Weekly Reflection 2018 – 41


How I got Stronger this week: I want to be honest, this was a tough week for me. There has been many tough periods this year and I appear to be in the middle of another one. I feel like I am balancing too many things and they are all falling apart. At least I feel like they are falling apart. Each individual thing is small and possibly inconsequential but when I add it all together it feels like an avalanche and I just can’t breathe. I am not exactly sure how to find my way out at the moment. But I haven’t given up yet. I am trying. And I guess that’s going to have to do for this week.

Top Goals Review:  

  • Work:  i did get started on other things, and worked on the december summit a little bit.
  • Personal: i can’t really say that i got back to routine, i journaled only once, didn’t draw, ate i’d say mediocre at best and likely just not well, i exercised but not enough and i slept so so
  • Family: i spent a teeny tiny amount of time with david on his project, and did not find a volunteer opportunity for David yet but i did hug them a bunch. though not enough. never enough.

I celebrate: making it through this week.

I am grateful for:  my husband who showers me with kindness more often than i deserve.

Karen’s Points: this week i had a bunch of morning commitments so all I got in was one body pump and one 1.5 mile run.

A Change I embraced: I rested a lot this week, I needed it even though I had a lot of work.

I let go of: so much this week. i just couldn’t work crazy hours after last week. so i paced myself.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: i got to meet with an old friend and it was lovely. 
  • Magical: getting to work from home both monday and friday was awesome.
  • Lighter: i don’t feel light right now. so much so that i feel like i have to pick light as my word next year.
  • True: i am working so hard at getting better.

Where I chose Joy: i worked at home when i needed it.

I showed up for:  nathaniel at school this week.

A Mistake I made this week: i have been dropping the ball a lot but i am trying to catch up.

What I tolerated this week: just overall feeling of being down. 

My mood this week was: exhausted. dejected and just worn out.

I forgive myself for: being where i am. this is how i feel right now. 

What I love right now: my husband. the good weather. kindness of everyone.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 40


How I got Stronger this week: This might have been one of the longest weeks I’ve had this whole year. I was long and draining and I am grateful that work went well but I am exhausted both physically and emotionally. Saturday’s news just drained the very last bits I had in me and I’ve been in self care mood ever since. I wasn’t even sure I was going to write here today but this space is my little grounding space. So I come, I write, so I can remember. This was a tough week and may we never forget what’s possible and how much progress there still is to make. 

Top Goals Review:  

  • Personal: i got a mediocre amount of sleep, a lot of nightmares this week.
  • Family: i loved my people so much.
  • Work: i was all in all the way

I celebrate: the offsite being over and that it went well.

I am grateful for:  being at home and getting to rest a bit.

Karen’s Points: just one body pump this week.

A Change I embraced: oh jeez. all of this week. was intense. i embraced it.

I let go of: trying to get anything done besides the offsite. it can all wait.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: doing this offsite for the first time.
  • Magical: being in carmel was magical and lovely.
  • Lighter: i feel lighter now that it’s over.
  • True: i am still really tired and worn out. and will take some time to recover.

Where I chose Joy: i stayed, i showed up, i participated.

I showed up for:  work mostly.

A Mistake I made this week: i made many little ones. 

What I tolerated this week: exhaustion. mental and emotional (and physical.) yet again.

My mood this week was: execution-focused and then very sad on saturday. 

I forgive myself for: being sad. 

What I love right now: i am looking forward to what I hope will be a quieter October.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 39


How I got Stronger this week: I tried to work out as often as possible this week which was reasonably challenging because I worked a lot. A LOT. but I also hung out with my loves and even had a quick dinner with a good friend which was lovely. I was out socializing most of the weekend. Growing, learning, stretching. 

Top Goals Review: 

  • Personal: i did the best I could.
  • Family: I was quite present for the most part I think.
  • Work: October occupied all of this week indeed.

I celebrate: getting the planning process out the door.

I am grateful for:  a really lovely weekend away

Karen’s Points: one run, 3 body pumps this week. not awful. 

A Change I embraced: going to Tahoe was a change and I really did my best to truly enjoy it.

I let go of: trying to take alone time while in Tahoe. Too much going on.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: our weekend in tahoe is my fresh of the week. 
  • Magical: watching the sun come up on Saturday over the beautiful lake.
  • Lighter: i felt light and peaceful while we were away. especially thanks to intermittent internet.
  • True: i am still really tired and worn out. but i am also grateful.

Where I chose Joy: going away for the weekend was really joyful.

I showed up for:  my family. and at work. and even my friend a bit this week.

A Mistake I made this week: I wasn’t as kind as i should have been, my goal is to always always be kinder than necessary but I fail as often as i succeed.

What I tolerated this week: exhaustion. mental and emotional (and physical.)

My mood this week was: peaceful on the lake. 

I forgive myself for: having unnecessary anxiety. it’s such a part of me, I don’t know how to not have it.

What I love right now: i am so looking forward to all the books that are scheduled to come out in October.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 38


How I got Stronger this week: This was a long week, I worked a lot and had really long days, sleepless nights, and a lot of headache. Despite all that, I managed to work out Monday, Tuesday and Friday this week. Not as much as I would have liked but still not nothing. I also showed up again and again in all the areas at work and at home as my best self as often as I could. I am calling it a best effort week as opposed to a really good week. 

Top Goals Review: 

  • Work:  october getting close to being done, planning officially started, december not really getting anywhere yet.
  • Personal: only ran once this week and for 20 mins. I did 2 body pumps. nurtition was so so and I really didn’t do much of anything else.
  • Family: i did not cook for jake :/,  i did help kids with school+routine, we started to figure out plans for the rest of 2018 and some of 2019.

I celebrate: getting the planning process out the door.

I am grateful for:  my husband whose kindness is just unparalleled. 

Karen’s Points: 2 body pumps, one run this week. reasonable with nutrition but not perfect. it was ok.

A Change I embraced: a lot of work. just so much repetitive work. long, difficult nights of not a lot of sleep.

I let go of: trying to do it all at once and focused on what was a must-do

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: all this experience around the october event is fresh for me.
  • Magical: getting to do a bit of art was magical. 
  • Lighter: i feel lighter during the weekends. is that fair?
  • True: i am tired. i am worn out. 

Where I chose Joy: i laughed a lot at work this week. 

I showed up for:  david this week who had an 8th grade tea at school.

A Mistake I made this week: i had a meeting that went really poorly, i sent an apology letter but heard nothing back :/

What I tolerated this week: lack of sleep.

My mood this week was: worn out. 

I forgive myself for: snapping a bunch this week. i don’t do well when we talk in circles.

What I love right now: that i can still sit out in the backyard even though it’s getting cold.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 37


How I got Stronger this week: We started our week with a quick little getaway just the two of us. And then I also took Tuesday off and spent the whole day with my lovely friend Kelly, then I took all of Wednesday off and spent it with my wonderful husband. Thursday and Friday I worked hard. It was a good week despite feeling a bit more stressful than I would have liked. I showed up, I did my best, I tried to support everyone. I am calling it a win.

Top Goals Review: 

  • Work:
    • Work:  did one more turn of the crank for october but we need so many more. took two days off. woohoo.
    • Personal: i didn’t do any running this week at all. but i did three body pumps and my hiit class. i did’t meditate or journal. i did some lovely scrapping and that was it for the week. 
    • Family: i cooked very little this week, need to get back on track here. did help the kids. and did celebrate jake.

I celebrate: our weekend away. 

I am grateful for:  another year around the sun. i am so so grateful to be here, with these people in my life.

Karen’s Points: 3 body pumps, one hiit this week. reasonable with nutrition but not perfect. it was ok.

A Change I embraced: a lot of off time this week which was lovely but messed up all my routines of course.

I let go of: as much as i could.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: the getaway, our day in the city, having some time off was all fresh 
  • Magical: my weekend, my day with kelly and my day with jake were all truly magical
  • Lighter: i feel lighter now that i’ve worked a bunch to catch up
  • True: my life is still feeling off kilter and there’s a lot more to come in the rest of september and october. i would like to find ways to center myself.

Where I chose Joy: my wonderful birthday.

I showed up for:  my life this week with all the different layers of it.

A Mistake I made this week: i spin a bit more than i’d like. i’d like to be calmer, more centered, talk slower 🙂

What I tolerated this week: lack of routine.

My mood this week was: grateful. 

I forgive myself for: how hard some of this is for me. i am learning to embrace myself.

What I love right now:  that i can still sit outside in my backyard.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 36


How I got Stronger this week: This was a super tough week, I dropped the ball on a lot and just did the bare minimum. I felt (still feel) exhausted and spent and just overwhelmed much of this week. My head was (and is still) throbbing much of the week and I slept too little and exercised too little all week. I also ate poorly. so net net i’d say this wasn’t a week i particularly got stronger.

Top Goals Review: 

  • Work: didn’t really do .a full turn of the crank but i was present. 
  • Personal: only ran once and was for 1.5 miles. did one body pump. no thing else. 
  • Family: didn’t cook for jake, celebrated a little,  helped kids with school+routine a little.

I celebrate: i celebrate a successful summit.

I am grateful for:  a little quick getaway with jake.

Karen’s Points: i only did 1 short run and one body pump this week.

A Change I embraced: offsite all week really messed up my routines.

I let go of: everything this week, i am in so much pain.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: the offiste while a lot of work was great 
  • Magical: back to school night is always magical for me. 
  • Lighter: i feel lighter now that one offsite is done.
  • True: it was a terrible idea to drop everything this week but i couldn’t see another way forward.

Where I chose Joy: i was really present even though i had so much pain.

I showed up for:  my team.

A Mistake I made this week: i jump the gun a bit too soon. i need to be more patient. 

What I tolerated this week: pain.

My mood this week was: in pain. 

I forgive myself for: dropping the ball on my personal goals.

What I love right now:  not very much at this moment.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 35


How I got Stronger this week: I knew transition week would be hard and it was. Not as hard as I made it in my head, of course, But I gave myself a lot of grace this week while still doing the nonnegotiables and I think that helped a lot. I didn’t want to eat well or exercise this week and yet I tried and I showed up. I am putting this week in the win column.

Top Goals Review: 

  • Work:  focused on september and october offsites as much as possible, closed out strat sessions.
  • Personal: finished couch 2 5K woohoo!, did body pump, did hiit, so-so on the nutrition, meditated only once, journaled only once, too, scrapped but did only one art. didn’t do so well on the stretching or evening routine.
  • Family: cooked for jake only a handful of times this week,  worked on adjusting to school with the kids.

I celebrate: i celebrate the first week of school in the books!

I am grateful for:  using the alternate bus stop in the mornings, it’s been a game changer.

Karen’s Points: I did couch 2 5K all 3 days this week which meant I finished the program, I am super proud of that. I also did 3 Body Pump classes and one HIIT class. I journaled and meditated only one of the days and I scrapped. Not perfect but pretty good for how chaotic this week was.

A Change I embraced: school!

I let go of: getting art done with our new schedule. Some days I let go of everything just to get some rest in there.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: it was wonderful being at school on Monday and hearing all the inspiring talks 
  • Magical: i have a 4th and 8th grader now and they both seem happy at school, how can that not be magical?
  • Lighter: i feel lighter now that we’re transitioning into the new routine instead of me thinking about it nonstop
  • True: i’ve been journaling less and i can definitely see the impact (in a negative way.)

Where I chose Joy: i went to school on the first day and my friend kelly was there too, and it made my whole week!

I showed up for:  my friend, my colleague who’s traveling, my kids.

A Mistake I made this week: i made a bunch of small mistakes this week. sometimes jumping the gun too soon.

What I tolerated this week: ambiguity.

My mood this week was: exhausted. 

I forgive myself for: not getting it all done.

What I love right now:  that the kids are happy at school.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 34


How I got Stronger this week: This was a tough week, I was so so tired all week, and just couldn’t get out of a funk, or more specifically feeling like i am under a lot of weight. I came home most days this week feeling incredibly tired and worn out and just ready to throw in the towel. I didn’t do a great job of eating well, I ate a lot of granola and yogurt this week, but I still did my running, I did my body pump and HIIT classes, despite really feeling exhausted. I journaled, i showed up for my kids, I cooked at least a few times, i did what needed to be done. I am putting this week in the win column considering how hard it was for me.

Top Goals Review: 

  • Work:  made a deck for metrics, planned december a bit, allyship sent!, fleshed out sept offsite, started on oct offsite. 
  • Personal: couch 2 5K done, body pump 4 times this week, hiit once this week, so so on nutrition, meditated twice, journaled three times, did some art and the OLW for August, didn’t stretch enough, did the evening routine all but one night. 
  • Family: cooked for jake a little, did math with david and math, vocab and comp sci with Nathaniel, and we all went climbing together too.

I celebrate: i celebrate going rock climbing with my boys.

I am grateful for:  Jake’s support this week. He was so wonderful.

Karen’s Points: I did couch 2 5K all 3 days this week, 25 mins of running straight at 12 minute miles, that’s amazing for me. I also did 4 Body Pump classes and one HIIT class. I am still caffeine free. I had a lot of granola this week. I will go back to only the occasional bare bowls this week because I think i am doing too much dairy+granola and I don’t think it helps me with feeling energetic. I journaled and meditated 3 of the days. I continued the evening routine all but one night. Did the roller a tiny bit but didn’t stretch any.

A Change I embraced: there are lot of changes at work, i am working on them all. trying to do my best to roll with the punches.

I let go of: doing things at night when i was exhausted and i went to bed at 6:30 on Thursday and just read in bed. 

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: the rock climbing was definitely fresh, i was sore for 6 days afterwards
  • Magical: doing the OLW work was wonderful, i am hoping i’ll get to scrap a bit this weekend
  • Lighter: i go back and forth between feeling lighter and heavier
  • True: trying to stay true to who i am amidst a bit of chaos.

Where I chose Joy: i had lunch with an old friend and it was wonderful.

I showed up for:  my friend on monday night when she needed to talk to me.

A Mistake I made this week: i made a bunch of small mistakes this week. still trying to figure out how to navigate in general.

What I tolerated this week: exhaustion.

My mood this week was: down. 

I forgive myself for: needing extra rest this week. 

What I love right now:  despite all the crazy and all the tired, i am so super grateful for my life.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 33


How I got Stronger this week: This was a good week. I continued to do strength exercises and to run. I also meditated and journaled and continued with my evening and morning routines. I worked with the kids. I worked on the art and when the work days were long and I couldn’t, I gave myself grace. I also did a few things that were on my list but I hadn’t gotten around to doing.

Top Goals Review: 

  • Work:  cleaned up the onboarding doc, fleshed out thoughts on metrics and accessibility work and the offsite, and started planning december but very briefly
  • Personal: couch 2 5K, body pump, hiit, good nutrition, meditate, journal, art, stretch, and evening routine were all done! 
  • Family: cooked for jake, math, did comp sci and physics with david and math, did vocab and comp sci with Nathaniel

I celebrate: i celebrate finally putting our photos on the wall.

I am grateful for:  a new workmate who is kind and thoughtful. grateful he’s part of our team!

Karen’s Points: I did couch 2 5K all 3 days this week, I also did 3 Body Pump classes and two HIIT classes. I am still caffeine, sugar and grain and dairy free (though i ate granola twice with my bare bowl and ate yogurt with bit granola at work twice this week). I journaled and meditated 3 of the days. I continued the evening routine . Did the roller a bit but didn’t stretch too much imho.

A Change I embraced: my schedule was a bit off this week but I adjusted.

I let go of: having to be invited to all the meetings. it’s ok. 

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: the kayaking was crazy fun and fresh and adventurous.
  • Magical: my life is all feeling magical at the moment.
  • Lighter: the journaling is really helping here.
  • True: i am really looking forward to some scrapping this week.

Where I chose Joy: i hung our family photos on the wall and it’s making me joyous beyond words.

I showed up for:  our new colleague this week.

A Mistake I made this week: does anxiety count? I was anxious way more than necessary.

What I tolerated this week: longer days.

My mood this week was: centered. 

I forgive myself for: not adhering to the rules 100% , i am trying quite hard most days.

What I love right now:  the simplicity of my life. i know it’s all about to change so i am extra grateful.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 32


How I got Stronger this week: I did a lot of work on being stronger this week. I consistently worked on my exercise and strengthening my physical body. I also worked on my mental state by meditating most of the days. I established an evening routine to ground myself and do some of the small things I wanted to do more/better. I strengthened my emotional state by journaling most days and then having the conversations I needed to have at work. I also strengthened my connections by working with the kids each night, talking to my mom everyday and meeting up with my friend Leslie on Friday. I also found a babysitter and will be going out on date night and scheduled an adventure for all four of us. I did art every night even when I felt bad about the results. So I am feeling good about the work I did this week. 

Top Goals Review: 

  • Work:  the onboarding doc v2 is slightly done though could use another pass, started version one of thoughts on metrics, and started the accessibility work, also doubled down on the offsite – phew
  • Personal: did c25K three times, body pump 4 times and HIIT once, ate well and mostly slowly. I meditated four days and journaled four days. started the art class but didn’t scrap since i don’t have the kit yet. 
  • Family: cooked for jake, did math, comp sci and physics with david and did math, vocab and comp sci with Nathaniel

I celebrate: i celebrate having the hard conversations.

I am grateful for:  a manager i really like at work. I feel very lucky.

Karen’s Points: I did couch 2 5K all 3 days this week, I also did 4 Body Pump classes and one HIIT class. I am still caffeine, sugar and grain and dairy free (though i ate granola twice with my bare bowl, and 5 mini pretzels this week). I drink lactose-free decaf cappuccinos now.  Still a bit too high on nuts and fruit but I’ve been eating more slowly and reducing my portions by paying attention to when I am full so I don’t keep eating. I journaled almost every day and meditated 4 out of the 5 work days. I did start an evening routine and wash my face and floss nightly now. So the only two things I am not doing at the moment from my original plan are the stretching and the roller which I plan to incorporate into my evening routine so I am feeling optimistic at the moment.

A Change I embraced: a little bit of churn at work.

I let go of: deciding that the churn is mine to solve. waiting now.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: the art i am doing definitely feels new and raw and fresh and i am learning.
  • Magical: my routine feels very magical now but I know it will all change in two weeks when school starts
  • Lighter: much lighter now that i’ve had some hard conversations 
  • True: truth is that the journaling really helped and I am working hard to come back to myself.

Where I chose Joy: i’ve been listening to music when i journal, music from my twenties and it’s making me very happy.

I showed up for:  my friend this week.

A Mistake I made this week: i spun more out of control in my head than needed. i feel better now.

What I tolerated this week: too much stress inside my brain.

My mood this week was: relieved. 

I forgive myself for: spinning things out of control a bit. 

What I love right now:  my routine. my life. how much i spend my days doing what i want to be doing.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 31


How I got Stronger this week: I continued with my work around exercise and nutrition this week and I was very consistent with the kids. It helped that my meetings only went until 3pm most days so I could get home a bit earlier than usual. I tried harder, I also took some risks and I am not sure yet whether they paid off, I’m still working on choosing whom to please better and believing in abundance. But I keep showing up. And I keep going. I always keep going. I’ve been working hard on all of my word and mottos this year. I keep showing up. All. the. time.

Top Goals Review:  the onboarding doc v1 done, initial thoughts on metrics and accessibility not done, schedule the meetings on my todo is semi-done. i did couch 2 5K, and body pump and HIIT and ate well, and meditated, and journaled so little it doesn’t count, i didn’t do any art but i did scrap!

I celebrate: i celebrate having slightly shorter days every day this week.

 I am grateful for:  i had a lovely breakfast with my friend Leslie at work this week and it was really nice.

Karen’s Points: I did couch 2 5K all 3 days this week, I also did 3 Body Pump classes and one HIIT class. I am still caffeine, sugar and grain and dairy free (though I ate 5 jelly beans). I drink soy decaf cappuccinos still.  Still a bit too high on nuts and fruit but overall I’d say I’m pretty solid here. I’ve noticed that the morning routine is no problem but the evening routine is still super tough and i haven’t had the chance to sit with it yet.

A Change I embraced: a lot of change around me at the moment, i am trying to sit with it all.

I let go of: Controlling a few situations at work this week. I am learning to sit back. 

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: Nathaniel and I are doing a new online course.
  • Magical: Getting to scrap our holiday was very magical
  • Lighter: a bit lighter this week, it really helped to drive home one hour earlier.
  • True: truth is i am all over the place with how i feel and i really wish i could do better with the journaling.

Where I chose Joy: nathaniel and i had a math marathon on thursday that was really joyful for me.

I showed up for:  my kids. and for myself this week.

A Mistake I made this week: i think i am pushing a few boundaries at work and i am too worried about it all, so I am trying to make sure i don’t spin when the situation is unclear.

What I tolerated this week: still too tired and just some annoying communication breakages.

My mood this week was: slow. 

I forgive myself for: not being able to break out of my old tapes.

What I love right now:  the few weeks of summer we have left because i really love my morning routine at the moment even though it’s hard, it’s also so peaceful.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.

Weekly Reflection 2018 – 30


How I got Stronger this week: This week was really tough. I worked out a lot and pretty consistently even though I didn’t fully sleep through the night any night this week. I had a lot of meetings, and got a lot of work done. I also saw a friend from high school and spent time with my kids working. Made dinner each night. I feel like I worked at being the strongest version of myself along several verticals this week.

Top Goals Review: i had my talk at work, I did couch 2 5K and exercised ate well, meditated, didn’t journal enough and didn’t do enough art. I cooked for jake, did math and physics with david and did math, vocab and comp sci with Nathaniel. Pretty solid.

I celebrate: I celebrate making it to the end of this week. I am sore all over.

 I am grateful for:  having some work to do now that I am excited to do.

Karen’s Points: I did couch 2 5K all 3 days this week, I also did 4 Body Pump classes and one HIIT class. IT was a lot, I am sore all over. I meditated 3 days, I am still caffeine, sugar and grain and dairy free. I drink soy decaf cappuccinos now because I drank milk last week and had a reaction.  Still a bit too high on nuts and fruit but overall I’d say I’m pretty solid here. I’ve noticed that the morning routine is no problem but the evening routine doesn’t exist for me so I need to incorporate those things into my day better. 

A Change I embraced: mostly having a really crazy week this week.

I let go of: doing any actual work this week, i worked over the weekend instead.

Core Desired Feelings Check-in:

  • Fresh: I have a few fresh new projects I am excited about.
  • Magical: I saw my highschool friend Ebru and her family on Friday and that was awesome.
  • Lighter: not so light this week. though the meditation is helping.
  • True: truth is i am frustrated with having to build up my strength so slowly. but it’s the only way.

Where I chose Joy: the meetings, while a lot of them, have actually been joyful.

I showed up for:  my friend. my husband. and at work this week.

A Mistake I made this week: i put too many meetings on cal this week. i won’t do that again.

What I tolerated this week: a lot of soreness, tiredness, i need to see how i can make it better.

My mood this week was: tired. 

I forgive myself for: how long this whole thing takes.

What I love right now:  my family. i love love love them so much.


Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.