Note to Self – Week 13

This week’s page takes its inspiration from another Life Book class. This one was by Roben-Marie Smith. She did this fun tag and I liked it but no ideas jumped at me for days after I watched it. So I thought and thought and finally decided to print all the inspiring photos I’d pinned as a reminder to keep my core desired feelings in the forefront of my mind. I printed them all out, lay them all over my page, designed each of the four corners for one of my words.

I glued them all and then painted and stamped a little bit on top. It’s not art that I painted but I love looking at it and it makes me feel all of the feelings i want to feel this year and what can be better than that?

here’s the left:

and the right:

Note to self: choose to feel alive. serene. abundance and open!


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self - Week 12

This week’s page is my version of the first Life Book 2015 assignment by the awesome Tam herself. It was meant to be the guiding light and I decided to make this angel I’d made a few years ago but only using white and yellow hues.

The text for this week says: choose the light.

There’s something magical, for me, about using white and yellow. Something magical in the shiny pages. Something magical in light. I don’t often choose to follow the light. I can easily get myself wrapped up in the darkness and lose sight of the joy and the light. I like the lantern and I have been choosing to surround myself with more light this year which I hope will remind me that it’s always there, always available to me.

here’s a front view, you can’t really see the shiny:

i love the shine:

Note to self: choose the light. it’s always there and it is a choice no matter how it feels. no matter how i feel. the choice to choose the light is always, always there.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self – Week 11

This week’s page takes its inspiration from Serena Bridgeman’s lesson from Life Book 2014. Her weathered background was so very beautiful that I yearned to do something similar. I don’t think mine hit the mark but I tried.

The text for this week says: be bold.

I was very scared to make this page. The more I watched her make hers, the more I believed I just couldn’t make mine. When I don’t know how to do something, I generally approach it with a lot of apprehensiveness and fear. I keep telling myself I can’t do it. I worry about failing. I worry about hating the result.

But who cares?

In the end, why does it matter if I fail or if I hate it? And, more importantly, how will I learn if I never try? It’s not possible to learn without trying. And, yes, I can’t fail if I don’t try but I also can’t succeed without trying. Nothing is possible without trying.

so this week’s reminder is to be bold. To try. To go for it!

here’s a side view it’s shiny:

i love the shine:

Note to self: don’t hesitate. go for it. be bold.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self – Week 10

This page was inspired by Dyan Reaveley’s lesson from Life Book 2014. It’s a simple page and it wasn’t hard to do. I painted the background with all different stencils and other fun things and then I used a human stencil to make them all black and then left one to stand out by using the opposite part and stenciling around the body.

The text says: choose to be you.

Part of being brave, for me, is being wholly myself. Embracing who I am. Not just being okay with it, but fully owning it. Being proud of it. I am always trying to improve as a person. I have many many many flaws. Many.

But I am trying. And I also have many wonderful characteristics, just like everyone else. I want to remember that what I am best at is being who I am. There’s a reason I am who I am and I want to embrace it 100%. I love many other people and I also want to love who I am.

All of me.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self - Week 9

For this first page, I used Tascha Parkinson’s lesson from Life Book 2014. The subject was about overcoming fears and she made a fish with popups. I decided to take her idea but instead of fears, I wrote my core desired feelings.

I made mine a lotus flower where each leaf is a desired feeling I have and my word of the year. The idea being that if I embrace them all, I will bloom. These feelings make me bloom. So each of the front petals lifts up and the words are underneath.

the text says: you get to choose how you feel

Because I do. Every day. every moment. I get to choose.

here are some shots that show it better:

from the side:

with the petals a bit more open:

note to self: your desired feelings help you be the best version of yourself.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self - Week 8

This was another page where I just went rogue. I wanted to do something different from Tam’s lesson. I didn’t know what but I wanted an angel. Not sure of why, I just began to draw so I could see where it would take me.

I ended up with this girl with golden wings (maybe it’s the same girl from last week?) crouching down and her wings fully open.

Text says: find your wings

a reminder to have courage. to open my wings fully and fly. It’s implied that we all have wings. We’re not getting new ones, we’re not making wings, we’re finding the ones we already have because we all already have them.

here’s a sideways look:

Note to Self: you already have all you need.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self - Week 7

For this first page, I started out with Christy Tomlinson’s lesson from Life Book 2014 but then I just totally decided to do my own thing.

I wanted to draw a girl’s face. Something simple with wings and my word for 2015. I wanted a reminder to be brave that week so I just sat and drew her. And gave her some golden wings. I did it all pretty quickly and tried not to overthink it too much.

I loved the end result. Something simple and lovely.

here’s a sideways look to see all the shimmer:

I can never have enough reminders to be brave and to be me.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self – Week 6

For this first page, I used Tam’s lesson from Life Book 2014. She taught us how to make these very simple and beautiful flowers.

These are made using your fingers and without a lot of thought. I love the way they look. They made me really happy to make. So much so that I felt compelled to write “beauty is everywhere” on the bottom after I was done.

Because it really is, isn’t it? It’s everywhere. How incredibly beautiful is each flower. The magnificent trees. All the shades of green in each tree never cease to amaze me. I feel like I am surrounded by so much beauty and yet I take so much of it for granted. I do the same thing with my family, my health, my home. The things that are just here. Things I depend on deeply but don’t realize that they are such huge privileges.

I am so lucky. Beauty is everywhere around me. In nature, in the people I love, in the food I get to taste. In the body that houses my soul.

Everywhere.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self – Week 5

For this first page, I used Kate Thompson’s lesson from Life Book 2014. She is magnificent with drawing faces. Me, not so much. But I felt like trying anyway.

This whole page is painted gold and is really shiny. I am not sure why I didn’t take a shot of it sideways so you can see. But just imagine it. :)

In the spirit of bravery, I wrote down the lyrics of the Alanis song I was listening to at the time. It says: I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone. You live, you learn. You lose, you learn. You cry, you learn. You live, you learn. You scream, you learn.

To learn, you have to live. And if you live, no matter the result, you learn something from the experience. As with my word, I want to be brave this year. I want to bite off more than I can chew. I want to try harder, do more, work harder. I want to learn. I want to push myself. I want to learn about what I am capable of. I want to scream, cry, laugh, live.

I want to feel alive.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self – Week 4

This page was originally supposed to be a Tam assignment for Life Book 2014. Representing ourselves as an animal that represents growth and strength. But I didn’t feel like drawing any animals.

At the time, I was taking several big leaps of courage and I was thinking a lot about being brave so I decided I wanted to draw this girl leaping from one side of a cliff to another. I wanted her to be doing it gracefully, fearlessly, joyfully. Alas, my drawing skills aren’t that advanced. I tried and tried and this was the best I could end up with. I don’t love it but I also don’t hate it.

It says: the courage is in choosing to leap, not in the outcome, so celebrate the leap.

I wanted to remind myself that bravery is not about not being afraid. But it’s also not about the outcome. It’s about trying. Being willing to try. To jump without knowing what’s on the other side. To have faith.

This is a good one for me to remember as I go on my journey of being brave this year.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self – Week 3

For this first page, I used Alena Hennessy’s lesson from Life Book 2014. Alena’s style is very fluid and intuitive and I wanted to emulate that.

This page also has no text. It’s easier for me to be organized, have a plan, and write my thoughts down. It’s considerably harder for me to just go with the flow. For this page, I painted the whole page first, and then I drew my flowers and painted over everything else so what you’re seeing in the flowers is what was underneath.

This one reminds me that we all have layers. What you see at face value isn’t always all there is. It also reminds me that what’s here now doesn’t have to be the final version of what there will be. Like art, we are always evolving. We are not finished products. And anything can be painted over. We get to choose who we are. If we don’t like what we see, we keep changing till we do.

It also reminds me to be more fluid. To trust my intuition. To trust that beauty emerges no matter what.

here’s a closeup of the left side:

and right side:

Thanks to Alena for teaching me so much.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.

Note to Self - Week 2

For this first page, I used Carissa Paige’s lesson from Life Book 2014. The subject was about home and I thought a lot about what home means to me and what I consider to be my home.

I grew up in Istanbul, Turkey and my sister and parents are still there. A lot of what I consider to be my home is all the way there. I now live in the Bay Area and am married with my own family here. So my heart is always split. Some days I feel like both are my home and other days I feel like neither might be. And the truth probably lies somewhere in between as it always does.

So for this page, I collages some pieces to represent my childhood on one side, and some from my adulthood on the other. I then drew the globe (if I had planned it better, I would have put my sister and I on the right side, closer to Turkey and my boys and me on the left, closer to the US but alas I didn’t plan it.) in the middle and painted all over it.

Then I wrote: Home is where the people you love are.

isn’t that the truth.

here’s a closeup of the left side:

and right side:

this one has a lot of texture:

So, next time I find myself wondering where I belong, I remember: I belong with the people I love.


Note to Self is a project for 2015. You can read more about it here.