing my own week-long pages. I used a wide variety. One week it would be watercolors:

Then doodling.

Then acrylics.

And then back to watercolors.

This project was a great step for me in unleashing my inner-artist. I would create some background pages on the weekends and then each day, I did a little bit of stamping, some coloring, and some writing. It felt very doable and I had a lot of fun with it. You can see all my pages here.

As much as I loved this new weeklong project, it wasn’t enough. I wanted to create those beautiful, artistic pages I saw others create. I kept searching for my artistic voice. I signed up for every class I could find online. My second pivotal event was taking Christy Tomlinson’s She Had Three Hearts Workshop. I’d already taken a previous course by her and it was good so I signed up for this one thinking it would be fun, too. But it was so much more than that, for me. As part of her class, Christy demonstrated several different mediums. She used videos so I could see exactly how each medium worked and there were a few that I had never tried that spoke to me.

Her class finally gave me the inspiration to sit down and create some pages. (Instead of just looking at them, bookmarking ideas, and never creating.) I bought a few new supplies and started to create daily. Within a few weeks, I’d accumulated a bunch of pages and while I liked these more, I still felt like something was lacking. My pages looked off to me but I kept creating and trying these new mediums anyway. One day, I was talking to my husband and I asked him what he thought of my most recent page. He said it was pretty but that the colors looked a little muddy.

It’s going to sound weird but, for whatever reason, it was exactly what I needed to hear at that very moment. His words made me realize the problem I had all along! If you’ve ever seen my scrapbook pages, I always use a white cardstock background. I like the way colors pop out on white. And yet, when I sat to art journal the first thing I did was to paint my background. That’s what all the classes tell you to do. It’s supposed to help you overcome the fear of the “blank page.” But I hated the way blue looks against a page with a yellow background. I disliked that a colored background meant any layer I added didn’t have the true color anymore. So, the very next day, I used a white background instead:

And suddenly, everything clicked for me. I’d finally found my way. Throughout the next few weeks, there were several other things that fell into place to define my personal way of art journaling but it all started with that white background. It freed me to let go of many other preconceived ideas I’d gotten from my classes.

So let me walk you through how I create a simple art journal page today and all the decisions I make along the way:

The first thing I do is cut a piece of paper. I do not use a journal. I like my pages to be loose so I can stitch all over them, so I no longer use bound journals. This, too, was a big change from the classes I took. They almost always tell you to get a journal.

I then pick some stencils I like and happy, bold, heavy body acrylic colors and create my focal point. Yet another no-no for art journaling according to the classes I take. You’re supposed to do your background first and focal point last. Not me.

I rarely use water. I tend to take my dry brush, dip it in the paint and go for it. I like the look it gives on the dry paper. Oh, and I use watercolor paper and I never gesso. I like the texture the watercolor paper gives my page. I don’t like how gesso feels. Unless the medium desperately needs it (like acrylic ink!s) I will not use gesso.

So here’s how it looks after my initial step. I just used two stencils and then similar colors to create a bit of a border. It’s messy and not tidy:

The next thing I do is stamp my saying. Each of my art journal pages have a saying. A meaning, a thought. To me, it’s a crucial part of the process. I do the same thing with my titles on my scrapbook pages. It’s the meaning behind this page. Why I created this particular page on this particular day. Most of the time, it’s a thought on my mind. Very rarely, it can be a quote or a song lyric. As I was stamping this one, I made a mistake and I wanted to keep the photo so you could see that it happens all the time:

That “f” is supposed to be a “t.” So I used gesso to erase it (another advantage of a white background) and re-stamped on it when it dried. Here’s the page with the full title:

The next thing I do is use some of the stamps I have as texture and layers. I’ve accumulated these over time and I have a baggie of them so I can use different ones on each page. (Though I always seem to prefer the same few stamps.)

Here’s how the page looks once I’ve stamped on it some. This is another area where I make it my own. I have a stamp I use on every single page. It’s my “signature.” It’s the little “be you” stamp on the upper left corner of the photo.

I then added some pen outline to the butterflies and circles to tidy them up a bit and make sure they popped out. The last thing I do is stitch all around the page and I am done. Sometimes I might stitch on my focal point, too. But not this time.

You might find it too sparse or even boring. That’s totally ok. The thing about art journaling is that it’s personal. What speaks to me might not speak to you and vice versa.

After four years and many, many, many pages, I feel like I am finally finding my personal voice and style of art journaling. I create a page almost every day and most of them are simple like the one above. I love the process and the end result. Sometimes I vary the look and try something new. But most of the time, I stick to what I love and what speaks to me.

That’s the trick with art. Doing what speaks to you. If you’re struggling like I was, I recommend throwing all the “rules” you’ve learned out the window and trying some new things. Here are some ideas of what you can try:

1. A different type of paper
I tried everything I had at home and bought a few new things. I finally found one specific paper I love the feel of and now I use that most of the time. I also found I love watercolor paper and not canvas. I love loose paper and not bound.

2. A different medium (watercolor, acrylic, pan pastel, pastel, oil, etc.)
I much prefer heavybody acrylics. I also adore pan pastels. I use watercolor on my sketches, but rarely on my art journal pages. I do like the feel of watercolor pencils and have it on my list to try them more often. The medium you use can make a world of difference. Don’t go out and buy a bunch of things but see if you can find a friend to borrow supplies from or see if you can go to a local studio for open art time.

3. A different background
Try using white. Try putting tissue paper all over the background. Or stamping all over it. Try using black paper. Kraft paper. See what speaks to you.

4. A different order
Dare to do your focal point first. Do the journaling first. Or create a page with no focal point. With three focal points. Just experiment on your own with doing things in a completely different order so you can see what inspires you the most.

Most importantly, the best thing you can do is to keep creating. Before I discovered my way, I made over 200 pages. If I hadn’t made all those pages, I would never have discovered that I didn’t like the way the colors looked muddy. I would never have found the paper I like or the colors I prefer. Lessons and bookmarks are great inspiration, but you can only learn and grow by trying. By experimenting and finding your own personal preferences.

Give yourself the time and space to play and discover what feels authentic to you. Take it from me: you do not have to do it the way everyone else does. We are all different and we have the space to express our uniqueness; that’s what makes art so incredibly powerful.

Thank you for letting me share my own journey with you

2012 Projects – Journey into Collage

Another brand new project I am trying to tackle for 2012 is called Journey into Collage.

I will admit that I am super-scared even at the idea of collage. Especially when I see the works of Teesha Moore. Most of the collage I’ve seen uses magazines and I don’t have any magazines. I mean none. And I have no intention of getting them. I also don’t believe I am creative enough to make something so unique like she does.

So, even though I’ve considered it on and off, I’ve never really tackled collage. I couldn’t even really define it for you. I just decided somewhere along the line that it wasn’t something I could ever really do.

But then Donna Downey started posting her Collage Monday creations and suddenly it looked fun. It looked like something I might want to tackle, play around with, experiment with. Without buying magazines. Maybe using my scrappy and mixed media stash.

I’m not entirely sure how it’s going to work out, to be honest.

And I’ll be even more honest and tell you I might walk away from this one entirely.

But I am going to give it a try. I’ve already started a Pinterest Board with inspiration. I will be using a Moleskine sketchbook and just taking it one step at a time.

The goals are:
1. Experiment with paper-based collage – see if it’s something I enjoy
2. Find a way to make it meaningful for me
3. Create one page a week.
4. Try different mediums, textures and styles
5. Find a collection of artists who inspire me and whose work I might want to emulate as a starting point

There you go. Pretty simple I know but this one scares me quite a bit.

If you know any collage artists that you like I’d love for you to leave a comment so I can compile a list.

December Daily – Day Fourteen

And here we are for day fourteen. This month is going too too fast.

Here’s the next spread:

The left side was just a photo so I only added stickers:

the right side is one photo of each kid and how grateful I am for each:

and on the back is a little story about our little deer and how much Nathaniel loves it:

And that’s it for day fourteen.

Art Journaling – Fabriano Artistico – Set 3

So here’s the next set of Fabriano pages:

The full text reads: Look around, life is magnificent.

this page uses acrylics. I wanted to not do art today but decided to do something simple anyway.

And here’s the next page. I am now on to the cold press (rough) pages:

The full text reads: Rainy days are part of life, just like sunshine.

Another super-simple one. I used pan pastels on this page.

And here’s the next page:

The full text reads: It takes courage to say no.

I used pan pastels on this one. I wanted it to look like the hand was saying stop.

And here’s the next page:

The full text reads: You and only you determine your self-worth.

Uses Julie’s awesome face stencils again. The right eye is a bit creepy and it’s a mixture of pan pastels and acrylics.

Well here we go. That’s the four for this week. More coming next week.


I am creating multiple art journaling pages a week for now. You can read more about it and the book I am using for these pages at the top of this blog post.

Creative Jump Start Summit 2012

A few months ago, my sweet, kind friend Nathalie Kalbach asked me if I would participate in her awesome Creative Jump Start Summit 2012.

Here’s what she says about it:

January is approaching–a month that is full with promises, resolutions and intentions. A month that for many is following lots of holiday celebrations, family gatherings and other end-of-the-year events.

It’s also time to start creating again. But suddenly there it is for some of us: that lost feeling on how to start. Here is the cure

A group of wonderful, inspiring and creative women from around the globe in the scrapbooking and mixed media fields have joined together for the Creative Jump Start Summit 2012. We are coming together to tell you how we get back into the creative groove and how we get our creative juices flowing. We want to share with you to help you jump start your creativity in 2012.

And a little video so you can see all the other artists who are participating (it’s quite a list!):

Here’s how it works:

1. Throughout January we will share videos, audio or pictures to inspire you –
2. You sign up for a newsletter HERE and, in January 2012, you will receive a link and the password to unlock the view of the daily materials as soon as they go life
3. You watch the presentations and you will be hopefully inspired to be more creative—all for FREE!

Yep, completely free.

See you there!

Drop by Drop

This post was posted on the Big Picture Classes blog a few weeks ago but I thought it would be good to post it here, too. I hope you like it.

In Turkish, we have a saying. It loosely translates to:

“Drop by drop, it becomes a lake.”

This is how time works. Negligible amounts of time dedicated to the small task can end up amounting to tangibile, visible changes in your life.

I wanted to share some examples of my personal projects with you today. I will share three different examples with you. Just to show you that the idea applies across the board.

One of my goals this year was to learn how to sketch. I can’t draw at all but I’ve always wanted to. I loved watching people sit with a piece of paper and pencil and create works of art within moments. I saw other people’s sketchbooks and felt a strong desire to have my own. I was quite scared of this goal and postponed it for a while. Finally, on April 10, I decided enough was enough and I would start sketching every single day. Here are the two sketches I made on that day:

Yes, I told you. I can’t draw.

Alas, I kept trying. I dedicated 15-30 minutes a day to it. Every single day since April 10. I took other people’s sketches and tried to create my own versions. I used charcoal, colored pencils, pastel pencils, and eventually watercolors. I used photos as inspirations, too.

In the process I found artists that inspired me and I copied their work. Since I wasn’t selling anything and made sure to give credit, I didn’t worry about copying.

my version of the amazing sketch by Andrea Joseph:

Then I started to draw off of photos:

and finally moved to watercolors:

With just 15 minutes or so every day, I was able to improve my sketching significantly. To the point that I am no longer scared to sit and draw. Yes, I still have days where I hate my creations and I have a long way to go before I can use my own imagination, but I am no longer scared when I see something. I no longer think “I could never do that.” I know it’s just a matter of time, patience, and dedication.

All it took to have faith in myself (and to draw better) was 15 minutes a day.

Here are two more examples of how regular dedication of time can make a tangible difference in your life:

Another project I worked on this year was starting to exercise. I have never, ever exercised in my life. I don’t do any sports, and I don’t even know how to ride a bike. On October 2, 2010, I decided enough was enough and I would start exercising every day. I started with a one mile walk around the neighborhood and slowly increased to a 45-minute exercise of 2 miles of walking and 1 mile of running. As of July 2011, I had lost 32 lbs. I now weigh less than I did when I was 19 years old. Yes, I did watch what I was eating but I’d been doing that for years. What made this work was the 45 minutes a day I dedicated to working out. And now that my stamina is higher, I was able to change things up so I run 2 miles instead of walking so my 45 minute exercise is down to 21 minutes. I can use the extra time to be with my family.

And, finally for something different, my oldest son just learned how to read a year ago and he’s becoming more and more interested in books. I wanted to spend 2010 reading books to him to encourage his love for reading. Since I didn’t grow up here, I asked around a lot and made a list. It had most of the classics from Charlotte’s Web to The Wizard of Oz. I dedicated 20 minutes a day to read to him. Sometimes it would be during breakfast and other times, near bedtime. Just 20 minutes a day. I’d read to him and when we finished a book, he’d tell me what he thought of the book. (you can read more about the project here🙂 As of November 12, we’ve read 48 books together. Just 20 minutes a day.

So let’s summarize. With 15-45 minutes a day of dedication a day on each task, in less than one year, I was able to improve my drawing, lose 32 lbs., and read 48 books. If those are not excellent results, I don’t know what is. So next time you’re complaining about how you don’t have time to start something, remember that it takes a lot less time to accomplish a goal than you might think.

More importantly, what I learned when I was writing the Reclaiming My Time workshop is that you have a lot more free time each day than you think. All it takes is a good, hard look at where your time goes. I promise you, you will be surprised. As you can see from my examples above, taking just a few minutes each day to do things I value has changed my life. It made me more productive, happier, and more fulfilled.

Remember that how you spend your time is how you spend your life.

Daily Sketching – Week 36

So I’ve been trying to change things up a bit. Think more about what I want. Just not 100% sure. But working on it. Sorry for the blurrier photos, light here has been bad.

I started the week with more girls:

Monday:

Tuesday:

here’s the pencil version:

Then I moved to doing a bit more of a sketch/diary thing which is what I want to do more:

Wednesday:

Thursday:

Friday:

and then I took Saturday off. I am still trying to figure out what direction I should take the sketching but I like this more diaryish one. I do still need some time to think about it more.


Daily Sketching is a weekly project for 2011. You can see a detailed post on my steps here.

December Daily – Day Thirteen

Work’s been exceptionally busy so I am trying to keep these simple. Today’s spread came in the mail. It was a lovely surprise from Big Picture Classes with a beautiful book, a card, a sweet felt ornament and some delicious chocolate. I was so surprised and grateful that I decided to make my page on it.

left side is the felt ornament. I had to wrestle Nathaniel for it. He wanted to put it on the tree but I won of course. i loved it so much:

right side is the beautiful card. I loved it as is. I added a little sticker and the date.

And that’s it for day thirteen.

A Book a Week – Succulent Wild Woman

I honestly didn’t care to read Succulent Wild Woman or any other books by Sark before. But, for some reason, I suddenly wanted to have this book and as soon as I ordered it, I got very excited about it and couldn’t have it in my hands soon enough. Then I read the whole thing in one day.

And I loved it.

I think I need to read it a few more times to be able to write about it intelligently. But I worried that the handwritten pages would annoy me. They didn’t. I worried her tone would annoy me. It didn’t.

I found the book was very raw and honest and yet not depressing which I think is relatively hard to accomplish. I think anytime someone is that honest, the results are always wonderful and though provoking and truly worthwhile.

I look forward to reading more Sark.

A Fine Balance

It’s been a rough few days here. Mostly due to work where I am trying to get some things done and there’ve been some challenges. But if you read here regularly, you know I don’t talk about work here. So this post is not about work. This post is about the fine balance between positive self-encouragement and negative self-talk.

I am fantastic on the latter. Not so great on the former.

The funny thing is, I firmly believe that I regularly work on improving myself. In many areas of my life, I try to be better. And not even better by other people’s definitions but by my own. I do the things I want to do. I work on the things I want to be better at. That’s why I started trying to sketch. Or even why I started to exercise. I didn’t lose the weight for my husband or mom or anyone else but me. I decided it was time and I just did it. While there are still areas where I falter often, I am generally pretty good at trying to tackle things I feel the need to improve.

Where I struggle is when I disappoint someone else. Or even when I think I disappointed them. (Often the other party doesn’t seem to care or worry nearly as much as I do.) I can’t seem to get over the feeling of how my inadequacy caused me to let them down. I beat myself up and go into the bad place of where I nonstop think that I am not enough. I worry about it so much that I become even more unhelpful. It’s no longer constructive.

When I look at other people who have the fine balance more under control, they seem to be able to say “That sucked, I’m sorry, I’ll do better next time.” They take notes on what to do (or not to do) next time.

And then they move on.

That’s the thing. That particular moment has passed. Even if I let someone else down, I cannot take it back. I’ve come to realize that’s the part that kills me. I so want to take it back. I so want to do better. I so want to be better. But the moment has passed. There is absolutely nothing I can do to take it back. And it’s okay.

It’s okay that I cannot take it back.

Anyone who’s decent will forgive me. Because when people see me, they can tell I care. They can tell I am working on improving and they can tell I would never intentionally let anyone down. I am confident that this is obvious about me. So instead of falling apart, what I’d like to do is stay on the constructive side of this fine balance. Be able to step back, take some notes, figure out next steps and try not to get myself into a similar situation next time.

I believe I can do this.

I believe this is what I need to work on. Not trying to do it right each time. Which is unattainable. But trying to stay on the constructive side of the fine balance between improving and feeling not enough. Knowing that I am always enough just the way I am will give me the perspective that I need to improve the steps so the same situation doesn’t occur the next time.

Yes, it all starts with knowing that I am enough just the way I am.

No matter what.

2012 Projects – Weekly Sketching

One of my goals for 2011 was to sketch more. I wanted to keep daily sketch journals or be like those people you see sketching everywhere.

I loved the idea of being able to draw. I started with portraits but then moved on to anything I wanted. I made many many many pinterest boards with ideas and started sketching daily. Here are a few of my favorite sketches from 2011:

I started with black and white but then moved to color. I love both of them in different ways.

I then moved to watercolors which is what I am exploring at this very moment. I love using watercolors and really would like to explore the medium more. I will admit that I haven’t really taken the time to properly learn how to use watercolors but I hope and plan to.

So after sketching for over 8 months, I decided I wanted to focus on illustration style for a while. I became a huge fan of Abigail Halpin’s whimsical style and wanted to emulate it and come up with my own version. I then started taking Jane Davenport’s I heart Drawing class which is more about drawing bodies and body forms. I am hoping that by the end of that class, I will have a slew of ideas on what to practice.

My goal for 2012 is to find my own little sketching voice. Whether it’s drawing illustrations or landscapes or portraits or whatever. I would like to play with different mediums, shapes, sizes, types and get to a place where I can create drawings of my own. My own ideas, my own style.

Let’s see if it works out!

December Daily – Day Twelve

Monday was all about following up on Sunday.

Nathaniel presented his board at school so I added that to the following page from yesterday:

and then I wrote about family night where we all build legos together, even though it was on Sunday:

And that’s it for day twelve.